❤️+🔄 | EMERGENCY COMS | Help my partner and I move !!!
My partner is an NB lesbian living Texas, and unfortunately, their city, Corpus Christi, will run out of water by 2027.
My current prices on sale. In depth information is below. Alt. text explains what free reign coms are.
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My partner's conditions aren't the best in terms of living, and they desperately want to move out as there's been repeated health hazards, such as molding food. That aside — Corpus Christi has chosen industry over its people. With the Trump regime and violence towards LGBTQ+ members, I do worry.
With that in mind, I want to open up coms once more. I am currently clearing out my older work load, so this was more a means of having no other options.
Work is scarce at the moment, +30 applications, and I've only had a job with last minute, improvised shifts. If not that, I've been ghosted.
While I am being promised with more work, it's a matter of needing my legal documents sorted out first, before I can get more than just weird odd jobs from 2 hiring agencies I applied for. I'm in a weird legal gray until then.
Excluding withdrawls / archives, I've been ghosted so often.
My passport has expired, and I need a new SSN card. I am however getting that sorted by the 3rd.
While I have money, it came from my 401k — which over half was eaten by taxes. I used a chunk to pay off university debts as well.
I've not been able to save my 401K, as it's kept me afloat.
While I am being promised with more work, it's a matter of needing my legal documents sorted out first, before I can get more than just weird odd jobs from 2 hiring agencies I applied for. I'm in a weird legal gray until then.
Excluding withdrawls / archives, I've been ghosted so often.
Really, this is primarily to help keep us both afloat as a sort of rainy day fund, especially given how expensive moving is. We've spent quite some time sorting things out privately (hence my silence), budgeting, comparing options, etc.
And while I'm aware my state is... not the best in a lot of ways, I live in a moderately left leaning city with intentions to ultimately leave for safer lands.
Things are getting better, but still. Anyways. Thank you for reading this.
Beyond commissions and others bringing it up, I've admittedly grown mildly uncomfortable(?) with Mega Man stuff at the moment ( primarily X series ) . 🥹 Maybe I just need a mild break from it, given this whole year and whatnot. I'll return eventually.
Until then, I need to form more healthy boundaries with that series again I think, it was there for me during hard times, however, those were hard times I was in. If I left any servers or stopped drawing it for a bit, don't take it personally, it was of my own volition for my sake, 💔 a lot has happened and I've had love - hate for a few years. Charms will not be canceled tho, and I look forward to my own Zero.
I've been moving and cleaning, and doing my own repairs, and — so I've been so innactive because of it. My partner will be moving here shortly ( almost 5 more days 'til the big trip ! ) , and things have been looking up immensely.
There is more below, as well as a thank you.
I don't feel tense, or sad, or many negative things that have left me just permanently exhausted back at my old house. While I love my family, things are very . . . complicated and have been rocky / tense for a while, to where every convo led to an argument. But as I said, I never realized I could be anything other than hard as stone to touch, it's bizzare. Even people say I sound much happier, which is funny, as I've always had blunted affect and a low, grumbly, growly voice at my calmest.
Finally got work that fits my quality control experience at a wonderful factory that won't flare my conditions ( not my main goal, however, I looove QC work as someone who is very detail oriented ) . I finally started T therapy as well, and spoke to the doctor about top surgery and a hysterectomy later on . . . Frankly, everything feels so surreal. It's just all these things I never thought I'd see, especially given my hospital stays early this year.
Thank you for everyone who has supported me so far, it does mean a lot. I feel much happier and actually hopeful, for once. Like sure, I'll need a cane sometimes, or I have my moments where I'm fatigued, or maybe I'm kinda overwhelmed unpacking, but, for once I feel like I can do so much. I can manage so much more. My mental illnesses aren't flaring as bad as they used to. I'm using my cane less, my chronic pain isn't flaring as bad now, however I should stop sitting like my legs are broken on tile lol, and everything just feels... ok. All the support, whether kind words, or monetary, or attention, whatever, means the world in a way I can't quite put into words. Attention is a bit exhausting for me at times, and I know I can be bad at reaching out when need be, but, everything feels ok. I feel happy. I'm even writing a memoir on my very bizzare queer journey ( maybe I'll post snippets, it's very blunt ).
