forever chasing after time –– @sureivy - Tumblr Blog

#( musings ! )#today (may 2) is last day i will be absent. today (may 2) is also the day i decided 2 make ivy's bday.#happy bday from est luv that for her! feel this is a great post 2 celebrate it!#(also. if u liked my call the other day. and i did not message u. i.... did not message anyone bc #im also a fictional adult and therefore. it is nothing personal i am still just. ''im just.'' it's my natural state. we hate 2 see it!)

hello my friends ! i’ll be taking a short semi-hiatus until the 2nd while i try to... figure out how the hell to write prose on ivy again. even tho i am... rly slow at replying to ims and hate that both for and about me, i do think having ! some more solid connects ! wld aid in this endeavor ! so if u wld like 2 plot/if we already have a plot and u’d like to discuss it further, like this and i’ll hit u up !

#springhillcall #the amount of gd times i've posted these but have been SO BAD AT IMs i am. so sorry. i am just.#that is how i describe myself: ''i am just.''#ahfodsljn

msg to ChickenSnatcher69

BadBear69: u are so kind, chicken, honestly. you are the best

BadBear69: now that i'm thinking about it... he promised some time ago that if i hurt one of his friends again he'd call the cops on me... im pretty sure he was the one that made the call, then

BadBear69: i dont blame him tho, he did the right thing. i was completely out of it... and it sucks that he has seen me like that

BadBear69: well.. for now, yes.. i do have some weird spasms tho? and i feel kinda lazy, idk, sorrowful. i guess the sedative is strong

BadBear69: and im happy u dont hate me

BadBear69: and u, chicken, have u been behaving while i was not here to lecture u?

ChickenSnatcher69: "again"?

ChickenSnatcher69: what's been happening?

ChickenSnatcher69: i think the best call for ur own health right now would be to kinda distance urself from him

ChickenSnatcher69: it sounds like he's bringing out the worst in u

ChickenSnatcher69: i could never hate u!!

ChickenSnatcher69: behaving well. been a lil too downcast to go out and do anything which has at least been keeping me in check.

ChickenSnatcher69: watched 'cats' the other night.

ChickenSnatcher69: two paws up.

#( badbear69 )#( badbear -- 5 )#''two paws up.'' - ivy calder. 2020 CE.

msg to ChickenSnatcher69

BadBear69: :( im very sorry that i used all that against ya

BadBear69: thanks for worrying about me, even tho im not worth it

BadBear69: i got drunk, persued my ex, got arrested. my mother bailed me out. my landlady kinda grounded me. my shrink changed my meds and im even taking a sedative

BaeBear69: im feeling better and worse at the same time

BadBear69: and u??? have u been ok these days?

ChickenSnatcher69: you are worth it and i'm rly rly happy ur alright :(

ChickenSnatcher69: did ur ex have to do with u getting arrested?

ChickenSnatcher69: good!!!

ChickenSnatcher69: -about switching meds

ChickenSnatcher69: i'm gonna guess side effects r all going fine right now then?

ChickenSnatcher69: so happy to hear from u

#ivy: *homer simpsons vc* mmm sedatives #( badbear69 )#( badbear -- 5 )

msg to ChickenSnatcher69

BadBear69: hi, sorry that i ghosted the other day.... i was kinda locked up

BadBear69: and im sorry about everything else too :(

BadBear69: about the mean things i said, i didnt mean any of them, you know that, right?

ChickenSnatcher69: holy fuck, i was so worried!! i'm just glad to know you're alive tbh

ChickenSnatcher69: i know you didn't (not fully). you were trying to push me away and that's the best way to do it - don't worry about it

ChickenSnatcher69: but what happened??

#( badbear69 )#( badbear69 -- 5 )

virginiatm‌:

@sureivy

“ hey. ” she’d been trailing her for weeks – well, more like… thirty seconds. but it had felt like weeks. from the cleaning aisle to the the frozen section. god, her heart was racing. slowly, she turned her head and lifted her sunglasses, gaze intense. “ look. ” she held up a bag, somewhat frozen meat inside. “ chicken. my favorite. ”

it took ivy a brief moment... a brief moment of contemplating why this woman with her sunglasses ( corey hart would approve ) was showcasing a bag of mostly frozen chicken to her. was she high ? was the woman high ? did this woman know something she didn’t know ? did she know danny devito ? and as all of this happened within the span of what must’ve been but a mere four seconds, it finally donned on her ! “ virginia ? ” ...she had to ask just to be sure. it also took ivy... a hot second to put together why virginia was choosing to bring up poultry as the ice breaker... ah yes, because she, ivy, steals chickens! yes, upon putting two and two together, she let out a slight laugh and replied, “ y’know, if you ever want them fresh, there’s this guy in my building who keeps chickens – i can totally hook you up. ”

#( virginiatm )#( virginiatm -- 1 )#ALEXA PLAY ''SAME OLD LANG SYNE'' BY DAN FOGELBERG.#met my old lover in a grocery store :\ the snow was falling xmas eve :\ i stood behind her in the frozen foods :\#and i touched her on the sleeve :\ she didn't recognize my face at first :\ but then her eyes flew open wide :\

msg ✈️ hayden ✨✨

hayden: i think they should just get a new bed.

hayden: but... how exactly would you get it caught on fire, though???

hayden: did you watch cats? i heard it's pure catshit.

hayden: sadly, i wish he did. but he didn't. somehow, i'm saved though. everyone hated that shit.

