hi! in high school i was an avid tumblr user, and now (yikes - 7 years later?) i find myself logging in about once a year to feel nostalgic and see what’s up on the site. it’s such a special moment, though, when i am reminded of individuals (you, reading this!) who i used to consider friends, or partners in adolescence and youth, at the very least.
my question for y’all - y’all reading this who probably haven’t seen my username in years - what keeps you on this site? do you feel a change in community, or in your own self and how you blog, over the past few years?
or, less specifically - what’s up!!! how ARE you!
i’m literally a mid-20′s young woman now, someone who has moved all around the US and lived in europe and has (two!) degrees and many jobs and damn!! it’s such a strange sweet trip to log back into my tumblr and be 17 again - to be 17 and reblogging photos of urban spaces and rainy days and forests that i didn’t have access to as a teenager in rural arizona. most profound to me is that the photos i reblogged in 2014 were aspirational, but they look a lot like photos that i’ve taken and sights that i’ve seen since then. my life has literally become the things that i used to blog about. i have literally made my tumblr a reality? i moved to a city! i fell in love, a few times! i went to indie rock shows and met cuties at poetry readings and walked alone through snowy streets. i own succulents. i’ve seen the sunrise though the windows of my own apartment and goddamn... i own my very own car - a car in which i hold my boyfriend’s left hand with my right hand while i drive. i’ve lived on farms and hiked through forests and swam in hidden streams. the romance that i dared to imagine in my high school days are now the memories of my college days. and now, (post college!) i find myself craving new inspiration.... what draws me in? what looks.... cool ? what looks romantic? who do i want to be now? where do i want to go next? tumblr was my original moodboard! and damn i’m proud that i fulfilled it..... but now! what?
that’s kinda why i logged in today... and you?