I don't know when I'll be more consistently active, unpacking is going sooo so slowly as I've been learning how to be a repairperson, and I'm on morning shift for a week more during training. But, I wanted to say thank you to everyone.
I always heard trans joy, and it always felt. I don't quite know how to say — exaggerated ? Maybe it's just my general inability to tell what I'm feeling, or maybe it's because I'm a very blunt realist ( that sometimes veers pessimistic ) , but I felt it and. Man. I'm happy. They weren't kidding.
I dislike the idea of Branded being just... Beorcs but with a mark physically speaking, I like to think there's some level of difference which further ostracizes them from the Beorc. Made a very long headcanon post about it, however, posting is currently up for debate...
MEGAMAN ZERO PRIDE MERCH IS OFFICIALLY UP FOR PRESALE ! 🏳️🌈
Below are variants, and shattered glass holo. It'll run from June 19 - 25th. All orders will be purchased on the 26th ! It'll be on my ko-fi.
US shipping is 4 USD, International is 10 ( I am covering most ) . Sorry international friends. 💔 slight typo on the kofi link on the picture btw ! It's ko-fi.com/suncitadel
We have femme / butch lesbian, gay, bi, pan, trans, nonbinary, intersex, asexual, aromantic !
I dislike the idea of Branded being just... Beorcs but with a mark physically speaking, I like to think there's some level of difference which further ostracizes them from the Beorc. Made a very long headcanon post about it, however, posting is currently up for debate...
Getting into the Tellius series, so quick Soren body headcanons ( back view ), full art below cut !
⚠️ | SH scars, self flagellation scars, artistic nudity
Some self harm, some self - flagellation, a technique he'd learn from the church he stayed at by more strict believers ( albeit, his reasons for doing so left bad tastes and butted heads, rather than discipline in religious practice )
Paler scars are from his father experimenting on him prior to abandonment, others are from the sage he studied under
While I get branded are intended to be more like beorc, I say that's boring and adjusted their lore a bit to flesh it out. So he has scales and mildly pointed ears
Merch coming soon ! 🤫 I'm thinking of doing both die cut stickers and acrylic keychains ! It'll help me out between work and commissions
I'll be adding more alts, and potentially other characters, so be sure to keep watch if interested !! Presale on Ko-Fi hopefully by later tomorrow ( Jun 8 ) !! I'll add the link when possible here too :)
⚠️ | Mild tw for for comphet / gender dysphoria, I'm going on an insane MMX sapphic ZeroIris tangent
Thinkin of transmasc / sapphic Zero and Iris as a ship and getting to know one another, but it's a case of as they're opening to the idea of dating, Zero just has to admit he is masc stealth presenting and just feeling so conflicted and confused over his feelings towards Iris and his own gender, given he lacks the terminology
And Iris just lets him ramble on and on without judgements, bc she's aware Zero is so deep in the closet and confused / conflicted, especially as he's so used to seeing heteronormative romance and really has no outlet for nblw thoughts, and just wants to be " normal " to justify being lw/lnb, and explore his own sense of self ( failing to realize he's defs stone )
So the ship basis forming on Zero being allowed to feel more open with his identity being sapphic and vulnerability in private, without the pressures of passing off as an openly queer couple and being bombarded with constant questions — as most tend to assume Zero is a very masc / male aligned reploid already ( especially given complex feelings towards X, so two openly masc reploids together just is too much attention for him to handle while he's figuring himself out ) . So publicly, they just seem like a cishet couple, but privately, they're both allowed to be — even if it hurts both in the end by hiding themselves, but they're young, stupid, and this is their first romance ( on top of it being queer ) . So Iris' big heart does ultimately hurt her bc holding this secret feels like a betrayal as she starts to establish her own identity at a pace Zero can't keep up with, and it builds to the occasional instance of conflict — but she's passive enough to where it doesn't click, until Iris' last stand through her death ( with her wanting to create a world for reploids as a soft admittance as a means of thinking of both her and Zero to exist as themselves — but also pursuing the better or all ) .
