The struggles are real, but at least they're sunlit.
@sunlitmcgee
Hi! Not a minor. Sunlit, Sun, Sunny, Axiom, Axi, Oblation, Obbi
he/him (we are plural, however)(please no they/them)
Our host also uses the following:
He/Him + Ser/Seraph/Seraphs/Seraphimself + Angel/Angelself + Berry/Berries/Berryself + Heart/Hearts/Heartself + Sun/Sunshine/Sunself + Meep/Meeps/Meepself
Dream SMP/Wings of Fire/Undertale/Deltarune fan, C!Tommy apologist and c!Benchtrio Main. Gilf Tenna Truther.
I do not support Dream or Wilbur Soot. My enjoyment of the DSMP and its characters is purely focused on the narrative of the roleplay and specific concepts/elements within that I remake into my own.
I am a pan-demisexual aromantic queerplatonic dykeguy whore & an objectum sillydude ^__^
Current PFP is by nnerradd on Tumblr!!!
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Hello hello! Welcome to my blog. I plan to post about whatever it is that interests me most at any given moment, as well as the usual tumblr brand of queer awareness and related topics.
As of 2024, I am trying my best to work on some original writings and settings for the stories Iâm hoping to tell. My current settings are Broken Moon, a post-apocalyptic sci-fi world inhabited by mechanical robots and bio-engineered creatures in the ruins of humanity. This setting involves themes of horror, violence, existentialism, religion, and gore, both organic and mechanical.
Yesterrealm is my D&D-esque fantasy setting that blends swords and sorcery with Y2K-era American suburbia. It features largely slice-of-life and horror-action themes. You can learn more about it on my sideblog @wishingwellfromyesterrealmâ.
There is also Estea, a much more lighthearted, but still at times a bit angsty setting for my fursona anthro characters. It mainly focuses on my OC, Elnos Lavenwine.
Both of these settings will have their own tags, but feel free to search my blog for specific character names if that helps you find stuff about it easier!
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While this is a mostly SFW 16+ blog, at the end of the day I am an adult, and I make sex jokes and talk about sex sometimes. If you are a minor, please be smart and interact at your own risk.
I do not support Dream or Wilbur Soot as creators. Anything you see on my blog with this will be related to the fictional characters they share names with, but that is the start and end of the similarities. Do not interact with my blog should you still support either of them. You will be blocked if you do.
Iâll add stuff onto this post as I think of it! Please feel free to send asks or such like! :)
Regarding your âpopular indie artists and writersâ post:
People, to a certain degree, are inherently violent. And since opportunities to commit physical violence freely have steadily decreased, they will turn to other avenues.
Online platforms encourage this activity, YouTube and Twitter being the biggest examples. We can see this through âdramaâ and âlolcowâ content being promoted and spread across many feeds.
The Internet isn't real and it can't hurt you.
gonna level with you man i don't even know what post you're talking about. check out this spinosaurus i just drew in ms paint
When backrooms!Toriel is yelling at Spamton she is really also yelling at Asgore. And when she yells she's yelling in behalf of Tenna, both the Tenna outside, and the one who has had his antennas cut off that's standing in the corner. Ok.
