My Demons And I

Witness the release of my locked mind. 27, Writer / Poet, & Lost / Alone

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Giving You Up - Kameron Marlowe

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I be hoping to see something different sometimes. Na just same shit different day. Lol I guess that’s why I don’t stay looking in the same areas really.

Some people never change. Doing the same shit they did 10 years ago. Just different location.

Aye I’m not judging. Just think it’s funny people talk about new and improved yet go down the same path theyve been for years. Like the outcome is any different.

I’ve taking a good leave from social medias and socializing in general. Nice sometimes to know you’re thoughts are your own.

Because people these days couldn’t come up with an original idea if their life depended on it. And then copy someone else and claim it as their own.

Sheesh.

Blood to rich for me.

Just pay to be like someone else.

Copy cat ninjas.

No I don’t miss a thing from the past. More so glad I wasn’t the one to stay caught up in cycles and circles.

Made good changes. Not trying to go back. Quit smoking cigs. Go for walks regularly. Getting work done. Still living and holding shit down on my own. Use to think I needed someone, now I think someone gon need me. Am I gonna let the walk all over me or not? Most definitely not. Because I can hold my own. Glad to say I’ve held this place for years. But definitely time to advance on.

Hate the thought of moving back to the big city.

But hate driving a brick to work.

One of these projects will take off though and it will seem like such a waste to worry,

-SubtleDismal

2/4/22

09:53:27

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When your happy about something, why do people feel the need to play ya down? Like oh that’s nice, BUT is it this good… Like because I made it with my bare hands it can’t be as good as something in them expensive stores. Have drawn conclusions without even testing the theory.

-SubtleDismal

11/17/21

08:58:27

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On another note. I think I’ll take on the roll of “The make it happen man”.

Because ya boy is finessing lately. Scraping by about to be blasting through.

There’s this move that’s like a slingshot. You follow someone’s path close from behind, leaving them as the tank

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Self Control

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Is what I have to say not important?

Every night while i sit there dormant.

You come in and tell tails of torment.

All the things that weigh on your mind like cement.

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Someone told me the other day “you can’t make something out of nothing”

But I see people selling garbage everyday...

One man’s trash is another man’s treasure.

But I thought a little harder, with the right skills you can make something from nothing.

I’ll give you an example.

Let’s say you have nothing.

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He thought he had me.

It’s fourth quarter and shawty I’m finna ball out.

Show out till the end.

Act like stunting on em is a sin.

Shit it’s a habit.

Wouldn’t know even if you had it.

So you can throw me in the flames,

Bury me in gold chains.

-SubtleDismal

10-8-21

09:04:27

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When you can do anything, what do you choose?

-SubtleMisery

10-3-21

21:26:27

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I’m tryin get my chips up so I can frito lay.

-Kodak

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Some people only keep in contact so that they can get recognition from you. Helps their little ego showing what good recently they’ve done. But won’t talk about all the bad in between. Or how this didn’t work. Or this. Just what they did that’s working. Good job. And then?

We out here making bread homie. Not tryin show off anything. If I give you knowledge don’t be so disrespectful and then come back expecting me to be excited for you? Tf. Get over yourself. Lemme feed they ego tho, make em feel good for nothing in return.. bc I’m just a good guy like that. Don’t think I don’t see the obvious though.

Lot of two faced folks out there. Act like they there for ya until shit gets real and we really trying to do stuff out here. Not just talk about it. Then people start thinning out. That’s alright though we make shit happen in this house. No time for people to be slowing us up.

Shit congrats, damn good for you. Hope you have a good one now!

Cus you know they don’t really gaf about what you have to say. Only looking for affirmations.

-SubtleDismal

9-20-21

20:24:27

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How can you be so loved yet so hated?

Such lust with such envy.

-SubtleDismal

9-16-21

23:59:27

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Some women will lie, cheat, and use you, and then expect you not to do the same. They’ll play the victim role to get you back in.

You can not say and do disrespectful shit and expect the other side to conform to your logic.

You can’t hurt them and expect not to get hurt back.

Fall in love with their actions, not words.

-SubtleDismal

9-15-21

10:05:27

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“I cry in the dark that’s why it seems alright”

-Kevo Muney

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I got addictive tendencies and if I could just get a little more of you, I think I’d be fine..

-SubtleDismal

10:27:26

9/6/21

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Whatever’s working is what we go with.

Not gonna stunt it if it don’t fit

Top shotta, so you know it’s gon hit.

Put that shit on the map like a blip.

-SubtleDismal

00:58:26

9/6/21

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Folks be like, don’t know unless you ask.

Mafucka if you ask me for sumn again ima beat yo ass. Foh man. Always ask for shit never wanna provide nun. Fuck you mean can you?

Ima steal one of these” well I know you ain’t gon pay for it ya broke bitch.

Hoes man..

-SubtleDismal

9/3/21

11:32:26