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stzno3:

‘ dont have to tell me twice . ‘

he at least got the stain out of his blazer after an hour of intense scrubbing and treatment , its soaking in fine water for now . he wanted to make food but it seems that somethings end up in a complete disaster . ( albeit unintentionally & not from him ) he wonders what the latter would be up to for the rest of today . thinned tiers form into a line of thought , an occasional quiver only to speak up .

‘ what do you have planned for today , ushijima ? ‘

for some resaon, hearing the latter utilize his last name had been odd. he prefers wakatoshi or the occasionally toshi ( which he finds absolutely adorable, albeit eita is the only individual who may use that nickname. he never had individual plans as he’s always the one dragged by tendou. however seeing as though the latter ( tendou ) is attempting to clean up his own chaos, he supposes nothing. ‘ nothing, though I do want to get ramen. would you like to come with me? ‘

stzno3:

‘ eh ? no , i just stumbled in on the mess and closed the door . ‘ ( thats not very nice , semi . ) ‘ im not having my ass get dragged into whatever mess he created . maybe id lend a hand if it didnt FURTHER continue to create the mess - marinara got all over my / w h i t e / blazer . ‘ the male replies in a slightly worried yet obviously irked tone , he can only assume tendou had been making spaghetti .

he doesn’t even know how to respond. hes imagining that-- how horrible it is in there. the mess fabricated by the demon himself ; a wrecked ship in the midst of peace. its almost as though chaos follows tendou like a puppy he once fed.

and now he just has the deadpan face. hes just offended at tendou-- at life.

‘ lets ignore them. ‘

kejidosuwan

USHIJIMA.

‘ dont bother going into the kitchen , its a disaster . . thanks to tendou. ‘

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‘ . . . . . ‘ he’s weighing out how bad it could potentially be. but oh - its tendou. he wouldnt think too much of it-- he believes in eitas word after all ( and he sure as hell isnt going to go in there to partake in cleaning the disaster either ).

‘ were you two trying to cook something together ?

starter call maybe

#makes a starter call on ushibae though

stzno3

yes he did go too far , he meant it when he apologized - he wanted to help the latter , help them both get over this minor crack . brows furrow , cheeks puffed & red - eita allows the taller to keep a hold of him because despite the prior wriggling and defensive stature he does want to be held . semi does want to call him an asshole but knows ushijima is aware of this , he observed the wash of self-hatred upon handsome complexion .

“ i forgive you . “

semi eita is a patient man and one that speaks very little unless it needed to be , he is also understanding when it comes to intense situations . of course the ace is forgiven . . but to say he didnt want compensation would be a vivid , dirty lie .

hey may be blunt, and also rather rough around the edges but hes not idiotic. he can read the latter just as easily as the latter can read him. he does take off his varsity jacket before placing it on the latters shoulders-- already knowing its never going to come back to him. but hes more than okay with that-- seeing the latter adorn overly large sweaters and/or jackets had been charming -- it moves even ushijima wakatoshi ( not to mention it makes him feel good seeing the latter in his clothing ).

‘ I have a present for you. ‘

he does. two bracelets are fetched from pockets-- one of dark purple hue and the other of pink pastel shade. he does place said bracelet around the latters wrist, a small smile gracing features.

‘ its a perfect fit. the color also looks good on you. ‘

stzno3

unfortunately by the time the latter had tried to console him , he had been crying - hand held upon upper visage as the lsat thing he wants is for others to see him like this . smaller frame does try to move away , aggravation prominent because he really didnt want to be touched or held by his boyfriend , in fact he doesnt really want to call him that after all of this .

“ just stop. “

it might be better that they take a break . . or agree on a mutual feeling for one another . eita apologized already , its clear that he wouldnt do it again . chest heaves , dampness running down crimson tinted features . ushijimas honesty is something semi admired and is glad he is upfront about any and all situations .

he doesnt have to be a genius to know he went too far. tongue like knife saturated in poison, however he knows he went too far.

‘ no. im not letting you go. ‘

however if the latter TRULY wanted him to let him go-- or if he wants a break then yes, ushijima would comply and give him whatever he pleases. hes infatuated with him ; verging of love ( or perhaps hes already in love ). he wants the latter to be happy, despite actions that make him feel uncomfortable he usually remains silent unless asked.

‘ its understandable if you dont want to be with me any longer. though I’ll always keep on loving you from afar. just know that im sorry for this. you apologized and I shouldnt of pushed you on. ‘

because he knows they have their differences ; norms and acts that both of them could do in order to aggravate each other. semis affection to other peeves him, and perhaps wakatoshis inability to read between the lines and take everything literally aggravated him too. nonetheless he would stand by anything the latter says, allowing him to choose the direction of where this goes.

stzno3

his attitude had been awful , dreadful . the first year had been dear family towards semi eita , always had he & satori been doting towards him with the occasional outing and paying for meals . to know wakatoshi is acting like this because a simple kiss upon nose ? its absolutely lurid . tired irises focus on the taller , darkened circles obvious - hes watching the latter closely , his words and the way he spoke . hes hurt , that much is obvious but so is semi - he would of at least hoped the ace had more trust in him .

