i am full of complex, horny emotions

(always happy to receive kink memes. or attention. there are nudes in the archive. asks should always be sincere. this is not the location for "ironic" horniness or jokes. this is a place for being sincerely horny)

[summercurial]

i think you should play up the "getting a vaginoplasty because of anna karenina" angle. I mean I know i would

I haven't even finished the book yet.... Maybe when I'm done. This would be a good bit tho. It would make more sense if vaginoplasty let you get pregnant tho. Honestly it's probably more accurate to say the motivation was intensified by like. Twitter. Less cool....

[summercurial]

ACTUALLY I think it's less Twitter and more like. Living in a society (which Twitter is metonymy for...?). When I only interacted with like 5 different ppl I felt much less Trans than I do now. Like it was less I had a gender and more I was just like a specific person yknow? Or like I had summergender in that microsociety. And now I feel like I have a gender again more. And so I'm sort of more capable of dysphoria

[summercurial]

i think you should play up the "getting a vaginoplasty because of anna karenina" angle. I mean I know i would

I haven't even finished the book yet.... Maybe when I'm done. This would be a good bit tho. It would make more sense if vaginoplasty let you get pregnant tho. Honestly it's probably more accurate to say the motivation was intensified by like. Twitter. Less cool....

[summercurial]

so I only get hard if I'm horny. And I don't usually get horny that often. So yknow my front was usually tastefully flat. And now I have uh. Theres sort of this subject that I keep thinking abt these days. That causes me to get hard. And the feeling is nice. But the hardness is kind of not! I mean. It's not entirely un-nice. But it makes me feel like I was before the orchi, or even like...like back in high school. Sexuality is so teenage! I gotta get that vaginoplasty...but I'm sure I'll miss it after it's gone. I miss everything. Make hay while the sun shines. Get hard while the dicks there

[kata4a]

sexuality alignment graph two axes bird <--> monkey and words <--> power

[summercurial]

I think ideally it's like one of those soil content triangles. Like. It all has to sum to one.... Not true at all but it'd be fun right. I guess some people are having sex which isn't about words OR power. Not sure whats going on there

[summercurial]

the frustrating thing abt the praise thing is like.... i mean its a little like how with the masochism thing it doesnt rly work unless the person likes hurting u for its own sake. in that like. one wants a lot of praise. but yknow, iff it's true. if one earns it. so its tough. like. it counts more if its withheld more but then you get less of it....

[summercurial]

@cosmidomics said:

I try to remember this with girls into praise but it's just hard not to slip into expressing my true beliefs of "omg ur so cute…so darling…you look so good with my cock on your face!"

praise means something very specific to me like these things are nice but not the thing that runs like a wire through my brain. its like. very specifically about Being Good

@kata4a said: I mean it can't be that tough. you're literally good

possibly....its complicated....

[summercurial]

the frustrating thing abt the praise thing is like.... i mean its a little like how with the masochism thing it doesnt rly work unless the person likes hurting u for its own sake. in that like. one wants a lot of praise. but yknow, iff it's true. if one earns it. so its tough. like. it counts more if its withheld more but then you get less of it....

[summercurial]

Reasons I like bad things instead of good things, in no particular order

more reliable: if someone wants to make my body feel good it's very hit or miss. But if someone wants to make it hurt etc that pretty much always works

I can be good for taking it :) straightforward. However this one is mostly only good if the person holds this conception....

"physiological masochism": I think some things I just have my wires crossed. Like my niplles can be a potent erogenous zone but not without hurting them

Something weird and psychological: there's definitely another layer on top of (below? Within?) the others. Where like. Sometimes when I'm feeling good or things or going well for me or my self esteem is high I have this strong desire(?) to be like. Hurt badly. Like not permanently I guess more like beaten up. Bruised, punched. Idk what's up with that

Whatever motivates me to get mostly-nonsexually punched. Uh. Attention? If someone is hurting me on purpose they are paying attention to me and my reactions..and it's easy to react "correctly"

[kata4a]

Audible legible, “Ought we be reading these poems aloud? Are they meant to be sung?”

Not-unflirtatiously, “I like the sound of two fingers across an articulate tongue”

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[summercurial]

if you want to get ass fucked more reliably/pleasurably/easily it helps to jack off while fucking your ass occasionally. maybe you already do just a penny for your thoughts

interesting....big, even

[summercurial]

ok. its possible i took this advice before and forgot. but i dont think so. i think i just like forgot to do this (procrastinating on jerking off...). anyway. just a pro tip. for everyone out there. is that this is maybe a good thing to try. as an experience. i mean. i mean everybody but me already knows this. im a moron. but just like. briefly. yknow. in case youre one of the lucky 10,000 yknow

[summercurial]

doggirl "keeper" (not "owner")?

cute....!

