All Vice. No Virtue.

@supernovaellis

Nova Ellis. 25. Bassist. What else do you need to know?

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He took her hand and helped her up for the second time that night, making sure the girl wouldn’t stumble. “Coffee, huh? I do appreciate a good cup of coffee.” He gestured for her to walk a little bit ahead of him. “There’s a good place down the corner.”

"All coffee places are good places," Nova muttered, eyes wandering. "Your hand is warm," she told the man, rubbing the top of his knuckles. His hand was soft for a guy, not bony and calloused like hers and all her friends. "What do you do?" she asked.

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"True, but I don’t think that makes it any better," he said, raising an eyebrow. "Somewhere warmer, I don’t know. I was only taking a walk, to be honest. Hot chocolate? Are you the type? What do you feel like doing?"

"Coffee," she muttered, holding her hand up so he would help her stand. "I'm...the coffee type. Hot chocolate is just chocolate milk from the microwave if it's not the good kind. I like...coffee."

"You sure? There are more comfortable places to lean on," he said. "Warmer too. It’s a cold night." He looked around for a moment, noticing the lack of general traffic around the area. "Why are you out here anyway?"

"It's not that cold," she remarked. "There's been colder." She sighed, and she was reminded of the way the cold winter air burned in her lungs so she looked up. "Where do you wanna go?"

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You do realize I didn’t actually want to hear it again?

No shit.

Are you one of those people who only wear black?

I'm just one of those people who doesn't wear royal blue. But so what if I did only wear black?

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Wow, that joke was hilarious. Do tell it again.

If it's all the same to you, I'd rather not.

You know, that’d look better in royal blue.

I think I don't really wear royal blue, but thanks.

He stopped walking when she slid down the wall, not sure whether to help her up again or to just stay there. “Are you alright? I mean, is that comfortable?” he asked. “Funny, why not June then? There are many songs with months in their titles though.”

"Not that my mom would have liked. But I'm fine," she said, her voice in that faraway place again. Her mother had always called it "that goddamn castle in the clouds," and Nova hadn't found out what it meant until she was 15. By then, it was too late to ask her mother anything except "Where are the cigarettes."

Itch || Open

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His brow furrowed as she scratched her neck. She could hurt herself like that— he’d seen addicts who’d claw at their skin in a vain attempt to relieve the buildup of pressure, anything to make the need go away.

This wasn’t just his job. She— she could die if he left her alone. Tonight, the next… whether it was from drugs, or god knows what else.

He caught up to her and turned her towards him in a gentle but firm grip. He needed to make her understand.

"Please," he said, looking into her eyes, trying to make her see reason, "let me help you."

Nova cast her eyes downward. "I don't need your help," she muttered.

It wouldn't help.

In a few years she'd be back here. Desperate, dying, needing.

She may as well just live those years as she knew.

She knew how to be a junkie; she was damn good at it.

She was bad at being clean.

"Look, man, I get it, okay? You think you can do something about this. You can't, okay? You can't. It doesn't work like that. This is who I fucking am. Who I always fucking was, right from the beginning. Some people are destined for greatness. I'm destined for the gutter."

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Itch || Nova & Lexy

Lexy started to walk backwards. “Just remember that I tried to help when your life goes down the toilet.”

Nova spat on Lexy's shoes and shook her head. "Fuck you," she said, glaring at her. "Fuck you and fuck your fucking savior act. And while you're at it, fuck yourself."

I Hate Hospitals | Nova and Adam

Snorting at her previous comment, Adam just shook his head. “People in Russia do it all the time,” he told her as Nova began to strum at the guitar. His face contorted into that of distaste, the subconscious tingling at the missing nose ring, and hands going out to stop the brunette from playing. “See, playing M and B put the guitar out of tune,” Adam informed her before taking the guitar away from her without her permission.

His hands didn’t hold the guitar with the usual strength and assurance they usually did, but it felt comfortable nevertheless. Adam didn’t need a pick, using one of his nails to pick the notes. The E chord was slacked slightly, A and D were good, but it was B and E that were completely out of tune with their thin strings. “This one was in the living room, huh?” he asked her, double tasking as he brought the chords to order.

"Well, I don't. And how do you know more about this shit than me?" She laughed and ran a hand through her hand. It came away greasy, but she ignored it. "I didn't do anything to it. I was already like that. And anyway, maybe it's not even out of tune. Maybe it's just different and it likes that about itsel--Hey!" she protested as Adam took it.

She watched, a little mesmerized as he tuned it. He knew it so well, making tiny adjustments that didn't sound any different to Nova. She didn't have an ear like that. She could tell when her bass was terribly out of tune, but mostly she left it alone, and she was never that skillful and deliberate. Good enough was good enough for Nova, but Adam seemed to seek out perfection.

Reconnect || Abel and Nova

Abel smiled and thanked her for her weird simile, quickly asking the boy behind the counter to stock a few things while he sat and talked to his friend. He took Nova over to one of the unoccupied tables and sat opposite her, folding his arms over the table. “Still, I bet you’ll be remembered very well.”

He shook his head, explaining that he got the beans from a local roasting plant that sells to large coffee chains. He had to pay near ten thousand dollars for them to roast a special blend of beans for his cafe. He shrugged and sighed, picking at one of his fingernails and trying to avoid the topic. “It’s not that. She uh… We were gonna get married. We had Maisie before we even started planning and a few weeks later, she just up and left. She came back though, a few months ago and took her back. I don’t see her much, my daughter, but she knows that I didn’t leave her.”

Nova shrugged. "Maybe. Not like Adam, though. I mean, we're good, but we're no Beatles. People won't really care much about me 50 years after I die." She sat down and kicked the legs back, leaning against the wall.

"That's fucked up." Nova said, a little too loud. "Sorry," she muttered, "but that's not right, man. You can't just...leave a kid and then come back for her. You leave, and you stay out like the piece of shit you are. Goddamn. Fucking people, I swear." She shook her head and set the chair down. "What the hell is wrong with her? She'd better have a damn good reason for leaving like that. And coming back? The balls on her."

Itch || Nova & Lexy

"I’m not pretending. You’re the one who came crying to me about how you didn’t want to be like her. Yet, here you are doing the exact same thing she did. You have everything going for you, why would you want to throw that all away for drugs?"

"Go away, Lexy," Nova demanded. She released Lexy's wrist with a shove and a grunt. All she wanted was some fucking smack, but goddamn Lexy... God, Nova hated Lexy. Her fucking perfect life and pretty face. The way she got to be so naive for so long. "Get the fuck away from me."

Itch || Nova & Lexy

"Wow, so you can tell me all about my life, but I can’t say anything about yours. That just makes a ton of sense. Nova, stop. Why can’t you just tell me? Do you want to end up like your mom?"

Nova gripped lexy's wrist and pulled her close. "Listen up, princess," she spat. "Don't you ever pretend to know half of what I've been through. Who I am. Who my godforsaken mother was. Becuase we're not you. We didn't get luck and pretty blonde hair handed to us. We built and earned everything we've had. And it hasn't always been silver spoons and clean needles. So fuck off already."

Itch || Nova & Lexy

"We’re not dating. He just does the same thing you’re doing right now. Changing the conversation so you don’t have to answer a stupid question. And I’m not a slut."

Nova scoffed. "Yeah, Lexy. And I'm a girl scout. This is a fun game. Now, I'm Napolean's reanimated corpse. You win. Bye."

Itch || Nova & Lexy

"It has nothing to with him. Why is it so hard to just answer the stupid question?"

"Then why'd you bring him up? Ugh, please don't tell me you're dating. God, Lexy, you're like a demon slut from hell."

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