Someone's Gotta Say It

unhinged musings

[sum1sgottasayit]

I don't usually talk about this, but when I last tried coming out to my mom she did something similar to malgendering but ableist and I doubt I'm alone in this.

"Would [Chosen Name] do [thing you struggle with do to your disability?!?]" Over and over. With venom. Demeaning and downplaying your struggles, acting like a change of name means a person they don't know replaces you and said person might not be as disabled. It's like she wanted to associate my name with this traumatic experience so I couldn't use it without remembering. She wanted to take and ruin it so I would keep my deadname and stay this miserable husk of a person.

The fucked up part is maybe if I were affirmed my depression wouldn't be as debilitating? I'd still struggle with everything else, I'd still have plenty of limitations, but removing one layer of suffering to lighten my load could make a positive impact on my life. No, it's not going to magically cure me, obviously.

Being yourself doesn't magically cure disabilities, that's not the point? But repressing who you are certainly doesn't help.

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Probably my new sleep meds but Kris Dreemur was The Abandoned Quiche I just can't prove it

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WAIT EGGS QUICHE WOAH

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Probably my new sleep meds but Kris Dreemur was The Abandoned Quiche I just can't prove it

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Women Want Fish

Me Fear Me

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I need someone smarter than me to do an analysis on the parallels and similarities between Ralsei and Anthy, please someone pick up what I'm putting down about the pain hidden behind those smiles, the objectification angle, there's so much that can be dug into there!

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I'm declaring these cups from Revolutionary Girl Utena T4T

I will not elaborate

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My friend has a popular account and just showed me an ask he got where a minor he called out adults creeping on (a minor who defends ISFF and talks about having pedophile friends,) told him to eat lead and that it's transmisogynistic to think it's weird that one of these grown these adults is calling her shit like cutie and roleplaying with her in public while the other's talking about Legos with her and we can only hope that's all when that other person is none other than ISFF, who's referred to pedophiles as her sisters. It's scary stuff because any attempt to get her to see that shit isn't normal she's been brainwashed to see as bigotry. Minors should not be friends with pedophiles and I don't think that should be a controversial statement. Minors shouldn't be getting called cutie by adults, that's really fucking weird. Minors shouldn't be friends with someone who advocates for pedophiles. I hope one day this poor kid gets free of all these fucking creeps, but calling this shit out makes her feel compelled to defend these adults and farther insulates her within their grasp so there's nothing anyone can do.

I get why people fight for the privacy destroying ID bs to access websites, but I don't doubt her pedophile friends or their defenders and enablers will have taught her workarounds, so not even that would save her.

It's a sad sick fucked up world and I don't want to get hatecrimed because these are the trans people that get tons of followers and attention. After the trans creator joking about becoming the next Shadman got a theatrical release, the premiere of which was attended by Philosophytube, who I respected before this, I'm fucking scared. I know that bigots never needed an excuse and made up a million mass shooters to justify killing us already but it really doesn't help.

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Trans men should have a Fondude Fundraiser Night where you can pay to gorge yourself on fondue 🫕 and there could be a silent auction or raffle and the money should go towards getting trans men out of red states and to places like Vermont (blue state known for excellent cheese)

[sum1sgottasayit]

when the youths are trad eugenicsmaxxing by taking a hammer to their faces it's hard to convince parents that abandoning online privacy isn't the answer because the last thing you can ever ask of them is to actually step up and be a parent who takes away the device or implements parental controls that have existed this whole time

surely the childfree queers with "MDNI stay the fuck away from me you sticky jam handed beasts" in bio are the real danger here who need more restrictions amidst an ongoing genocide

i get that having a kid is exhausting and that being overworked and underpaid on top of that sucks and with the breakdown of community you aren't getting the help you need, but demanding licenses to see boobs isn't going to stop AI from grooming your kids into self harm or white supremacist streamers from feeding them the worst ideologies you can fathom

is it really too much to ask that you take them to the library or get them a mini herb garden so they have something to look forward to besides infinite scrolling through filtered facsimiles of faces until they want to rip their unrecognizable flawed human skin off?

you expect disabled people to bake in the sun waiting in line at the food pantry for your fucking scraps, but you can't be assed with the mildest inconveniences for the sake of those you created or took in supposedly with good intentions

punish and isolate queer people more, surely that'll stop your kid from slinging slurs

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Has anyone made a horror retelling of the myth of Pygmalion and Galatea where Pygmalion is chaser and if so did it end up being hella problematic?

