dear reader

sushi | they/them | brazilian | swiftie & selenator

[sushistories]

toc toc, tem alguém aí?

[sushistories]

i'll never find the words to pen a poem for you,

each attempt falls short, unable to capture your essence,

lost like whispers fading into an endless echo.

the depth of my love defies simple articulation,

beyond the reach of mere lines and verses,

no language can fully convey the breadth of my emotions.

i

i often envision a cozy home in the heart of nebraska,

yet the exact location remains a secret between us,

a silent pact, unspoken but understood.

i know you'd brave any storm on my behalf,

but the mere thought of witnessing your pain

stabs deeper than any physical wound.

your presence weaves through every verse i compose,

infusing my words with the essence of your being.

i pour my soul onto the blank pages,

yet find myself stumbling through memories and musings,

navigating a labyrinth of emotions in search of clarity.

but perfection in expression pales in comparison

to the memory of your smile, the music of your laughter,

resonating in the quiet spaces between my words.

in your authenticity, i find solace and strength,

for that, i'm eternally grateful.

forgive me, my love, for lacking the courage

to encapsulate our bond in poetic lines.

know that my love transcends the limits of language,

though my pen may falter, my heart sings your praises

in the silent rhythm of our shared journey.

[loveridden1999]

people peoPLE PEOPLE listen even if this site is functioning on skeleton staff i am staying here. i did not survive those horrendous updates and features to leave my mutuals. MAY THE STRONGEST SOLIDERS SURVIVE

[palipunk-deactivated20260328]

Palestine Masterlist 

(this is a list of informative sources, materials, stores, charities, books, documentaries etc to better help Palestinians, learn about the Palestinian struggle, and educate yourselves on us as a people. This list will be added on to with more links as they are recommended to me.)

Introduction to Palestine: 

Decolonize Palestine:

Palestine 101

Rainbow washing 

Frequently asked questions 

Myths 

Al-Nakba (documentary)

The Question of Palestine (book)

The Hundred Years’ War on Palestine: A History of Settler Colonialism and Resistance, 1917-2017 (book)

The Ethnic Cleansing of Palestine (book)

IMEU (Institute for Middle East Understanding):

Quick Facts - The Palestinian Nakba 

The Nakba and Palestinian Refugees 

The Gaza Strip

The Nakba did not start or end in 1948 (Article) 

Nakba Day: What happened in Palestine in 1948? (article)

Donations and charities: 

Al-Shabaka

Electronic Intifada 

Adalah Justice Project 

IMEU Fundraiser 

Medical Aid for Palestinians 

Palestine Children’s Relief Fund 

Addameer

Muslim Aid

Palestine Red Crescent

Gaza Mutual Aid Patreon

Books:

A New Critical Approach to the History of Palestine

The Idea of Israel: A History of Power and Knowledge

Hidden Histories: Palestine and the Eastern Mediterranean

The Balfour Declaration: Empire, the Mandate and Resistance in Palestine

Queer Palestine and the Empire of Critique

From Haven to Conquest: Readings in Zionism and the Palestine Problem until 1948

Captive Revolution - Palestinian Women’s Anti-Colonial Struggle within the Israeli Prison System

Palestine: A Four Thousand Year History

Except for Palestine: The Limits of Progressive Politics

Before Their Diaspora: A Photographic History of The Palestinians 1876-1948

The Battle for Justice in Palestine Paperback

Uncivil Rites: Palestine and the Limits of Academic Freedom

Palestine Rising: How I survived the 1948 Deir Yasin Massacre

The Transformation of Palestine: Essays on the Origin and Development of the Arab-Israeli Conflict

A Land Without a People: Israel, Transfer, and the Palestinians 1949-1996

The Iron Cage: The Story of the Palestinian Struggle for Statehood

A History of Modern Palestine: One Land, Two Peoples

Where Now for Palestine?: The Demise of the Two-State Solution

Terrorist Assemblages - Homonationalism in Queer Times

Militarization and Violence against Women in Conflict Zones in the Middle East

The one-state solution: A breakthrough for peace in the Israeli-Palestinian deadlock

