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TW im a mess

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TW: This is a SH blog I use to vent. I’m pro recovery and a fan of harm reduction.

My name is Ulye. He/him, I joined the pencil sharpener club at 12 and I’m 21 now.

Ask me whatever tf you want to know about my sh

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I miss you, but not all of you.

You have so much love in you, but I’ve seen too much of the hate to stay,

You deserve redemption.

I just can’t stand to sit here and watch,

I’ll always see your rage,

It bled too deep into me, I can’t erase it now. All I can do is leave you, for my own self interest.

So we won’t both die at each others throats.

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Just know, escape is possible. I rarely see my abuser, I’ve moved out, I have a job, even if I don’t have a car, I’ve made it out alive, I survived the worst of you, and me.

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I think I’m always gonna have this reoccurring dream. Where we move in together, into a small apartment with a few cats, where we sleep on opposite ends of a house and make dinner together while we talk shit about nothing. And the worst part? it’s gonna keep getting more and more melancholic as it gets further away.

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I started using my Harry Potter collection again, my parents are never gonna touch them so I can hide my alcohol containers behind them <3

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I miss you beebee,sorry I’m such a mess I want to be a better best friend but I feel like I’m slipping away

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Not e to self, vodka straight from bottle bad. Pure ethanol. Mou thaws h

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Why is it my problem you hate yourself

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Lemme know if you can hear us screaming at each other from your place, I’d like a heads up if the cops get called

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How obvious do I need to be for you to shut the hell up

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Aaahhh, addiction make me nauseous :(

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I underestimated how much it would hurt to see someone who looked like you again

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Special welcome back to f-my-mind-8. God bless the determination of tumblr users to remake their followers list every time

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Why is hello kitty so cvtcore?

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Me when I try to talk to you about something I find interesting and you end up basically saying the conversation doesn’t matter and there’s no point to talking about it:

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The younger sibling experience of not being able to leave your room because your family is having an argument and you don’t wanna interrupt by reminding them you exist

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Sometimes I feel invisible, or like some gross little bug people would rather step on than walk around. Do I need to advocate for myself more or do people just not care? I feel like I’m yelling as loud as I can and it just doesn’t matter