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Arrange pickle slices into a rose NOW

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Men who have experienced misogyny firsthand and come out ready to fight against bigots are a force for good. You cannot convince me that the words doesn't need more good men in it. Men who can be normal about periods instead of acting disgusted. Men who are willing to express their feelings. Men who understand the discrimination women face. Men who treat women like the human beings they are even if they aren't attracted to them.

No group is a monolith, of course. There's going to be trans men who are misogynistic, there's trans and cis women who are misogynistic and we all know there's misogynistic cis men. Hell, there's misogynistic people who fall outside the gender binary and you might assume that they'd know better, but expecting more of any group of people is just setting yourself up for disappointment because we're all people and sometimes regardless of demographic a person is just plain awful.

Those who still think masculinity is universally rewarded as though it hasn't been met with institutionalization, corrective rape and more really think shoulder pads and lean in girlboss feminism was anything but a rug pull that made a few women very rich who pulled the ladder up behind them and it's fucking wild. You're going to fall for a multilevel marketing scheme if you don't wise up quick and those you alienated are sure as fuck not going to buy you out of it.

You will be hurt by individuals who are marginalized and it's important that you don't use that individual's actions as an excuse to be bigoted against an entire marginalized group of people.

Marginalized people have less access to crucial financial and mental health resources, that doesn't excuse bad actions taken against you and you don't ever have to forgive an individual who harms you, but understanding the circumstances that culminated in that harm can sometimes allow you to find some sense of closure in knowing that it wasn't personal or your fault and that there was nothing that you could or should have done differently to change the outcome. Systems need to change in ways that support people and you should not have to bare the burden of their failure.

I'm not smart go read this instead

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If you think about, Whatnot is cuckolding for collectors

Gamblecucking is a psychosexual phenomenon that I suspect only a system as depraved as Capitalism could produce

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Reminded of the majesty of the sea, the landlocked mermaid weeps

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I have to hold back a gasp/scream from the cuteness of some people's Pokopia builds I'm not kidding

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We grew up here together

We watched the same shows

We played the same games

We ate the same foods

We experienced the same events

We heard the same songs

We loved the same styles

We watched the same movies

We are so similar

But I was always and will always be an outsider to you

You will exclude me from retellings of these events

You will suspect that I've never experienced and couldn't possibly know or understand the things I do

My contributions will be mocked and belittled if not outright erased

Anything I touch is immediately outdated and no longer cool, if it ever was

I can't sit with you

I can't play with you

I should shut up already

You'll never listen

I have feelings

I have thoughts

It hurts to never be included

But if I express that pain it will be seen as manipulation

It's evil for scum like me to want

No matter how old I get it doesn't change

I drift along and help fellow outsiders occasionally

I don't dare get attached anymore, it hurts to be replaced

For many outsiders this was a temporary embarrassment they'd rather forget

Confide in me and find solace, use me for all I'm good for before disposing of me, beats being alone, I guess, sometimes

I know there's others like me suffering, I wish we could connect, but after being hurt so many times it's scary

So many of those temporarily lowered to this state will drown you to stay afloat

I'm so tired of this

I built masks, to scare them away, to be left alone, the ones to try to connect never looked right

What the fuck am I at the end of the day?

I wish we could share a meal together but I don't dare meet your gaze

It's exhausting to be cordial to those who mock and torment you, those who will always view you as lesser

I can't blame them when I disgust myself

I've taken on their hatred as my own for so long it's just mine at this point

Hating me doesn't make them hate me less even if we agree though

If I were to wake up in a form that pleases I'd be disgusted by those who suddenly treat me as human

I'd break down howling and sobbing and wretching with the knowledge that something so fucking arbitrary made for so much suffering

I'll never forgive no matter how much I try to understand why I wasn't worthy to exist in the same space

You'll never care about those you killed this way

[princesscumkitty-deactivated201]

When Daddy cuts my French toast for me. 💕

[theyoungdaddy-deactivated201409]

Oh hey look it’s me! I usually cut up kittens food but I always ask her just in case she ever wants to be a big girl. I love you lil britches mwuah

[qh-deactivated20170215]

*Banging table* CUMMIES CUMMIES CUMMIES

[kumagawa]

hE WEARING AN ED EDD AND EDDY SHIRT NOBODY GONNA SAY SHIT ABoUT THIS

[de4ct1v4t3d-deactivated20210506]

he made her eat the doo doo 

[deadecchi]

[carpetmunchr-blog]

str-yrats

[theyoungdaddy]

You guys wouldn’t understand the relationship between a kitten and her daddy

[sum1sgottasayit]

October 12th not being a tumblr holiday despite this blight of a post haunting my memory over a decade later is a shame because tumblr newcomers should know the kinds of things that once circulated on this hellsite.