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From a 28 year old:

I used to think I knew it all, and now all I know is that I don’t know anything. Growing up is weird, rewarding, depressing, exciting, tiring, euphoric, overwhelming, and exhilarating all at the same time. I now understand that this is only the beginning. I have a lot to learn and I’m looking forward to it. Beats the young girl that was dreading her existence in the first place. I am eternally grateful to her for not giving up.

#if you are struggling with your mental health #feel free to #dm me #my dms are open #mental health #mental health awareness #mental heath advocate

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" Dear future me ... "

Dear future me,I hope you’re doing well. I hope you married that girl and you have 3 beautiful kids. I hope you live in a big house and have a good job that you love. I hope the urges don’t get to you anymore. I’m living for you so I hope you’re life is a good one.

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Need to remind myself what I’m living for.

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Reading this 8 years later. Wedding date set and baby plans are in the works. I have my dream job & am in a place I never would’ve imagined in a million years. I can finally say, I have a good life. Don’t give up. It gets better.

Sometimes I'm scared of death. And sometimes I'm wishing for it.

#death #sadness #suicide #depression #depressed #sad #kill me #trigger #tw #desd inside #cutting addiction #i want to cut so bad

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Please help me escape abuse

Hi, my name is Fae. I’m an autistic and Native trans woman, and I’m a survivor of abuse and trauma.

My parents were always strict, but starting around 2015, when I left my faith and came out as transgender, they started to become abusive. Every member of the house (father, mother, and brother) has physically assaulted me. I spent much of my teenage years being constantly monitored with spyware, having the police called on me as a control method, being gaslighted and manipulated, and becoming suicidal and depressed as a result.

A moment I remember particularly well: in mid-November 2016, my father shoved me into a painting, getting shards of glass shards stuck in my palm (this is what is depicted in the right side of my cover photo). He then looked me in the eye and asked me why I intentionally fell into the painting. My parents continued to harass and berate me as I cried and washed the glass shards out of the stinging wound so I could bandage it.

This was just a day before I was strangled by my father, who then used my self-defense as an excuse to coerce me into a prison-like mental hospital.

My home life, in short, has become extremely unsustainable & unlivable, and it’s been that way for some time. I need access to housing as soon as possible. As a result of COVID-19, I can’t go back to the job I held. I’m doing the best I can to try and support myself by working online, but I desperately need funds to get my feet off the ground.

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I’ve set up a GoFundMe. Please support me by donating, or by sharing this post. Anything you can do will help.

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-me-escape-domestic-abuse-amp-find-housing?utm_source=customer&utm_medium=copy_link-tip&utm_campaign=p_cp+share-sheet

I’m also taking commissions for music composition & production. Please message me on here or on Twitter if you’d like to commission me for something.

What would you do if you were in a relationship with a partner who had a much lower or much higher sex drive than you?

#sex #sex advice #relationship advice #help #please #sad #depressed #trying not to settle #dont know what to do #happy #unhappy #unfufilled

Trying my best to stay alive, thanks.

#it's a struggle honestly #sad #depressed #kill me #dead #dead inside #suicide #depression #anxiety #anxious #bummed

Fuck this life. I dont think the urge to cut will ever go away. I thought I'd be at peace by now. I dont know why I feel the way I do.

#why wont she talk to me #she completely ignore me when i try talking to her #i dont think she does it on purpose but i need my girlfriend back #fuck this #fuck this life #sad #depressed #anxious #lgbt #gay #lesbian #lesbians of tumblr #miami #miami lesbian

Social distancing is taking a toll on my mental health.

#super anxious #anxiety #stressed #covid19 #coronavirus #rona #sad #depressed #depression #sadness #suicide #suicidal

Sometimes I feel good

#420 #weed #sad #marijuana #depressed #anxious #anxiety #photography #perfect

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I will write about the following, leave one in my ask box.

Dear person I hate, Dear person I like, Dear ex boyfriend, Dear ex girlfriend, Dear ex bestfriend, Dear bestfriend, Dear *anyone*, Dear Santa, Dear mom, Dear dad, Dear future me, Dear past me, Dear person I’m jealous of, Dear person I had a crush on, Dear girlfriend, Dear boyfriend, Dear [insert URL here],

It's always the antagonist that has this traumatic and psychologically jarring past. I don't want to be the antagonist of this story but it seems life has a funny way of writing a fucking book.