My mom likes to tell me about how when I was a little kid riding public transport with her I'd always smile and giggle and chat with weird old ladies who smelled like cat pee and homeless folks and strangers dressed in bizarre outfits but any time a tidy and respectable businessman in a suit and tie waved at me I'd immediately clam up, and she takes a great deal of pride in my supposed inherentability to clock personalities but the truth is I do vaguely remember those bus rides, and it was never about the clothes or the hair or the smell, but more because everyone "strange" asked interesting questions and listened to what I had to say and seemed to think about what I said while the neat and tidy and rigid folks only ever acted like they were going through the motions, which was boring as hell and also pretty annoying
Good rule of thumb is the more people of different backgrounds you know, the harder it becomes to dehumanize them, so its a really good thing to meet people from different backgrounds, and anyone telling you that people from x culture or y country you really shouldnt interact with probably dont have your best interest in mind
here are my fun little contributions to that one tenna mega whiteboard. i went to sleep, and i woke up surrounded by many thorned tennas!!!! how happy i was, giddy even! some more aromantic than others, ALL beautiful expressions of pain
thank you for making my TV stronger, so pretty you want to hurt it
the big man is the masculine dom and the dom is the top and the little man is effeminate and transgender but fully passes as a cis man and has top surgery but since he doesnt have bottom surgery he literally has to be a bottom theres no way for someone with a vagina to top and the bottom is the sub and they are both uncomplicatedly homosexual with zero positive emotions for women and they both have adhd and autism but only the kind of autism that doesnt actually disable you and they also crossdress but in a specifically humiliating way (why would a MAN wear a DRESS??? đ€Șđ€Ș etc.) and they live together in a big house that they can both effortlessly afford and they're married and have 2 kids a dog and a cat (because Big man is dog coded and Little man is cat coded) and neither of them have jobs or lasting damage from canon events they've been through or physical disabilities or PTSD that I cant turn into Angsty Ship Content and the sun has a big smiley face and birds are just V shapes on the paper it doesnt have to be more complicated than that you dont have to flesh them out. you dont have to. and if you think about it wouldn't it just be soooo much effort to draw a whole bird?? youre just having fun its mean to ask you for detail. and my teacher lives at the school and the bus driver lives in the bus and everything is exactly the same :)
i don't really think saying ppl are ableist about tenna is a stretch because he is simultaneously so heavily coded with bpd (or just mental illness in general if you want to be vaguer) and characterized as being shockingly patient and non-violent/non-confrontational given his circumstances (outside of when he's in the middle of a nervous breakdown so bad he's having active flashbacks during it), that the only real way he can be so consistently mischaracterized as a possessive yandere dom who hurts people with his size is if you either didn't play the game or have very strange misconceptions about what a character like him "Would" act like. which certainly warrants reflection methinks
Adding both Rowan and Keyâs tags to this actually because like. Yeah. Yeah exactly. And on the inverse of fanon ableism I can personally say that Tennas coding spoke very deeply to me while I was playing and with each replay and analysis spoke to me in a way that I hadnât seen before- where there were symptoms of BPD without the character being treated as irredeemable or a massive burden but someone who is scared for good reason and struggling. Like you can imagine that it feels like a personal punch to the face when you then turn around and see people making jokes about him suicide baiting people and straight up attacking them or using his size to intimidate them or yandere aus or just. A variety of content thats just a caricature.
And itâs fine if you realize you might have a bias you havenât assessed! Every single person has a bias, no matter what- and everyone is constantly learning and growing. Itâs good to learn and grow and change! There are people who might just not connect the idea of âoh hes showing these signs of mental illness associated with BPD such as massive abandonment issues and struggling to navigate relationships in his life as well as lashing out or black and white thinking or breaking down over things I feel arenât that big, therefore he must [insert stereotype here]â or even realize that thatâs the thought process in the back of their head. Thatâs why people talk about it, thats why people say âwow the yandere trope is really ableistâ or âitâs ableist to insist tenna beats peopleâ.
Sure. Yeah. A lot of the time, âplaying toysâ isnât that deep, honestly Iâm someone who thinks a lot of these types of things are stupid and blown out of proportion most the time- but politics exists in everything whether you like it or not. Thats why itâs good to learn when a way you might be going about something might be hurting someone else.
okay last backrooms post because i genuinely want people's thoughts and also because i want to encourage media literacy. so here's some backrooms questions, spoilers under the read more.
when i ask "why" i am not asking in the literal sense, i want you to instead substitute every why with "what did the director mean when he did this;". this is not meant to be condescending - i genuinely am asking these because i loved this movie because of how just absolutely choked with denseness it is, it is laser focused, and i want other people to be able to enjoy it the same way i do.
so without further ado;
why is clark dressed as a pirate when he runs a furniture store?
what were non-fictional pirates actually like?
