You know⌠I was trying to buy the two last volumes 28 and 29⌠I didnât even care enough to buy them when they were released. Looking at older volumes I couldnât help but to think how sorry I am.
Itâs this feeling of wasted time and energy. I hope this wasnât the last feeling I have for this story. I even feel that SnK isnât the same story anymore.
Some would say âThatâs because this character moved on and blah blahââŚ
Those who know me well know also, that I donât care about romance enough to think that SnK lost its spirit in the last two chapters just because of that.
What bothers me is to feel that most of the best quotes⌠from Krßger and Uri were clowned without mercy. We were supposed to think that this would change something.
Letâs take this: Letâs say they let Eren exterminate the rest of the world. This would have prevented the extermination of Paradies 50 years later. Faceless people for faceless people. I donât really see the difference. I canât see how things are different⌠Just that titans arenât there anymore but that could have changed with the power of the titan⌠What was the point of this?
To know that reality is shit, I rather read the news. SnK was something because of its characters⌠that Isayama treated them since the beginning as disposable tools for a message⌠To me this made this ending feel so⌠less touching and personal.
Kill a character. Do it. But show me the purpose on killing every single individuality on this story for good.
The transition between individuals to the collective lost its meaning as it wasnât properly displayed⌠In those last pages, the meaning of hope was trampled under the message that you canât escape the flow of the eternal return of events.
I could have accepted this message. I could have done it if just the scale were properly balanced. Letâs take again the nietzschean eternal return: Itâs expected that at the end of your life a demon would tell you your punishment is to relive your life as it was, over and over again for the eternity. You would say yes as itâs the most beautiful offer he could do because you lived as you wanted and learnt to love everything. It was all as you pleased. Itâs difficult but itâs supposed to show the way we accept and end up loving fate.
I get Isayama wanted to point out that life is made of both: cruel and beautiful. That some failures or cruelty are needed in order to make the beauty possibleâŚ
Where did he failed at? In my personal opinion⌠he failed at the balance. I didnât experience where the beauty was. There wasnât any recapitulation about it⌠just the silence of âYou are supposed to think this paid offâ. I know what Iâm supposed to value. I just donât see how things have value inside this fictional world. What did Eren think about his ending? What did he think about Mikasaâs decision? What did Mikasa think about this all after some years?âŚ
Thereâs this incoherent display of the ending: Iâm supposed to feel that Mikasaâs decision led this child to exist and go towards the tree without knowing why. Iâm supposed to appreciate the importance of every single moment and the whole point of existing when at the same time I get 4, 5 random panels that point out the collective and vanish the sence of intimity and individuality⌠a faceless child, a faceless Mikasa, a faceless⌠Jean? (who also accepted to be a repleacementâŚat the same time Iâm supposed to feel that this is not the case and Mikasa loved him when she never specially cared about him.. reducing everything to a âwe are together because he died. OtherwiseâŚâ )⌠But again about the resource of âfacelessâ characters⌠I feel like Iâm rereading the story of Ymir. They were all puppets of the story, so our characters became puppets of the story too, as well as the child of the last pages.
Iâm supposed to feel the importance of having existed is way stronger than time and the big force of time that tramples individuality in its unbearable flow.
Thatâs what I canât really fit⌠I thought that Ymir and those people were puppets of the story in a world of hatred. But turning our characters into the same and making them live in a world where hatred wins is⌠pointless.
I just canât really get this cadavre-exquis-ending.
Somethimes I have this very personal feeling that the author hated us all. Consciously or not, he hated everything: the story, the characters, the readers and the industry. He clowned the whole story.
YeahâŚâIt wasnât pointless as they fought to exist.â
Yes. But under which circumstances? Again this about the balance⌠Where are the highlights. Where is this reason that justifies bearing the suffering? Since he chose not to develop that, since there wasnât further development about that with Mikasa and Eren⌠I just missed the point. I needed a proper encounter a better farewell with âSnK spiritâ.
This was about Mikasa reverting Ymirâs choice, wasting a requited love and giving birth to more children⌠to a child that would do I donât really know what. Just life multiplying⌠the opposite of Arminâs message.
All in all⌠this story turned out to be something I want to move on from⌠I canât even find that beauty that justifies the suffering I went through. Thatâs what happen when there isnât balance⌠when the author takes more than he/she gives.
The message about diplomatics: Forget it. It doesnât work at all. Realistic? Yes. But do we need our young people to think everything is pointless? No.
My rating of the story: I better forget about it and take Yams message⌠âIt was just a brief moment and life goes onâ.
