❤️+🔄 | EMERGENCY COMS | Help my partner and I move !!!
My partner is an NB lesbian living Texas, and unfortunately, their city, Corpus Christi, will run out of water by 2027.
My current prices on sale. In depth information is below. Alt. text explains what free reign coms are.
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My partner's conditions aren't the best in terms of living, and they desperately want to move out as there's been repeated health hazards, such as molding food. That aside — Corpus Christi has chosen industry over its people. With the Trump regime and violence towards LGBTQ+ members, I do worry.
With that in mind, I want to open up coms once more. I am currently clearing out my older work load, so this was more a means of having no other options.
Work is scarce at the moment, +30 applications, and I've only had a job with last minute, improvised shifts. If not that, I've been ghosted.
While I am being promised with more work, it's a matter of needing my legal documents sorted out first, before I can get more than just weird odd jobs from 2 hiring agencies I applied for. I'm in a weird legal gray until then.
Excluding withdrawls / archives, I've been ghosted so often.
My passport has expired, and I need a new SSN card. I am however getting that sorted by the 3rd.
While I have money, it came from my 401k — which over half was eaten by taxes. I used a chunk to pay off university debts as well.
I've not been able to save my 401K, as it's kept me afloat.
While I am being promised with more work, it's a matter of needing my legal documents sorted out first, before I can get more than just weird odd jobs from 2 hiring agencies I applied for. I'm in a weird legal gray until then.
Excluding withdrawls / archives, I've been ghosted so often.
Really, this is primarily to help keep us both afloat as a sort of rainy day fund, especially given how expensive moving is. We've spent quite some time sorting things out privately (hence my silence), budgeting, comparing options, etc.
And while I'm aware my state is... not the best in a lot of ways, I live in a moderately left leaning city with intentions to ultimately leave for safer lands.
Things are getting better, but still. Anyways. Thank you for reading this.
Mental map for the whole thing, and a remake of the initial abomination 6 am improvised map when rambling to someone LOL. It's very very vague and barely scratched the surface, but so much is being restructured in terms of canon, hence me taking forever writing
Light red on right is non canon / inspired by canon stuff
⚠️ | Mild tw for for comphet / gender dysphoria, I'm going on an insane MMX sapphic ZeroIris tangent
Thinkin of transmasc / sapphic Zero and Iris as a ship and getting to know one another, but it's a case of as they're opening to the idea of dating, Zero just has to admit he is masc stealth presenting and just feeling so conflicted and confused over his feelings towards Iris and his own gender, given he lacks the terminology
And Iris just lets him ramble on and on without judgements, bc she's aware Zero is so deep in the closet and confused / conflicted, especially as he's so used to seeing heteronormative romance and really has no outlet for nblw thoughts, and just wants to be " normal " to justify being lw/lnb, and explore his own sense of self ( failing to realize he's defs stone )
So the ship basis forming on Zero being allowed to feel more open with his identity being sapphic and vulnerability in private, without the pressures of passing off as an openly queer couple and being bombarded with constant questions — as most tend to assume Zero is a very masc / male aligned reploid already ( especially given complex feelings towards X, so two openly masc reploids together just is too much attention for him to handle while he's figuring himself out ) . So publicly, they just seem like a cishet couple, but privately, they're both allowed to be — even if it hurts both in the end by hiding themselves, but they're young, stupid, and this is their first romance ( on top of it being queer ) . So Iris' big heart does ultimately hurt her bc holding this secret feels like a betrayal as she starts to establish her own identity at a pace Zero can't keep up with, and it builds to the occasional instance of conflict — but she's passive enough to where it doesn't click, until Iris' last stand through her death ( with her wanting to create a world for reploids as a soft admittance as a means of thinking of both her and Zero to exist as themselves — but also pursuing the better or all ) .
I think if it weren't for her death, they'd still be very deep and loving friends towards one another, realizing as they matured from teens to young adults, they just — weren't compatible, and that's ok. Yet, she died so young and by Zero's hands, that he never had a moment to really come to that conclusion himself, so it's just the entire self blame and grief, especially hearing those words that cut deep like a knife.
So a scene like this becomes :
Zero: Iris, there's no world just for Reploids. It's only a fantasy.
Iris: Yes . . . I know . . . But I wanted to believe it . . . I wanted to live in a world where only Reploids exist . . . with you.
. . .
Zero: Nooo ! This isn't happening ! There's no reason for me to go on ! What . . . WHAT AM I FIGHTING FOR ?!
An outcry for the fact he could never come to his own thoughts and feelings, and unfortunately dragging someone else into his glass coffin, but she's permanently gone now, and he has no closure to a relationship that should have never ended so abruptly. They're both still so young, still struggling to grapple the idea of a world that could fit even reploids like them
Anyways this is inspired by my own personal experiences in that wild time i accidentally was put in christian conversion therapy for a few months. This I do tell as a funny story nowadays, so don't worry, I'm genuinely over it and use it as a means to explore X and Zero lmfao
Thank you for the support !! Inspo & what free reign coms are below !
When i upload my commission sheet, I'll be opening what I'll call free reign coms :) they'll be discounted. Basically give me your OC, details of personality, inspirations and symbolisms and I'll genuinely go wild based off what I learn
It's not only more fun, I feel as if I can push an idea moreI love having free reigns for coms, i get to go wild. Theres a lot of references to her name being Eos, the titan God of Dawn
Is this a safe space to say I dislike Ciel MMZ and always have. I just have a lot of character critique, but admittedly, I feel I'm mildly known for my unorthodox megaman opinions by this point