as the owner-manager of a furniture store, where do clark's class interests lie? is he a laborer?
what about all the other characters in the movie that show up for more than a single scene? what are their class interests?
what are the genders of all the characters that react with fear to the backrooms? what are the genders of all the characters that react with awe/i-want-to-know-more of the backrooms? if there is a pattern, why would the director make there be one?
what is meant by the store title "captain clark's ottoman empire"? what was the ottoman empire, and, outside bad furniture pun, does it have any relevance to the story?
why do they mark the entrances off the wall in blue tape in particular? what might that mean?
spoiler questions;
does it seem meaningful that the three still lives that clark has at his disposal are, respectively, a disabled person in a wheelchair, a blue collar worker, and a representative of His Wife?
why does he scalp still-life-wife-standin? does it mean anything that he *scalped* her, as the specific attack action?
what does it mean that captain clark is, well, specifically captain clark, and not any other memory of clark?
why does captain clark eat clark when he does and not a moment before or after? does the dialogue at the moment mean anything?
what does it mean that mary's childhood home full of furniture is demolished for a condo?
how much furniture is visible in the flashback with mary's mom in the mental home?
who do you think drew the captain clark drawings and why? (consider; motive, materials, and time)
why is/was async an mri company and not any other kind of company? do mris mean anything, or was it a hospital technology picked at random?
why is clark stealing furniture from the backrooms?
is it important that clark is a failed architect, or could that have been excised from the story? why or why not?
is it important that clark is a furniture salesman specifically, or was it arbitrary?
is it important that clark went from failed architect to failing furniture salesman?
what does captain clark represent to clark?
what does captain clark represent to everyone else?
what does it mean that clark used his position as the manager of a female worker to pressure her and her boyfriend to perform ultimately lethal off-the-clock labor for him?
why did a bed, specifically, be the object that knocked clark and the other two whose names escape me into the deeper part of the backrooms?
why does the sky look so weird every time we see it ("they are secretly in a higher up level of the backrooms the entire time" is not a valid answer)
what is mary's relationship to furniture?
how might mary's relationship to furniture differ from clark's relationship to furniture?
do you think mary liked clark before clark had his whole... thing?
is the backrooms uninhabited land that is free to take? why or why not?
should you be allowed to use rooms that nobody else is using?
what is a privateer? how might that relate to captain clark's pirate imagery?
why does the wife-standin still life run when captain clark shows up?
why is the girl worker's head in clark's fridge?
what do the caveman cardboards mean?
why, exactly, is it "scary" that the backrooms might have things in it walking around that aren't you? what prompts the fear?
why is clark excited that he doesn't have to change?
is it relevant that the story comments on how people are "neurologically wired", and also, async started as an MRI company?
why, specifically, does clark assume still lives can't feel pain? or at least, why does he say this to someone else?
outside of the movie, what is a "still life"? why might the movie call the people-like organisms in the backrooms a "still life"?
define "terra nullius". how do you think it might relate to the backrooms?
Itâs that time of year again so here is your yearly reminder that the world isnât ending and people donât hate you. The sun is just setting at 6 pm.
HEY SOUTHERN HEMISPHERE GIRLIES, ITS OUR TURN TO ENDURE THE DARK DAYS NOW, BUT STAY STRONG. THE WORLD IS NOT ENDING; THE SUN IS JUST SETTING AT 5-to-6 PM. BUT SHE WILL COME BACK TO US SOON. TAKE A VITAMIN D AND HANG IN THERE.
whiteboards are fun. drawing tenna stepping on the email (NOT in a sexy way) and underneath there's some museum worthy drawings and then there's us with fucking cockroach squashed spamton
it'sreally fun to in real time watch the topic in the region of the board we're doodling in go from "the thorn ring is fucked and tenna probably wore that" to "aro tenna finger blood gore angst" to "tenna and kris bittersweetfulness angst" and then "tenna gore killing tenna rage anger about weird route happenings" like it's great. good job people we're all here following a thematic throughline and we're making connections and there's images now also because of it
