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hoonie

saintmichale

I just finished re-reading solitaire and this is probably my favorite moment

zontik

reasons i fucking love sprolden

they are both out of their goddamn minds

literally psychotic

i say this as a person who experiences psychosis

they're the opposites attract trope

but also not

im not sure how to explain this

at their core, michael and tori are the same because they're both fucking crazy

i love their perception of the world

diet lemonade

they truly deserve more love

they're a straight relationship but the kind where both parties are painfully bisexual

but i can also see them as a QPR

they have a very private-but-not-secret dynamic

i love the way they interact

in conclusion:

they deserve so much more love

thescoextra

i think its a shame to see everyone focus so much on charlies relapse out of all of the scenes in solitaire. i get that they love charlie, but its important for a whole other reason.

charlie's relapse is the event that triggers tori's spiral. it's the catalyst that has her paranoid, intrusive thoughts spiral into really strong delusions and obsessions, that has her depression switch into a mania. that relapse is where it really starts to go downhill.

i could talk forever about how tori is a parentified child, and the type that is never talked about. she isnt a victim of abuse or neglect, but became some sort of a third parent when charlie got sick. she feels entirely responsible for his relapse (which she says so after she blames nick. stop hating her so much for blaming nick), so much so that it causes such a mental health crisis in her that she almost dies. for gods sake, she lets herself get hit by a firework.

she exhibits signs of a manic episode, at the very least a psychotic episode, which leads to her almost jumping off a roof. charlie's relapse may be important, but it is just as important to tori's story as it is to his own.

and if i hear 'my phone rings. 1:39am' to radiohead one more time, i think i may cry. and not because the scene is sad.