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In love up to our knees | Berlin, DE
Hei from Oslo! So I haven’t updated anyone on anything lately so I’ll jot down some quick thoughts here before I go to sleep. We left France almost exactly a month ago and spent a week in Budapest. Resting and bathing and eating and drinking surprisingly good hungarian wine. After we trained to Prague and pretty much did the same. One morning we woke up at 4:30 am and ran in the rain to catch the astronomical clock go off in an empty courtyard and ate bagels soaking wet and freezing and it was my favorite day. And then we spent two weeks in Berlin with my very favorite person I’ve met in Europe, Alice (she’s a countess). Things have been surprisingly perfect and not-so-surprisingly we are now running out of money and are off to work again. This time in the top of Norway to raise puppies and herd reindeer and see the northern lights. We’ve mostly been shooting in film so I don’t have many pictures to share right now. Ok goodnight!
On our half drunk walk home from dinner tonight we stumbled upon a wild hedgehog and that's how prague became my favorite city in europe
This is what waking up in france looks like lately. It rains every morning and every night which everyone says is a sure sign that autumn is here (which I really don’t mind bc I am so ready for warm soup and toasty bread and fireplaces) We’ve been stacking firewood and picking the last of the summer vegetables and preparing for the great pumpkin harvest which we think will be next week. Things are up and down and we are feeling really tired but mostly good. I’ll post some more when I get a sec.
Bon septembre, it’s the first of the autumn months so it’s basically halloween as far as I'm concerned! The season has already reached Normandy bc I’m wearing two sweaters right now and our first apple harvest is soon. And bon week-end! After a week of rain and weed picking we’re headed to Mont St. Michel this morning and Utah (d-day) Beach tomorrow. We rented a car and learned to drive stick last night lol more stories to come. Tonight we’re going to an end of summer feast in a greenhouse 🌿
We dug about 1200 potatoes in the last two days and now I have become the potato queen!! This farm is nuts, I’ll tell you guys all about it soon.
ps look at the size of that worm!!
The happiest birthday to my favorite person I’ve ever met in my life!!!! John Breske I love you almost as much as I love my sister (and anyone who knows me knows just how much that means) You’re my favorite face to wake up to in the morning and the number one person I want by my side all day. Thank you for holding my hand and keeping me sane and pushing me further for the past three years cute boy. Cheers to the first of many birthdays together 💛💛💛
I’m feeling like a big baby today. It’s not the first time and it’s probably not going to be the last that I really really just want to pack up my big stupid backpack and come home. France is beautiful and lovely and rich in culture and rich in cheese and full of new opportunities. But it’s also hard. And usually uncomfortable. I’M TIRED OF FLIES LANDING ON ME. And I’m getting tired of showering with shoes on in bathrooms with spiders on the ceilings and of having bug bites on my face from sleeping with the windows open. And I’m more tired of going through hot days and stuffy nights with no fans or ac or air circulation. I’m tired of delayed trains and small busses and not being able to hop in the car. What do cars even feel like anymore?? I’m tired of having to eat french food where they drown vegetables in butter and cream and don’t cut them small enough. I’m t i r e d of bread. And I’m over the strange table manners and weird long silences at lunch where no one talks. I’m over not speaking english!!!! I know it’s the point but wow I really miss the comfort of “hey how’s it going” and smiling when I say hello and I’m still not totally sure what to say to “ça va?” and definitely don’t love kissing strangers on the cheeks. It feels strange and is a lot less meaningful than a hug. Did you know french people don’t smile?? They look chic as hell but they don’t smile. They just sip wine and smoke cigarettes and kiss cheeks and apparently sleep with bugs crawling on their faces. I miss going to the gym and roasting vegetables and eating salad and baking comfort food when I’m in the mood. I miss knowing that I can find what I’m looking for at the supermarket (publix forever) and not having to be 100% seasonal all the time (broccoli I miss you!) I miss feeling healthy. And I miss savannah! What the heck is the country even doing for me right now. And we just signed on for another two months on a farm. I’m sure I’ll be a better person for it but right now I just want to take a nap and wake up at home.
Disclaimer: this was a passing phase and after my nap I love france again
hey! I'm doing hand drawn postcards right now and am trying a thing where I keep in touch with friends via post. If you're interested shoot me your address!! I miss you all~
In case you were wondering what’s happened in the last two months I’ll tell you now. WE DIED AND THEN CAME BACK TO LIFE AGAIN more or less.
