27/17 @suchabeaautifuldream - Tumblr Blog

I haven't used tumblr since February and I gained over 100 followers while I was gone what's up I'm still alive hi

I'm seriously too pissed off for this. for everything. nothing calms me down. I genuinely wish I could die temporarily.

I wish there were more cute gay girls in my area

Tattoo number 4. Done by Nick at Scorpion Tattooing in Derry, NH. lil Tiffany blue and red rosebuds. ❤️

#mine #self #tattoo #scorpion tattooing #rosebuds

I don't even want him back anymore, I just want myself back.

holy shit I only weight 101.6 pounds.

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7 quirky cat behaviors and what they mean

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I was wondering how many of these traits you have to share in order to be named honorary cat.

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“He doesn’t want you to stop petting! That’s a love bite!!!”

No means no applies to cats too

there is nothing left inside of me besides bones and hatred. ive wasted away to 105 pounds. i eat once a day. i can't eat because of the pain. i don't even feel hunger anymore. my eyes are sunken in. my pants don't fit anymore. i survive off of gatorade and cigarettes. i can't leave my bed. i can't sleep because when i close my eyes it all comes back. all of my effort, wasted. everything i put myself through. everything he put me through. all I have to show for the love we shared is the barely-alive human i became. he tells me this will all pass. that he cant be with me. 'if you ever loved me, you'll do this.' the life we shared only matters to half of the team we were. tells me to let it go, to move on. i just don't understand how im expected to live like this when every moment im awake, im wishing i wasn't. this is not a suicide note. this is not me saying i am planning to kill myself. i am not going to.

#personal #sick of people being nice to my face but proving everything they said wrong #idfk

it sucks how one text can set you back days of progress

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new sheets to match my cat

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I feel like this is a @suchabeaautifuldream thing

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oh my goodness

#I'm so glad Rachel still knows me so well after all these years

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don't get your hopes up too much bc this is from last September

sorry 2 be a party pooper

just a reminder that eating disorders are not actually glamorous, and anyone who promotes them is a piece of shit. my face looks sunken in now. the bags under my eyes don't go away. I have peach fuzz covering my body. and people still say to me 'I wish I was as skinny as you!' no you don't, because A. you'd have to hear about it all the time and B. it's not healthy. I personally go through phases with my ED, periods where I'm ok with my weight, then periods where I'm not happy with it no matter what. I don't feel good about it, I don't look great, and I honestly don't know why I still suffer from anorexia. TL;DR: don't want to be like someone with an eating disorder. you're better off not mentioning a person's weight. none of that 'you look so good!' after a weight loss/gain because you don't know the circumstances.

#ED trigger warning #ed trigger #trigger warning #am I doing these right #Ed tw #eating disorder tw