I think if it weren't for her death, they'd still be very deep and loving friends towards one another, realizing as they matured from teens to young adults, they just — weren't compatible, and that's ok. Yet, she died so young and by Zero's hands, that he never had a moment to really come to that conclusion himself, so it's just the entire self blame and grief, especially hearing those words that cut deep like a knife.
So a scene like this becomes :
Zero: Iris, there's no world just for Reploids. It's only a fantasy.
Iris: Yes . . . I know . . . But I wanted to believe it . . . I wanted to live in a world where only Reploids exist . . . with you.
. . .
Zero: Nooo ! This isn't happening ! There's no reason for me to go on ! What . . . WHAT AM I FIGHTING FOR ?!
An outcry for the fact he could never come to his own thoughts and feelings, and unfortunately dragging someone else into his glass coffin, but she's permanently gone now, and he has no closure to a relationship that should have never ended so abruptly. They're both still so young, still struggling to grapple the idea of a world that could fit even reploids like them
Anyways this is inspired by my own personal experiences in that wild time i accidentally was put in christian conversion therapy for a few months. This I do tell as a funny story nowadays, so don't worry, I'm genuinely over it and use it as a means to explore X and Zero lmfao
Mental map for the whole thing, and a remake of the initial abomination 6 am improvised map when rambling to someone LOL. It's very very vague and barely scratched the surface, but so much is being restructured in terms of canon, hence me taking forever writing
Light red on right is non canon / inspired by canon stuff
⚠️ | Mild tw for for comphet / gender dysphoria, I'm going on an insane MMX sapphic ZeroIris tangent
Thinkin of transmasc / sapphic Zero and Iris as a ship and getting to know one another, but it's a case of as they're opening to the idea of dating, Zero just has to admit he is masc stealth presenting and just feeling so conflicted and confused over his feelings towards Iris and his own gender, given he lacks the terminology
And Iris just lets him ramble on and on without judgements, bc she's aware Zero is so deep in the closet and confused / conflicted, especially as he's so used to seeing heteronormative romance and really has no outlet for nblw thoughts, and just wants to be " normal " to justify being lw/lnb, and explore his own sense of self ( failing to realize he's defs stone )
So the ship basis forming on Zero being allowed to feel more open with his identity being sapphic and vulnerability in private, without the pressures of passing off as an openly queer couple and being bombarded with constant questions — as most tend to assume Zero is a very masc / male aligned reploid already ( especially given complex feelings towards X, so two openly masc reploids together just is too much attention for him to handle while he's figuring himself out ) . So publicly, they just seem like a cishet couple, but privately, they're both allowed to be — even if it hurts both in the end by hiding themselves, but they're young, stupid, and this is their first romance ( on top of it being queer ) . So Iris' big heart does ultimately hurt her bc holding this secret feels like a betrayal as she starts to establish her own identity at a pace Zero can't keep up with, and it builds to the occasional instance of conflict — but she's passive enough to where it doesn't click, until Iris' last stand through her death ( with her wanting to create a world for reploids as a soft admittance as a means of thinking of both her and Zero to exist as themselves — but also pursuing the better or all ) .
I think if it weren't for her death, they'd still be very deep and loving friends towards one another, realizing as they matured from teens to young adults, they just — weren't compatible, and that's ok. Yet, she died so young and by Zero's hands, that he never had a moment to really come to that conclusion himself, so it's just the entire self blame and grief, especially hearing those words that cut deep like a knife.
So a scene like this becomes :
Zero: Iris, there's no world just for Reploids. It's only a fantasy.
Iris: Yes . . . I know . . . But I wanted to believe it . . . I wanted to live in a world where only Reploids exist . . . with you.
. . .
Zero: Nooo ! This isn't happening ! There's no reason for me to go on ! What . . . WHAT AM I FIGHTING FOR ?!
An outcry for the fact he could never come to his own thoughts and feelings, and unfortunately dragging someone else into his glass coffin, but she's permanently gone now, and he has no closure to a relationship that should have never ended so abruptly. They're both still so young, still struggling to grapple the idea of a world that could fit even reploids like them
Anyways this is inspired by my own personal experiences in that wild time i accidentally was put in christian conversion therapy for a few months. This I do tell as a funny story nowadays, so don't worry, I'm genuinely over it and use it as a means to explore X and Zero lmfao