We left our first home on Île d'Oleron at the end of July headed for nightmare camp aka german surf camp. It was so nuts there that we sent out sos messages and left three weeks early. I know from over there in comfy America it sounds like I am being a big baby and you’re probably right but I still think we did the right thing here. First of all forget everything you think you know about Germans (efficient and organized etc etc). When we arrived to the train station we bumped into another couple of backpackers headed to the same campsite as us and shared a taxi. They were a chill Italian-Argentinian couple on their third year of travel. On the way there we found out that they were headed to go4surf too, what a coincidence! And they were staff for the month of august, wow what are the odds!! And they are the chefs, woah no way so are we!! huh…. Ya so we got there and find out they double booked our positions as chefs and then kind of brushed it off and blamed us all for the mistake. And then said they would to let the four of us decide which two would have to leave. The caveat being that in the meantime we would have to share a surfboard, and wetsuits, and there probably wouldn’t be enough bikes and btw the beach is 6km away. ~But~ the next day found out they had a full camp to feed the first week so we could all cook together for now and would decide at the end of the week who would go. Thank the gods. The kitchen was a tent and we had fifty germans to feed. John and I went into it thinking we would outwork our ‘competition’ and be the ones to stay. We could take lead and plan the meals and reorganize and set up a structure in the kitchen. And we did. But it turns out that we really got along with giorgia and javier and needed them as much as they needed us. So together we’re cooking 12 kilos of meat per meal with 5 sides in a tent with a small oven, three working mini fridges, one broken mini fridge, a stove with two burners, and a griddle. And actually it was really fun…at first. Really long really hot exhausting hours but every meal felt like one of the best things I’ve cooked and was usually something the germs had never tasted before (side note: seeing people eat their very first rice krispie treat is a truly magical thing especially when you put peanut butter in it) The energy we got from cooking was alllllmost enough to get us through but it just didn’t and in the end we were just too exhausted to surf or to learn any of the things we came here for. And really the main thing was that the germans were just kind of jerks. Generally ungrateful people and made no effort to include anyone that wasn’t german (and I know it’s a small thing but they had no understanding of health code in a kitchen whatsoever and after a trimester of culinary school that freaked me out!!) And every night after hours of working we slept in a tent that backed up against the bar tent and the cinema tent and even headphones and sleep masks can’t help that kind of thing. And it was a million degrees the whole time. So after a week we just realized we weren’t growing or learning or happy and chose to solve their overstaffing problem by running away at the first chance. I cried a little when I read the email from Sebastien that said we could come back to Île d'Oleron tbh bc it meant there was hope for happiness again. So we hiked out early in the morning eight days after we arrived and caught a bus to a train to another bus and eventually hitched our way back to our home on the magic island again. (big shoutout to the really nice french couple that gave two tired dead looking americans a ride) We were greeted by hugs and kisses and a caravan of our own and just like that we were home again.
And that’s the full circle. Despite all of the complaining, looking back on it I really had a good time on the days we did spend surfing and the afternoons at the pool. So it wasn’t all bad. But I lost my favorite jacket, so it’s still mostly bad.
There’s so much more but that’s just a little recap✌🏻
I know I’ve been a little m.i.a. lately and I also know that sucks. Especially when I’m doing so many journal-worthy things every day. Soooo I’m going to try to make more of an effort on the blog. My posts may be really long and boring or just pictures or really short or not really make sense but I’m going to try regardless and we’ll see what happens. In brief, the past two months have not gone as planned at all but the tangles have worked themselves out anyway and now I’m in normandy living on a 400 year old farm working with a french chef and things are mostly good! More to come soon!!!!
Scattered memories of this magical island.
July 2017. St. Denis d'Oléron.
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Week 10. June 1st. Part 2. The second most important photo is this!! My celebration in bed after I killed my final. This was followed by a celebration nap and then celebration ice cream.
Week 10. June 1st.
30. Veal Paupiettes Bourgeoise style. Basically veal meatballs wrapped in caul fat wrapped in cow stomach breaded, pan seared and then oven roasted. Overall, eh. Aaaaand I didn’t get a picture of it. After a perfect record of taking pictures of everything I’ve made I completely forgot but tbh this is really the only picture that even matters I think. Here’s the toast on the final day of class with the people that made this entire experience/my life. My sisters. I could write about them forever but there will be another post for that.
After all of this, I have no doubt that leaving work and moving to paris and basically blindly jumping into le cordon bleu was the exact right thing for me to do. I could go on about it forever. The most beautiful parts of le cordon bleu were the moments that didn’t make it into the pictures, the lunches in the sun between classes and laughing until we can’t breath in demo and trying to fillet a fish while still not sober from the night before. I’ve already grown so much more in the past four months than I did in the two years I spent working in an office and I’ve still got two times that ahead of me 😝 !!! I learned how to be passionate again and how it feels to wake up excited about the day and how important it is to work with your hands and to really connect to what I’m putting into my body. I learned how to perfectly poach an egg and how to hold a knife and how to ciseler an onion in 30 seconds flat. I learned to understand the beauty in seasonality and how to hold my own at a french farmers market. I learned to keep my knives razor sharp and how to mirepoix vegetables without even looking and that if you pile fresh green things on your plate before serving it looks six times more delicious. I learned that people eat with their eyes and that chef’s cook with all five senses. I learned to scale, dress, and fillet any whole fish you throw my way and what to do with a whole chicken, head and guts and all. I learned that’s every dish needs a sauce and then I learned how to make at least 30 different ones. I learned how to completely fail at something and then be ok with it. I learned that the french do not understand health but they understand happiness and I think that they live a lot longer because of it. I learned crepes suzette and quiche lorraine and homemade pasta and I also learned that with great power comes great responsibility and that being able to make those things at any time is dangerous knowledge. I learned that three hours a day in a kitchen is not enough to become a master and that always left me wanting more. I learned that things taste better if you care about what you’re making and it tastes best if you care about the person who’s eating it (how was that veal John 😘) I learned that there is never enough salt until there’s too much salt and that black pepper as a necessity is basically a made up idea. Most importantly I think I learned to finally understand all of those famous idealistic quotes that ~work isn’t work if you love what you’re doing etc etc etc~ because honestly when you love what you do there aren’t enough hours in the day and it’s a really beautiful really special thing to love your life so much that you want time to slow down. Idk what I was expecting when I first decided to go to le cordon bleu but now I know that it was the right decision and I’ve really found something I love and that this is only the beginning.
Week 10. May 31st.
29. Escalopes of veal with homemade pasta