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Gut instinct is that we both take birds around the river and we are still very much into each other/ nervous sometimes.

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2-3

to look around past memories and see people as they want

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i miss you and i love you.

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Delivery issues

Someone's new music makes me more optimistic.

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I am mostly hoping we convince each other to go to the beach or huddle and scheme.

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Dream journal:

some woman propositioned me for casual sex, but first let me pick the music using her preferred streaming service which was optimized for selecting music to fuck to.

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It's possible to go out hoping to see someone even after seeing several other people. No bandaids, slow shrug offs.

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It's still easy to hang at home and difficult to crush on anyone new.

I got into perplexus puzzles this week; my mom has one coming in the mail for mother's day late.

I'm thinking about inviting people over and there is still one person easy to dream into my apartment.

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i was hoping e meant x

tried that hoping i’d find you with mutuals.

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I'm not going to go crazy trying to convince you; I'm going to do my best to continue with the things I love about myself and if that works for you, great. I'd still be happy to spend time with you. If you lied, that's on you to deal with. I'm not going to check repeatedly "are you sure you don't really want to be with anyone?" and I'm going to keep staying in when it seems like I might want to change your mind.

I have no indication you'd react kindly if I went into detail how much I wanted to see you again. It's been really easy to enjoy local company, I really enjoy hanging out with the company you chose to keep. It's painful to know my desire to learn more about you at the time you wanted to fuck again... turned you off everything.

Still love you. Still on a dry spell and have stopped counting years.

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I have a feeling that I already met you in almost every town I've hung out because you are in a similar boat, keep similar company, and arrive at a similar conclusion. There is a pervasive hope that you are being ironic/sarcastic in a way I can't read coming from an area with less communication skills needed.

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Another evening that I go to bed at a reasonable time is comforting: many times fast asleep a familiar babe was a distinct possibility in my mind as some kinda future company.

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Backrooms entrances of the early 00s-2010s:

[All in Dreams]

Baltimore Harbor southwest corner

Suburban home between Virginia Beach and Richmond

Various commercial properties on the east side of Richmond

Witch cave somewhere on a sea shore

Former family home in Virginia

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Ben Kenobi wandered the desert of Tatooine, a planet known for its abundance of stone canyons further cut by several abandoned mines. In atonement for his past violence leveraging high ground, he instead found the deepest paths navigable where he always had the lower hand.

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Shit maybe people don't like being compared to an allergen that provokes a visceral reaction in a clearly defined envelope of symptomatic response.

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Tell me more, tell me more!

Did he ████ ██ your ████ ?

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I came in on a boat the night we surely met and could not reasonably claim kinship while it was a blowout to contribute to social opportunities, to safely tincture away the glass grips, move out, and treat it fully at once. Any more paperwork would have buried me.