“ i AM loyal . if youre accusing me of being unloyal because i kissed someones nose thats family to me - then you might as well get upset at me for doing the same with my mother . “

he does hear the latters words ; its best if we arent together . it seems like something the two will both decide as ushijima is far too possessive , did he like it - yes , to an extent . semi did apologize however he knows even so that the taller would be bitter for a while - he didnt think he needed permission but he certainly doesnt want to lose him especially from a petty situation like this .

“ dont say that . “

lips quiver , eyes appear to be strained because he cannot fathom or completely grasp the thought of not being with someone he spilled his heart to . it isnt long before he does feel nose beginning to grow crimson in color - tips of ears too . chest tightened drastically , eita doesnt know what to say any more about the subject - especially when regarding something as vital as their relationship .

‘ its different. your mother and goshiki are different. theres a fine line between blood related family and those who you deem as ‘ family ‘. ‘ however, upon seeing the latters nose grow crimson in hue he cant help but to feel bad. a pang of self hatred washes upon visage-- he feels like a spiteful asshole. however, he was being true to his sentiments, he should have a say in how he feels as well.

‘ im being honest to myself. despite him being family it hurts me ine very way possible. ‘

aren’t you hurting now ? I feel exactly the same way. ( inwardly ).

‘ . . . . ‘

a pause however strong arms would wrap around his lover, already is he pulled upon well chiseled bodice, arms having a TIGHT grasp upon lithe waist. no hes not letting him go, lips kiss porcelain temple in sheer adoration. ‘ im sorry. I was cruel and rude about this. ‘

stzno3

a genuine apology too , the male turns complexion downwards and casts a firm gaze unto flooring . he wanted to yell and say how it had only been a nose kiss and that the person had been family to him … and that he didnt agree with the others behavior . eita understands that the taller is possessive however it still leaves a bad taste in his mouth especially when he wont forgive and forget .

“ it seems we both arent happy with each other . “

stares hard. of course he wont forgive and forget-- he may forgive but he wont FORGET. ‘ and why arent you happy with me ? ‘ but oh he has an idea though. a clear idea of why his lover had been unhappy ; his attitude wasnt it. however he feels as though he has every right to be unhappy and bitter-- he KNOWS the latter would dislike it if he went kissing those he deemed as close as well.

‘ perhaps you’re unhappy with my attitude-- but I have ever right to be disappointed in you. I had faith in you that you would be loyal-- platonic kisses included. if you disagree and want to kiss others-- despite platonic its best if we aren’t together. ‘

because he hates it most. even witnessing that makes throat go dry, heart squeezing by barbed wires. however lips are barbed and hes silent-- not wanting to confront the latter especially if it makes him happy. but the pang of jealousy-- that sensation of distrust had been prominent because of that. perhaps if the latter had asked ? oh if he had asked wakatoshi would have agreed. but doing something so abruptly worries him ; what if semi does it again however upon someones lips just because they were family? its unfair for him and hes clear hurt. complexion isnt mad ; demeanor calm. however behind those usual hard nonchalant eyes had been sadness that he couldnt elucidate or mutter. its trapped in his frame of mind and he’d much rather be alone to calm himself -- at least bottle up those emotions once more so the latter wouldnt be unhappy with his actions. hues are growing rather painful ; stinging in terms of where he wants to cry. he absolutely loathes this and wants to be alone.

stzno3

at least he spoke up about it and didnt continue to ignore him , it would of made the smaller feel even worse . oh , he understands now albeit different POVS the pinchserver would not neglect his boyfriends own thoughts especially when he appears hurt ( annoyed ) and very displeased about it .

“ i didnt think it would of been a big deal , i know it is now and i wont do it anymore . im sorry wakatoshi . “

well at least there was an apology. nonetheless bitterness remains prevalent ; oh so aggravating upon tongue. he doesnt understand why he thought it would be okay-- why the notion itself was okay. no its NOT okay in his opinion, he saved himself for him-- the least the latter could do is that as well.

“ . . . . “

hes possessive. the latter should know this by now. he remains quiet nonetheless before looking away-- disappointment prevalent.

stzno3:

“ talk to me . “

in other words , the setter knows something is wrong and / or troubling the ace . it doesnt take much to have a gut feeling and eita had been one with keen observation , it felt as though the latter had been ignoring him and purposely avoiding him all day which is extremely troublesome .

@wakaushi

well hes honestly tempted to continue on with it-- but he wasn’t rude enough that he would BLATANTLY ignore him if he were to speak to him.