Ivy: probably a series of unfortunate events that happened after thinking about flat stanley

Ivy: hypothetically, do u think there would be mattresses on ebay and/or craigslist because, hypothetically, real mattresses cost a lot for this hypothetical person?

Ivy: it's my favorite horror movie and it's FINALLY out for streaming!!

Ivy: tom hooper made a total mistake not contacting you.

Ivy: current bombalurina was still a show stealer though

Ivy: she and jennifer hudson were the only ones who were terrifying in a delightful way!

#( hcydensxndrs )#( hcydensxndrs -- 4 )#ivy gives 'cats' two paws up!

bob-belcher

MANIAC (2018) “Option C” | S01E10

leedalhwan

@sureivy

#( musings ! )#( ft. lee )#i luv how it is pretty clear who is who here ahlfdkjns

msg ✈️ flossie 😬

Flossie: Wait, what cats version did you watch?! The new one?!

Flossie: Because bless ur soul.

Flossie: .....the law of gravity 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣

Flossie: We'd have to lock good ol' Macavity up with good measure!

Ivy: yeah!! my favorite horror movie!! it finally came out for streaming!!

Ivy: he cheats at cards, flossie. he cheats at cards.

Ivy: would you guys hannibal lecter a cat?

Ivy: bc that seems like the best form of making sure he doesn't escape (besides the death sentence) but........

Ivy: it's a cat.

#( flossiehawkinss )#( flossiehawkinss -- 2 )#LET ME JUST SAY. i. literally died.#on lyricsgenius. there was a highlighted annotation for ''he's broken every human law''#so i obvs clicked on it #and it just said ''can someone plz explain this i'm terrified'' and had two thumbs up.

msg ✈️ werewolves of london

Wolfey: Have I ever?

Wolfey: Isn’t that sorta what a musician does?

Wolfey: Why the sudden query?

Ivy: no no no

Ivy: the game where you take some famous song and literally play it like a game of madlibs

Ivy: like you j choose some words to sub out.. like madlibs.

Ivy: idk j thought it could be interesting!

#( dillonwolfe )#( dillonwolfe -- 1 )#i j looked up the lyrics and apparently they wrote it in 15mins while watching one of those b horror movies #officially an even more iconic song than originally thought.

leedalhwan‌:

Well… if he didn’t know that he had failed on getting money to buy drugs, he’d say she was high. Like, dog lawyer? Honestly? Lee was surprised to hear a chuckled leaving his lips, as Ivy’s silly comment lightened his mood a little bit. Weren’t they both messed up? Addiction made this to people. To the best of people. And Lee could see, or, well, imagine, how good Ivy would be without all of this bullshit, all of the struggles the drugs brought to a person’s life. “Well, maybe that thing is you” he suggested and he placed the jacket on the floor before approaching the girl; he didn’t know why exactly he was doing that… but he was. The last time he touched her had been to hurt her and he just couldn’t get that out of his mind. The image of her, bruised, on the floor, her tears. She had been so broken at the time because of her own struggles and he could still see something of that even in those sober eyes of hers. “You are worth it, you know? You should give you this chance. I know it doesn’t sound true, though..” he said. He so knew how it was— they didn’t feel worthy of anything. Maybe that’s why he was placing all his hopes in Moonie… The moment next, Lee had his arms around her, in an awkward hug, he softly caressed her hair. Maybe he was doing this because she needed this.. or maybe he was the one in need. He just hoped he wouldn’t be pushed away.

ivy was fairly certain the last time she’d been to therapy had been when she was somewhere around the mere age of ten, but she was also fairly certain that the ‘maybe that thing is you’ sentiment was an approach often used by therapists. “ i think you just earned, like, a psych doctorate with that one. ” it wasn’t as though she didn’t wish it was true, but who exactly was she if she hadn’t some purpose ? if she hadn’t that thing worth losing ? it was the game they played, right ? the game the world played – find that thing to lose. and try not to lose it. how caught up she was, she hadn’t much registered lee nearing her – if she had, perhaps she would’ve backed away... or perhaps she would’ve continued doing what she was doing: standing still, waiting to see the outcome. and the outcome... was unexpected. unexpected, a bit unnatural, but carried with it an air of comfort. she... did her best to reciprocate the hug, although her end was rather awkward, as well – pretty loose. still within this... something-like-a-hug, she stated, “ we’re really bad at this. ”

#addiction tw #drugs tw #( leedalhwan )#( leedalhwan -- 3 )#when i think of chicken/bear v ivy/lee. i think of the duality of man.