𝙗𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚 𝙞𝙣 𝙜𝙤𝙙?

but it was love, too.

[sunhalf-a2]

#SOMA : SOMETIMES I CAN’T TELL IF MY BODY BELONGS TO ME / & I LOVE EVERYTHING.

an independent & low - activity multimuse roleplay blog for various canon & original characters, written by rain (  they / she / he  ).  headcanon - based, not spoiler free.  RULES & MUSE LIST.

#BLOGROLL : sunhalf, badnikbreaker, ahlite, devolusion, hichai, biasfactor, resonaet.

[sunhalf-a2]

hi, everyone! i've remade — in fact, i've got a hub blog now, and all my blogs are side blogs to that hub! i'm hoping this will make it easier for me to manage replies / blogs / etc. so i can be around more consistently. you can view my active blogs on the hub's pinned post here.

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[sunhalf-a2]

hi, everyone! i've remade — in fact, i've got a hub blog now, and all my blogs are side blogs to that hub! i'm hoping this will make it easier for me to manage replies / blogs / etc. so i can be around more consistently. you can view my active blogs on the hub's pinned post here.

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[sunhalf-a2]

hi, everyone! i've remade — in fact, i've got a hub blog now, and all my blogs are side blogs to that hub! i'm hoping this will make it easier for me to manage replies / blogs / etc. so i can be around more consistently. you can view my active blogs on the hub's pinned post here.

feel free to check that page out and follow any of my blogs that interest you! hope to see you on the other side! ♡

[sunhalf-a2]

hi, everyone! i've remade — in fact, i've got a hub blog now, and all my blogs are side blogs to that hub! i'm hoping this will make it easier for me to manage replies / blogs / etc. so i can be around more consistently. you can view my active blogs on the hub's pinned post here.

feel free to check that page out and follow any of my blogs that interest you! hope to see you on the other side! ♡

[sunhalf-a2]

hi, everyone! i've remade — in fact, i've got a hub blog now, and all my blogs are side blogs to that hub! i'm hoping this will make it easier for me to manage replies / blogs / etc. so i can be around more consistently. you can view my active blogs on the hub's pinned post here.

feel free to check that page out and follow any of my blogs that interest you! hope to see you on the other side! ♡

[sunhalf-a2]

hi, everyone! i've remade — in fact, i've got a hub blog now, and all my blogs are side blogs to that hub! i'm hoping this will make it easier for me to manage replies / blogs / etc. so i can be around more consistently. you can view my active blogs on the hub's pinned post here.

feel free to check that page out and follow any of my blogs that interest you! hope to see you on the other side! ♡

[sunhalf-a2]

hi, everyone! i've remade — in fact, i've got a hub blog now, and all my blogs are now side blogs to that hub! i'm hoping this will make it easier for me to manage replies / blogs / etc. so i can be around more consistently. you can view my active blogs on the hub's pinned post here.

feel free to check that page out and follow any of my blogs that interest you! hope to see you on the other side! ♡

[sunhalf-a2]

hi. u see that -a2 at the end of my url. in like 4 minutes, there will be a blog without that

[sunhalf-a2]

what if i made a hub blog

[sunhalf-a2]

soma is so....sad. is the thing

[rt0001]

it always takes him a handful of minutes to look past the grotesque act of her kaiju devouring. there is an understood connection between them / as experimental lab rats, more kaiju than human— but that doesn't stop his hands from itching for the bayonet resting against his back. violent tendencies are easier to swallow back when she starts to speak, provides a humanistic aspect to focus on instead of.. everything else.

does he want to disclose the properties of his rt0001? not particularly, no. especially not to an outside unit, one purposely kept away from his knowledge by the man who was supposed to be his teacher. the whole situation with clozer still pissed him off, but that's another thing gen can't focus on. ❛ i have kaiju eyes. ❜ as simple as that, truly. humanity's strongest defense force, part monster like the enemies that kept killing them. it's pretty funny, gen knows. ❛ let's me see the future. ❜

it was far more complex than that, but he didn't have the time or the energy to waste in explanations. the faster this whole babysitting situation is over with, the faster he can wash the gore off his weapon and armor. ❛ you can only see the future if you have these kaiju eyes. ❜

[sunhalf-a2]

"Oh ———" They should be excited, but Soma / Cruz / the body feels something not dissimilar to disgust. Not of him / for him. SOMA EXISTS BY TAKING KAIJU PARTS INTO THS BODY. Soma takes lots of parts into this body.

