sudden & strange surrenders

S. 20s. she/her

[suddenstrangesurrenders]

More from Pincers on my Substack. <3

[suddenstrangesurrenders]

I am writing because I seek understanding, not because I have come to some decisive conclusion, and can now use hindsight to shape the experience into a narrative. My present life (the now that surrounds the writing but isn’t the act) is perforated by intense desires and the reactive emotions that rise to meet them.

— from my latest personal essay Losing My Favourite Game (yes like The Cardigans song)

[suddenstrangesurrenders]

I am terrible at posting what I write but I am proud of this one.

Excerpt from Losing My Favourite Game on Substack

[candiedspit]

New favorite poem

[ceruleanheaven]

forgive me father for i have not locked in

[sioltach]

YOU DID NOT COME INTO THIS WORLD. YOU CAME OUT OF IT, LIKE A WAVE FROM THE OCEAN. YOU ARE NOT A STRANGER HERE

[achillesinhighheels]

[suddenstrangesurrenders]

On Growing and Girlhood

[indulgedandbruised]

[suddenstrangesurrenders]

Losing my favourite game.

warning! this essay may contain mid-twenties carcinogens

My latest Substack post is named after my favourite Cardigans song and imbued with the truth of living in London in your twenties…

[suddenstrangesurrenders]

Excerpt from my latest Substack post

[havingapoemwithyou]

first of december by Natalie Shapero

[feral-ballad]

Ramy Al-Asheq, tr. by Isis Nusair, from Ever Since I Did Not Die; “The Test of Longing”

[metamorphesque]

musings on pomegranates  

Pomegranates, Sin Hum (translated by Graeme Wilson), Rubik Kocharian

[datadegroove-deactivated2026042]

has anyone noticed theyre taking away what it means to be human

[alchemicalcodes]

Anaïs Nin

[anxeious]