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Don’t you HATE it when your mind’s thinking about someone, and just nice the name appears on a particular platform, you get happy for a moment but after that you gotta tell yourself a moment is just a moment and you gotta move the fk on because it’s just gonna stop there???? 😩😩😩

Why am I feeling this way????? Have been feeling pretty horrible lately. If I were to look at myself from a third party’s point of view, I’d probably be like the fuck is wrong w her??? Idk, I can’t let this affect me. When ppl ask me what’s wrong with me, I myself can’t formulate my answer into words either. Because there’s nothing actually wrong with me, I just wanna stay away from people sometimes and have some inner peace. My mind has been in a state of mess lately and tbh, it’s not the most desirable state to be in now that finals are on going. Just get me outta this phase. Even I can’t understand myself either. Maybe I should just accept the fact that I’m a loser in life who lacks discipline lacks motivation and lacks passion.

I can’t even think of something that I can be proud of, or that I could tell others about. What’s the point of existing anyway. Probably just a waste of space here. I’m just that loser who never gets what she wants despite trying, that girl who can only settle for her second choice or her last but never her first. The quitter who quits after trying for a meager few times and admitting defeat after. Why can’t I be emotionally and mentally stronger?

Sorry for sounding so moody. Perhaps it’s some evening sadness going on now while studying for quantum. I need a run to cleanse my mind. Too damn many fucking thoughts.

And stop telling me about x. I do not want to know.