‘ your actions-- I dislike them. especially when you kiss others despite it being platonic. ‘

its honestly a major turnoff for him. kissing is kissing for him. those lips should ONLY be his and not shared with anyone else ; thats at least what the ace is also doing for the latter ( and he expects reciprocity ).

#wiggle wiggle wiggle

eita.

eita watches closely for his reaction - movements , vocals , everything came to him in a millisecond , the former setter was known to have keen observation skills and would take note of everything especially when it had came to personal endeavors or possibly intimate moments like this . thick ebony furrows as the male appeared to be blushing by his gesture , hand that had held his own would give it a loving squeeze . semi was rarely one for gifts and hardly cared to receive them but knowing his boyfriend and future husband had spent time to pick out a heartfelt gift causes heart to race - blood pumping through veins .

“ wakatoshi . . “

silky name rolled off tongue , warm , sandy hues now glance downwards and ahead at the mirrored roads - ice skimmed across ; hazardous . ( he never did care for the ice , perhaps its because of how many times its caused him pain ) semi analyzes handsome complexion , the angle of jaw , the way he smiles just for him … its all too good to believe , he felt as though he needed to pinch himself or be shook awake .

“ of course i can . . i was hoping you would invite me over . “

he keeps a neutral expression ( aka his usual expression ). perhaps it would be difficult for the blind eye to view such affection that resides within his warmth ; evident love and passion behind hard chocolate gaze. unlike orbs they lack in translucence, its difficult to read him but he would gladly open himself for the latter.

“ good. “

arm instinctively extends to wrap around lithe waist. digits rest upon the cure of the shorter, a gentle squeeze given before ushering him away. he feels embarrased now -- his own gift was nowhere close to how beauteous and special eitas gift had been. what was this... was he feeling nervous?

deep breathes wakatoshi. inhale. exhale.

funny how the cosmos work-- for once the usual stagnant ushijima wakatoshi had been melting. they weren’t even kissing ; mild body contact. though knowing that he was his brought an odd fluttering sensation within abdomen. ah- this must be what it feels like to be in love. to even love him so much that he sees the violet under eitas eyes when he lacks in sleep and the sunsets in the downward arch of his lips, and that he would not waste his time trying to fix his lover because he was already the embodiment of perfection.

hes so weak.

“ hn. “

a blush present ; roseate dusting complexion before free hand comes to hide lower complexion. visage scrunched and its obvious that hes embarrassed.

kejidosuwan

he does wait patiently for his boyfriend , patience radiating from being whilst occasionally looking at phone - its the holidays and he didnt know what to get the latter . ( maybe hell just wrap himself in ribbon and give himself as a gift ) minor blush forces itself into apricot , it had certainly been unwated as the pinchserver didnt want to be seen so easily flustered . once ushijima is spotted eita bestows a smile that is selectively given to a single hands count ( or less ) .

theyve known one another for three years but have only been dating around the third , though , their bond had been unlike any other and their loyalty for one another vividly paints their intertwining fates . standing as tall and straight as possible ( albeit still smaller ) he extends for his hand - silver band ( promise ring ) pulled out from box whilst slipping it around index finger .

“ a promise ring for you - I promise to be your lover, companion and friend, your partner in parenthood, your ally in conflict, your greatest fan and your toughest adversary. your comrade in adventure, your student and your teacher, your consolation in disappointment, your accomplice in mischief. this is my sacred vow to you, my equal in all things. . “

@wakaushi

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Its gotten rather cold. frostbite prominent and icicles dangling from the corners of the roof. scarf is tightly wrapped around him ; vermilion in hue ( his mother had always noted about how red had been a wondrous hue for wakatoshi, hence why he often wears red ). he has a date with his lover today as well as a small gift-- its christmas and hes rather BAD at purchasing gifts ; always overthinking or perhaps even aiming for too much simplicity. though its always the season of appreciation and giving, even if others didnt like said present they would usually ( usually ok ) merely nod and accept the present with masked glee.

however for once, he genuinely hopes he would make his lover jovial.

hues widen upon the promise ring slid upon fingers-- blinks provided before hand is clamped over tiers ; oh no hes so WEAK and scarlet flourishes upon complexion.

‘ you always give the best presents. thank you, I will cheris it for a lifetime. ‘

until he’s old enough to properly propose to him.

he has a present for him but hes unsure of whether to give it to him or not right now-- its at home nonetheless. staring at his lover he cant help but to smile -- theres always a warm fluttering that he associated with him. he would most definitely choose him ; in a hundred liftetimes, a hundred worlds, and in ANY version of reality. ushijima wakatoshi is all his, body and soul despite himself feeling as he doesnt have as much to offer to him other than his unbounded love.

‘ my present for you is at home. could you come over later? ‘

#: ^)