[summercurial]

I was talking with some girls yesterday. Well and wrestling them. And it had me thinking about how in many ways I'm still very dog girl it's just like. It's more...like developed. But I am still friendly and aggressive. And yknow. The other dog traits you guys know about. I think it is still kind of cute.

[summercurial]

@kata4a said: wolfgirl

Well not rly because I'm still like. Owner brained. Owner is not the right word for the dog human relationship. You can't rly own a dog. Or you shouldn't it should be like a free association. "Trainer" like Pokémon.... not right. Companion. But there's a hierarchy aspect.... Idk. We don't have the words. I'm mans best friend

[summercurial]

KM: Dog roleplay but the dom keeps you busy all day, preventing you from having breakfast and lunch or whatever. You only get the opportunity to 'eat' around 7pm, by way of the peanut butter thing.

OK I drafted one response to this ask and it got ate. I said the peanut butter thing is corny. And it is. But in the context of like. Of like rly imagining being that hungry it is kind of doing it for.me. In like a gross and evil way. Like. I mean sucking dick is objectively a little embarrassing (in a way eating pussy isn't...misogyny, homophobia.... I think it depends on the way it's done probably..... One can suck dick in a cool in control way but like. I don't. Usually. Sometimes....) but it can also be. I mean it's nice. And making it into this sort of gross not nice thing. In a way that at that level of hunger (and like. Let's be real horniness) I would be willing to do. It's good! It's good bad.and also I really like the effect that hunger has on me. Like sexually. Practically it's rly annoying. But it makes me sort of weak and stupid in a hot way. Honestly I feel like the dog angle is hardly even relevant here

I think there's a very particular kind of hot that's like. There's something I don't want to do. Or rather the person COULD let me do something I would prefer (like eating food normally. Or suckling dick normally). But is instead only giving me the option of doing something worse. And therefore like. Forcing me to acknowledge that I do actually want to do this worse thing. And then it's like. It's hot to be confronted with your own desires like that

[summercurial]

KM: Cameras in the room you're having sex in are hooked up to a video LLM, which feeds into a pipeline which ultimately generates a 'nature documentary' description of your sexual activities. The entire text-based transcript of the encounter optionally goes into the context (for notes, to history) of your personal anthropic account.

I'm sorry anon this is just cheesy. And Claude is too woke to mog me for being a sex freak

[summercurial]

KM: You say a lot of facts, but is every fact you say true? It's hard for your boyfriend to check in real time, while he's enjoying you, so he's hooked up a shock collar to a 'monitor'. The monitor is keyed to your voice and uses roaming data to make a call to a model, which figures out how truthful you're being, exactly, optionally delivering an appropriate shock. Your boyfriend can adjust the level of pedantry on the fly, forcing you to 'perform' rigor.

Omg anon this is so good. This is soooo good. Because like. I mean there's a tradeoff right between being interesting quickly in large quantities and being accurate. But I want badly to be accurate. And I have to juggle this tradeoff. Stressful. But then this just simplifies it. "Oh, this is how accurate I have to be". Plus it gives me an excuse to hedge. And speak in weird pedantic precise ways. Like the women in stranger in a strange land. That scene really stuck with me. Where the woman has training to like only state what she's sure about. And also I really admire concern for truth so this is like. A virtuous boyfriend. *Twitter voice* and that's what men are for. Being virtuous

[summercurial]

I was talking with some girls yesterday. Well and wrestling them. And it had me thinking about how in many ways I'm still very dog girl it's just like. It's more...like developed. But I am still friendly and aggressive. And yknow. The other dog traits you guys know about. I think it is still kind of cute.

[transgenderer]

Learned yesterday there's a peptide that gives you a brief panic attack. There's also one that makes you horny but in a way that is somehow "gummy". I really love the idea of all these weird psychological peptides. Somehow I had only heard about the weight loss ones and the nootropics. 2 least interesting effects a drug could have!

[summercurial]

Obvious sex potential here right. Or like. Not "sex" exactly. But like. Yknow. Activities. Getting injected with the panic attack drug would go crazy. Like. I mean there's a lot of angles. You could do it as a really fucked up but bodily-harmless punishment. Or just like. For sadisms sake. Or like. For the comforting. Like. It's kind of awesome it's like something from a porn story.

[summercurial]

Also this is more straightforward but like a real aphrodisiac has crazy potential. Like. They could give you the aphrodisiac (gummy!!!) and then use that you're extra horny. Like. I guess they could just fuck you but one assumes you're willing to fuck them anyway. So I'm imagining more like. Like the denial angle. Or like not so much total denial but like taking advantage of unusual desperateness. Like they're normal horny and you're like weird peptide horny.

[summercurial]

I need to be nicer to my anons because I DO love attention and I need to incentivize it. But you guys gotta put a little more into these asks. Give me some handles to grab