(only using this to write down my thoughts and how I feel, it will be boring so don't bother reading)
I'm so upset he wasted my time like that and although we aren't together anymore I just wanted closure and he said he really wanted to see me and couldn't give me a time of when and then kicked up a fuss about me doing other things on the same day. He is acting like he doesn't give a fuck and just wants to waste my time and then be offended when I say 'my time' I'm so confused upset and frustrated. I know I shouldn't let anyone have this emotional hold over me. Him and his friend go out looking for girls now anyway and he tries to message them so it's probably for the best. I bet his on a dating app and feels like a god now. Crazy how once he used to be so sweet and now he has crazy anger issues. I put myself in a vulnerable position to try to calm down his anger and toxicity but anything I say he tries to find something in it that could offend him. Fuel his anger. Which is crazy. He wants to be that way. Wild that I can still care and love someone so much after everything they have put me through and now this. It feels like heart break all over again. It fucking hurts. But I know it shouldn't and won't forever. I should block him on all social media. But I know I'll regret doing that soon after. What do I do? Maybe if I treat it like a break... Even though I haven't seen him in months I'll treat it as a break. Whenever I think of his responses back to my vulnerable messages I just get so frustrated and upset. Don't you see I'm trying to fucking reach out to you and tell you how I feel and you need to stop telling me you're offended and you need to stop putting words in my mouth and trying to hate me so bad.
Why am I spending so much emotional energy on someone I know I'm not going to end up with? He meant a lot to me and I want things to end well and not ugly but it doesn't look like he cares about that
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