They knew that Narumi is like them, made up of Kaiju parts, but...every part of something else you take in, the less space there is for YOU. The body gets filled up with something - else. Their brows tilt and they lurch forward towards him, eyes low, trying to catch his. "Sorry. Sad."

This body is a constant agony / this lack of self the opposite of drowning. OVERFILLED FLESH, BUT NOT WITH SOMA. Ah — ah — "Remember which Narumi parts went away for the eyes? What parts lost?" To see the future but lose the self...Soma has nothing to abandon, so it's less meaningful for her. Narumi is still so full. What a tragedy, to lose parts.

[sunhalf-a2]

@huntskaiju liked! / rin & soma!

"Dying not bad," she says, and it really isn't / because Soma is in agonizing pain every moment except for the moment that they disperse and cease to exist. It's a relief. If it weren't for the loss of others' memories, they'd do it more, just for the break.

"Worst part lo...mm —— worst part without memories. Losing memories! But the dying...not scary."

[sunhalf-a2]

@iryonin liked! / sakura & soma!

Soma says, "Not understand why you worry." Never let it be said that Soma is not straightforward / at least, they haven't yet learned that there may be a benefit to being anything else. Thin brows arch and there's no judgement, just honest confusion, because Sakura knows what Soma is — at least as much as anyone else does. Sakura knows Soma will come back when she dies, missing some small remembrance and perhaps with a new scar, but back nonetheless. Sakura knows Soma is a weapon and not a person, that 'Soma' is a fiction dreamt in lieu of history. But still, Sakura worries, tries to protect her, tries to keep her / this body from death. Soma isn't sure whether the grief / gratefulness she feels is hers or the other one's. Soma says, "strange to worry for this body."

[huntskaiju]

good at pretty. it's a cute way to phrase it, endearing—— rin's smile grows, just a bit. that self-satisfied feeling does too. ❝ i'm not doing much. i'm just cleanin’ you up, you know. ❞ nothing that soma couldn't do herself, but ... maybe something no one in ariake would really care about. no one except rin, of course.

( well manicured nails, glass skin, neatly trimmed hair. she hadn't cared before, until she did—— and now what? she has stupid, trivial rituals to make her feel more human than soldier. maybe it's useless when it's all she'll ever be.

good at pretty, her mind unhelpfully supplies. the tips of her ears feel awfully hot. )

❝ if i'm—— making you pretty, it's only ‘cause you already are. i'm just getting rid of some grime. ❞

[sunhalf-a2]

This body's hand extends — extends — extends in the air between them. Soma doesn't realize it's happening until fingerprints meet the other's smooth, soft cheek, and the body's eyes round prettily as if surprised. She supposes she is / but not unhappy. She smiles after a long beat.

"Cleaning this body up," Soma says. There's no Soma to clean, just this body, which is pretty. They know. It's another way to be useful aside from being a weapon and aside from eating memory. Sex is sort of nice, and they know the body feels good for people. "This body pretty, but not...hmm — Rin is pretty, and Rin's body?" They didn't used to care about explaining the distinction. Rin is pretty, and Rin has a body. Soma can't be pretty, because Soma doesn't exist, and the body is a separate entity entirely. More Cruz than Soma, and barely Cruz at all. sometimes all cruz.

They remember the body is touching Rin, hand drifting to jaw before pulling back. "And Rin nice to touch!"

[moymoimi]

ロクシオを伝えたいとか

[sunhalf-a2]

— get to know your mutuals!

favourite colour : it changes a lot; right now it's a light sage green, but tomorrow it'll be peach or brown or buttercup yellow. generally speaking, i like light/pastel, easter-y colours or warm, earthy ones

last song : which to bury; us or the habit by reliant k. i've been on an alt-rock/punk pop kick lately

currently reading : i'm rereading is a river alive?; i read it a month or two ago, but the writer is very well-read and referenced a lot of authors/musicians/politicians/activists/etc i'm not familiar with. i didn't want to slow down my first read by pausing to look everything up, so that's what this reread is for

currently watching : the fragrant flower blooms in dignity and dan da dan. the last film i watched was sorry, baby

currently craving : smoothie...

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