New year.
So it’s officially 2017. 2016 gone so fast and so slow at the same time. At first i want to say happy new year to you. And now i want just talk. It’s 4 a.m. and i try to understand whathappend in 2016. And my mind is blowing up. That was one of the worst year. At the start of 2016 i had problems with styding (one of the teachers just always screamd amd said that i’m stupid and other sings) and then i can’t just accept myself and enjoy my life. And i started to belive her. I realy thought that she was right. And this continued untill jule. Then we had break and i have time to think about it. And only in September i somehow started to belive in myself. But i still think that i’m not enough. And this just blowing my mind. How did i allow one person change me so much. She liked it so much. But now when i talk to this person i can stand up for myself. But she just destroyed my year.
I always want to make resolutions but now i have only one. I want to ive happy. But i know i can’t do this. Something happend in my mind every day and in the end of the day i lay in my bed crying. I don’t why. I feel pain in my whole body. And i want to nobody feels something like this or even worst.
So yep idek why i write it. I just to say it. It’s been a long year.So fuck you 2016. I hope you all have wonderful time. And i want to know your resolutions for 2017. Who knows mabe you’ll have the best year. Mabe you’ll do that always was afraid to do.
Happy new year,x.
