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Trying to figure out life and decided to make a blog○Eilidh○Mid/Late 20s○Probably some flavour of ace and/or sapphic○I'm trying my best <3

[sunlight-and-shadows]

Hello !! (New intro post)

Have *finally* bothered to make a proper intro post

You can call me Eilidh; I'm an adult in the latter half of my 20s, and am trying to Figure Out My Life

Come talk to me about Wicked, Merlin, Bury Our Bones in the Midnight Soil, Only Murders in the Building, Priory of the Orange Tree, Ghosts, the occasional musical, and many other topics I can't be bothered to list out at this moment

Asks and DMs are open (And please know: I suffer from social anxiety and am more scared of you, than you are of me <3)

[sandersstudies]

I watched a 2-year-old for the weekend. Mom claims 2yo is pretty emotional and cries often. Don’t really see that during stay. Occasional normal kid stuff but always resolved quickly. I noticed she occasionally asked to play on her iPad but as a babysitter I felt it was more responsible for me to say “not right now, we’re going to [activity, game, tidy up].” So there was no iPad or TV for three days. And a lot of it was independent play. She would color and read and play with toys without me for long stretches. (Once she told me she was “busy” and she was just observing a keychain and taking in its contours.)

Her mom and dad return and give her iPad on first request. She plays with it peacefully while adults talk. Mom moves to take it away for bedtime and it’s immediate tantrum. Screaming and crying tears. The screaming continues all the way to bathtime and bed. Mom and Dad have to cajole her with a snack and lots of attention for about twenty minutes before her crying stops.

Now, I want to be fair to these parents: toddler is overwhelmed by Mom and Dad returning from a, by her standards, “long” time away. It’s getting late, toddler is tired and maybe actually did need that snack. Toddlers also just act different around babysitters than they do mom and dad.

But for a toddler who was a pleasant and attentive kid for three days to dissolve into tantrum of that length as soon as she is reunited with and then separated from her iPad freaks me out. She is not a teen upset she can’t communicate with her friend. She’s not even a grade-schooler who didn’t save their Minecraft world. She’s a toddler who is distressed by being separated from an overstimulation machine.

Her parents have convinced themselves it’s a tool and a convenience by handing it to her and gaining silence at mealtimes and car rides and every request when she’s a bright kid who can spend just as much time with a book as with a screen, with much less distress at separation.

Idk, maybe there are people out there who are actually having great experiences with their kids with iPads but if I wasn’t turned off from iPads before, damn I am now. I felt so WEIRD and UPSET seeing that sweet kid scream like that. It was totally against everything I knew about her personality, but totally in line with everything her mom had warned me about.

[infectiouspiss]

violence and death and dying and blood and guts and gore and violence and viscera and fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you

[thelaughingserpent]

The courage to slay a god.

[cheddar-baby]

Oi dont even joke lad

[synf3ll-moved]

take figures out of their boxes btw. sew patches on your favorite jacket. go to bed with your favorite plushes. wear the pants you usually save for special occasions. draw something cool on your wall. put a sticker on your laptop. dye your hair and pierce your lips. glass is meant to break, metal is meant to rust. items are meant to be used. that's how the world knows that somebody loved them.

[halibellecter]

When my aunt died of covid, we had to clean out a lot of stuff that she was saving. Foods she was going to try, she was a great chef, spices she'd never opened or only used sparingly, lotions and bath things she hadn't used. After she died I started making a point of using things up: the good vanilla that has to be imported, that we finally found more of, we'd used barely an ounce before she passed away. Even though we love it. I just got my family new bottles of it for Christmas because we used one up. We enjoyed that happiness. Sometimes I still get the impulse to wait for something special, or awful, to save nice things for celebration or comfort. The phrase that always echoes in my mind is "use the good vanilla". And I have been (burning the candles, squirting the body wash, dissolving the bath bombs, putting the saffron in things). And it's been great. Use the good vanilla.

[sunlight-and-shadows]

So many wish chips in my bag of dill pickle chips 🥰

[madisoneliseeeeee]

Hey you wanna come over and dip bread into olive oil and balsamic vinegar and such?

[moonywithatrafficcone]

I CAN FINALLY POST THIS

[fairycosmos]

im not complaining because i expect you to fix anything im complaining to bond with you. omggggg find your hater spirit

[mumintroll]

u survive literally every single event in your life & still every time a new event happens you feel like this is the event that will kill you and that you will never move on from but actually you will continue to survive like you always have bc u have a 100% win rate of surviving events. btw

[sunlight-and-shadows]

I wish I could stop checking to see if she replied. I already know the answer. I want to stop thinking about her so often. I want more.

[tired-shipper]

One thing i like about tumblr is that holidays last like 40 hours due to timezones.

[jokyri]

One of my recent projects that I've finished is this drawing of Camelot (BBC Merlin) :]

[pipshinwhatever]

(said completely devoid of context) you know how it is

[aaronstveit]

i would be soooooo powerful if i wasn't so deeply afraid of people and places and also things

[vidibit]

Mutuals who I have hardly spoken with but we instead communicate through silently liking and reblogging each other's posts... I hope you're all having a lovely day ✨

[vergak]

[shadow-posession-jutsu]

for those interested in cowboy hat pet pics