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aaahhistsjslxgtseqhc diary of a mentally ill teenager

[suicidalmedeea]

INTRO ʳᵉᵇᵒᵒᵗᶦⁿᵍ...

tw: suicide, ed, unhealthy love, disturbing stuff ..

jiraiblr

ⁿᵃᵐᵉ: 𝐦𝐞𝐝𝐞𝐞𝐚

ᶠᵃᵛ ᶜʰᵃʳᵃᶜᵗᵉʳˢ: 𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧, 𝐲𝐮𝐫𝐢, 𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐮𝐫𝐚, 𝐞𝐧𝐚 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐨𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐞, 𝐮𝐳𝐢 𝐝𝐨𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐧

ᵐᵒʳᵉ ᶠᵃⁿᵈᵒᵐˢ: 𝐧𝐬𝐨, 𝐝𝐝𝐥𝐜,𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐨𝐤𝐚, 𝐩𝐣𝐬𝐤, 𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐫𝐢, 𝐦𝐮𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐝𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬, 𝐃𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐲𝐬 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝, 𝐜𝐫𝐤 𝐞𝐭𝐜..

˖⁺.꒷꒦♡꒷꒦˖⁺. 𝐬𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐫𝐲.

do:anons, interact, be nice, vent, talk about fandoms etc..

don't: 18+, send nsfw, disturbing stuff, weird stuff etc..

I will probably block u if I am uncomfortable!

exploring the internet..

[suicidalmedeea]

Guys yes I am alive I'll be inactive

[suicidalmedeea]

I've been unactive

[suicidalmedeea]

give me anons.

[suicidalmedeea]

I went to therapy today

[suicidalmedeea]

I becamed obsessed with serial experiments Lain

[suicidalmedeea]

This week of school we don't have to get books! Like we don't get home work! It's the most fun week in all year tbh we just lwk do art and talk, and I love my school bag! I only have 3 hour school yasss and when I come home I can play ddlc on my laptop!!

[suicidalmedeea]

Why is everyone suddenly interacting with my „normal“ posts but nobody interacts with my vent notes?? Do people not care at all??

[suicidalmedeea]

I will change my theme and my intro post!!

[suicidalmedeea]

thinking of changing my theme btw don't you think seals are cute :D ? My new copying mechanisms are watching cute seal/cat videos or go play with my kitty!!

[suicidalmedeea]

I love spamming

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I hate having curly hair like I just got a haircut 2 days ago and I made my hair more straight and now it's curly again?? I guess I will just use a method every morning before skool to make it straighter since I just can't take my hair anymore,, I hate it I hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate itI hate it why did I had to be born with it I hate my childhood

photos my future bf will be disgusted.

[suicidalmedeea]

I will be meeting with my pookie and that will probably help my mental state. Just to get distracted... And talk about our crushes

[suicidalmedeea]

I hate having to sleep at night. I get these thoughts that I simply can't get out of my mind, dude,, I shouldn't touch the internet anymore... I have to sleep with my mum so I don't have a panic attack, I am really scared of dreams like nightmares, or worse... Sleep paralysis...

Sorry I'm not really good at venting

[suicidalmedeea]

Mental state check ig

I'll do a mental state check once a week, so here's the first one.

I only have one week left and then it's winter holiday!! I can't wait for sk00l to end. This break I want to make space or buying more things and cleaning my wardrobe, my room is a mess. I sometimes get so annoyed with my family and friends and I feel unmotivated to do tasks. I should finish my home work,, but I just can't get off of bed. Next week is gonna be better ig like I don't have to vent a lot now but I frickin hate my „„friends““....