So I saw your posts and I absolutely fell in love with your blog and I wanted to request something
Like feral boys with a reader who has low self-esteem (they/them please!) and they think they are not good enough for them and one night they wake up from a nightmare of them leaving the reader and just kind of have a breakdown?
Not me calling myself out-đ„Žâïž
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And feel free to ignore this if you feel uncomfortable with writing this or sumn-
I have no idea how old this ask is, and I'm terribly sorry it took me this long to get to your ask. Hopefully, I've done this ask justice, and despite it being so late I hope you still enjoy it! :]
Pairing: Feral Boys (Individual) X Reader
Pronouns: No specifics used but Gender Neutral intended
[A/n]: Requests are open :]
âHe wakes up shortly after you startle awake, rubbing the sleep from his eyes as he sits up to comfort you. His focus is on getting you to calm down enough to talk to him so he can help you through whatever it was that was upsetting you.
âHeâll hold you close and run his hand over your back, rubbing circles into the expanse of skin as he helps you focus on deep breaths. His other arm wrapped securely around you, holding you as close to him as he can manage.
ââItâs alright Love, just focus on deep breaths right now.â His hand rubs slowly over your back, the tips of his fingers leaving a tingling sensation across your skin. You didnât deserve this, you werenât good enough for his comfort or any of his love. That seemed to be the only thing your brain could focus on, quickly losing track of your deep breaths.Â
ââYouâre ok Love, Iâm right here with you. Nothingâs gonna hurt you, youâre safe now Bubs.â It was his voice to drag you back to reality, to what had startled you so badly in the first place.
âDream always knew of your insecurities, it was something he had picked up on in the early stages of the relationship, but it never occurred to him that it was this severe.Â
âWhen you had finally calmed down enough to explain what had brought you to tears, it nearly broke Dreamâs heart. Because not only had you been feeling so unworthy in the relationship, but you had been bottling it up this whole time and he had no idea.
ââThereâs no one I love more than you, in fact, no one even comes close. I asked you to be my partner because youâre the one I love. The one who I want to wake up beside every morning, who I want to spend forever with. Thereâs only one of you and Iâm so lucky to have you.â
âWhen you startle yourself awake, you also startle George awake. As soon as he sees you beginning to cry from whatever woke you, heâs reaching out for you. One hand holds yours while the other reaches for your face, his thumb slowly wiping tears as his hand cradles your face.
âHe whispers softly as he does his best to comfort you, letting you slowly lean into him as he focuses on you. His hand holding yours runs his fingers slowly over your knuckles, tracing shapes into the back of your palms.Â
ââHey youâre ok Babe, Iâm right here. Just take deep breaths ok?â His eyes dance over your figure, watching for any nonverbal confirmation that you understood him. George was always so good to you, he deserved someone better, someone who wasnât you. A taunting voice echoes in the back of your mind, sending you even deeper into the mess of tears you had become.Â
ââDeep breaths Sweetness, youâre ok now.â His voice was like a life ring in the ocean of tears and insecurity you had been drowning in. The soothing sound pulling you slowly back to land.
âBeing insecure was something you and George had shared in the beginning of the relationship. When things were fairly new and you were both still figuring out how things worked.Â
âIt wasnât until you were able to speak and expressed how your insecurity had only grown over the time that George finally understood what had you so upset.Â
ââIf it meant telling you one hundred times a day how much I loved you to get you to understand even a fraction of how deeply I feel, Iâd do it. I love you like no other and will always be here because thereâs nothing that will make me want to walk away. Youâre the only one I want, the only one I need.â
âKarl wakes up to find you already sniffling, having cried to your heart's content and drowned your sorrows in tears. It breaks his heart a little that you hadnât woken him for comfort or that he hadnât woken sooner.Â
âHe immediately pulls you in for a hug, burying his face into your shoulder as he holds you close. His hug reassuring and comforting as he wraps his arms around you, pouring every ounce of love he holds into it.
