thought & taught

A dimsum in a pasar malam

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Noisy Mornings

Finally, after two days with little sleep, I slept a long sleep until a little bit after midnight, riddled with so many dreams, waking up every few hours and falling asleep again. Nothing new to me. I can term these nights as the dream marathon nights. Worse than these dream marathon nights are the nightmarish mornings. It's not just one's own thoughts that one has to deal with during the mornings, but other's as well, which are spoken out, vehemently calling for attention from those in the near vicinity. Add the nature to this and it becomes quite a cacophony to those who are used to the quiet quiet nights.

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Insomnia

Is there such a thing as being addicted to insomnia? I always knew I tend to focus more on work when it's calm around me. But a night has such a dark quietness about it that it's worth staying awake and savoring it. At this time, it's easier to be in the 'now' or let the mind wander without interruption from the uneven sun. Maybe this 'easy' is what is attractive to those who don't sleep at night. I am tired and sleepy but I do no want to waste the night away with cruel dreams that leave behind too much excitement and too many questions.

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Diseases

Am I ill? What does the tag on the right side of my head mean? Brain cancer? What about the new moles on my face? Does it mean I have skin cancer? Am I suffering with any autoimmune disease? Celiac or thyroid perhaps? Something dangerous? I am healing slower than ever and I am putting on so much weight, maybe half a pound each day. I feel depressed, blaming people around me for the decisions I have made, letting people believe that I am lazy when I am one of the least lazy person among all the people I know. I am not scared of the thoughts of putting an end to all this. I feel that I am stuck here among things like a bad marriage and bad food. What to do, what to do. I know at least one of the diseases I have though. I have a disease of the mind and thought. The poison, hate and resentment needs to be let out somehow.

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WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?

guavas, mangoes and coca cola

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A bigger view

One just sees a lot more things when one is wearing heels.

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A list of fiction - fantasy, fairy and folk tales

http://www.fanatics4classics.com/gut/gutenberg-myths.html Just what one needs when it rains. Other than some hot tea. How I wish I had the real books instead of these stories crammed in some HTML pages.

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Fried Chicken

Sometimes, we can be spot on when we judge a book by it’s cover. Most times, not. 

Triple dipped fried chicken I made at home yesterday. It tasted really bad.

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From Life Inspired

"We don't want to wait to have fun until we got thin or lost weight. We wanted to enjoy our curves." - Ladies from a plus-sized clothing store on a reality TV show

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A few weeks after my marriage, my husband and I painted these step by step paintings.

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A lot of Nutella please

I am going to eat a big nutella sandwich now. Nutella. NUTella. nutElla. Nut-Ella. Nuuuuuuuuttteeeeeeeeelllla. 

Picture taken from Our Best Bites

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Tidbits of life

I heard someone talking loudly, non-stop and went to my balcony to check if there's some sort of trouble going on downstairs. Nope. It's a kid. Rapping. He and his friend are sitting on the curb. One of them is rapping and his friend is holding a phone near his mouth to record it I guess. Their bicycle is lying on it's side beside them. Gah, he is are still rapping. "...one side...school monkey......fuc..ng.......................real...."

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Pretty Rains

We have been experiencing a dry spell here recently but it rained this morning. Mom and I were so delighted once we started hearing the familiar patter of the rain drops. It's greener, cooler, prettier and just a joy to watch out the window. 

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It's time for one of those failure quotes

Reading so many quotes and stories on the media does prepare one well for failure. Or not. I am not sure. I am actually thankful to all those peeps who flood my Facebook wall with quotes about failure, success, how one needs to keep trying and keep failing. I will probably start contributing to this topic in some way from now on, just for the sake of all those would be and will be failures. Of course, everyone fails at some or the other point in their lives. So I will give some words , and maybe some workshops in the future, for them because so many contributions from known and unknown resources have sort of prepared my mind for this onslaught of failure I face now.

I am just telling myself that it's alright. Just try again. For the goals I have set myself, there is no easy way to achieve them. It's good to be positive but at the same time, it is also good to expect rejection and challenges on the way to attaining a goal.

I don't want to dwell much on my past choices and ruminate and research on failure now. I'll just end with a note about what I think should be the way forward for anyone who has just failed: Try again. Sorry, that line is so obvious and overdone. But please try again. However you think you should try again, whether by changing your ways or not changing your ways, whether you need to focus on what people think or don't think, whether there is motivation or there isn't, consult your inner self, your logic and your feelings, figure out the best way and try once more. 

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A Children's story - The Big Forest

Once upon a time, there was a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigggggg forest and in that forest, there lived a small, teeny tiny ant.

Aaaaand in that forest there was also a fast cheetah along with which lived a sloooow tortoise.

And they all lived in harmony, happily ever after. The End.

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The Science of Character: Shaping You and Your Community's Strengths

Every year I try to do at least a couple of things that totally scare the sh*t out of me. Sometimes it goes well, sometimes I fail, but I always learn some new edge to push against of what I can do or what I need to work on.

Usually there is one moment on the morning of the said talk, premiere, or event that I ask myself, “Why did I need to put myself through this?”

At this moment, I try to conjure up my late father’s voice in a very “Obi-Wan Kanobi” echo: “You can do anything you set your mind to.” That was the superpower my father taught me from an early age.  

- Tiffany Shlain