ââYou donât have to tell me why you were crying, itâs ok. Next time, wake me up so I can help you, I donât want you to be sad alone.â Curse Karl and his big heart, how could someone so sweet and loving fall for you? Like a snake up a tree, the thoughts slowly begin to creep back into your mind, overtaking any previous thought you had there previously. Itâs almost enough to start the waterworks again as you bury yourself deeper into Karlâs hold.
ââItâs alright Sugar, let it all out. Crying shouldnât be held back, just let all your tears go.â Karl was always one to encourage you to cry, his shoulders always available for whenever you ended them.
âYour insecurities were something Karl had been very aware of since you two had met, even in day-to-day life your thoughts shone through in ways he picked up on.Â
âWhen youâve stopped crying for good and explained to him how these kinds of thoughts had been bothering you and the dream you had, he listens to every word and makes mental note of it all. Heâs determined to shower you in as much love and patience as you need to help squash these thoughts for good.
ââIâll always be here for you, whatever you need, whenever you need it. Weâll work through this together and Iâll do whatever it takes to prove that my love is stronger than those dumb thoughts. I want nothing more than for you to feel happy and loved every second weâre together.â
âChances are that when you awake from the terrors of the dream, that heâs already awake. Even if it isnât that often he has streamed in the early morning hours before and if it happened to be on the night you had the nightmare then heâll likely be settling into bed right as you awake.
âImmediately his attention is on you, he begins to fuss over you, even more, when your eyes well up with tears. Heâs pulling you into his chest as he runs his fingers over your scalp, his other hand resting gently against your side as he holds you close.Â
ââYouâre alright Babe, Iâve got you now My Love.â To think this man loved you, of all the people begging for even a second of his time, and he chose you. You were a nobody compared to him, what kind of selfish person were you to keep him to yourself? Like moth to a flame, the thoughts that had invaded your dream began to once again find their way into the forefront of your thoughts.Â
ââHey, hey youâre alright Babe, Iâve got ya.â Not the best with words, itâs Sapnapâs actions that help ground you, reminding you of when and where you were.
âSapnap knew you struggled with insecurities in the relationship, and while he did his best to combat them, he could only help when you told him you were feeling that way.
âHearing that your insecurities had gotten so bad that you couldnât even have peaceful dreams sent searing pain through Sapnapâs chest. How could he not have noticed? In that moment, he vowed to love you so thoroughly that youâd never for a second doubt a thing.
ââYou mean the world to me, I love every little thing about you. Iâll do everything in my power to ensure that you wake up every day and go to bed every night knowing that youâre the only one for me, that thereâs no one else I love as much as you, and that I only want you, for the rest of time.â
âHe wakes a few seconds before you, having been awoken by your tossing and turning in your sleep. Catching the moment you suddenly awake and being there to comfort and reassure you before you start crying.
âBy the time your tears begin to fall, heâs already got you in his arms, cradled gently to his chest as his head rests on yours. His hands rub up and down your side, soothing you and helping you to calm down in a quiet manner.Â
ââItâs ok hon, youâre safe now. I'm here for you my dear.â Quackity, always the caring partner to you. He was always there for you, always having to deal with your problems and insecurities. You were such a burden to him, werenât you? Like a deep, dark ooze, the insecure-bred thoughts slowly crept back into your mind, filling up and taking over any rational thought.
ââCry it all out hon, we can talk about it when youâre feeling better ok?â Quackity was there for you every second he could be, he never wanted you to feel like he was too busy for you.
âYour insecurities were something Quackity had been fighting since you first brought them to his attention. He was always loving and doting on you and making compromises to accommodate how you felt.
âHearing that they had only gotten worse and were invading your dreams was upsetting. He felt like he couldâve done better and that he shouldâve done better.Â
ââI promise you will never spend another day doubting my love for you, or how I only need you. I will make sure that every moment I am given with you, I will spend loving you and showing you how worthy you are of all my love.â