The Persistence of the Palestinian Question: Essays on Zionism and the Palestinians

Fateful Triangle: The United States, Israel and the Palestinians

The False Prophets of Peace: Liberal Zionism and the Struggle for Palestine

Ten myths about Israel

Blaming the Victims: Spurious Scholarship and the Palestinian Question

Image and Reality of the Israel-Palestine Conflict, New and Revised Edition

Israel and its Palestinian Citizens - Ethnic Privileges in the Jewish State

Palestinians in Israel: Segregation, Discrimination and Democracy

Palestinian Culture:

Mountain against the Sea: Essays on Palestinian Society and Culture

Palestinian Costume

Traditional Palestinian Costume: Origins and Evolution

Tatreez & Tea: Embroidery and Storytelling in the Palestinian Diaspora

Embroidering Identities: A Century of Palestinian Clothing (Oriental Institute Museum Publications)

The Palestinian Table (Authentic Palestinan Recipes)

Falastin: A Cookbook

Palestine on a Plate: Memories from My Mother’s Kitchen

Palestinian Social Customs and Traditions

Palestinian Culture before the Nakba

Tatreez & Tea (Website)

The Traditional Clothing of Palestine

The Palestinian thobe: A creative expression of national identity

Embroidering Identities:A Century of Palestinian Clothing

Palestine Traditional Costumes

Palestine Family 

Palestinian Costume

Encyclopedia of World Dress and Fashion, v5: Volume 5: Central and Southwest Asia

Tent Work in Palestine: A Record of Discovery and Adventure

Documentaries, Films, and Video Essays:

Jenin, Jenin

Born in Gaza

GAZA 

Wedding in Galilee 

Omar

5 Broken Cameras

OBAIDA

Indigeneity, Indigenous Liberation, and Settler Colonialism (not entirely about Palestine, but an important watch for indigenous struggles worldwide - including Palestine)

Edward Said - Reflections on Exile and Other Essays

Palestine Remix: 

AL NAKBA

Gaza Lives On

Gaza we are coming

Lost cities of Palestine 

Stories from the Intifada 

Last Shepards of the Valley

Organizations and News 

Boycott Divest and Sanction (BDS)

Defense for Children in Palestine

Palestine Legal 

United Nations relief and works for Palestinian refugees in the Middle East (UNRWA)

National Students for Justice in Palestine (SJP)

Times of Gaza

Middle East Eye

Middle East Monitor

Mohammed El-Kurd

Muna El-Kurd 

Electronic Intifada 

Dr. Yara Hawari 

Mariam Barghouti

Omar Ghraieb

Steven Salaita

Noura Erakat

The Palestinian Museum N.G.

Palestine Museum US

Artists for Palestine UK 

Muhammad Smiry

Eye on Palestine

[anxietyproblem]

[sushistories]

Do you love me? I mean, do you truly love me? Or are you just waiting for chaos to unfold, for desperation to creep in, so you can extend a helping hand?

I never anticipated your sudden appearance from the shadows. I never expected grand gestures or elaborate displays from you. I linger by the door, a fool yearning for your return, much like a child waiting for their mother to return from work.

And when you do arrive—oh, when you arrive—it's the most bittersweet, déjà vu-laden experience I can fathom. You don't step into my abode to admire my accomplishments. The photos adorning the walls, or the medals on proud display—no!

You come in, and you make yourself at home.

Even though you know I haven't sorted all your boxes into your room, that you haven't fully moved in to revel in this newfound freedom. You just do it. You enter as if you're a drunken father returning home at 4 AM. I listen to your wild tales, and who am I to question them? And even if I did, what reason would I have?

I retreat to my small, senseless room and listen to your boisterousness, as you invite your friends into my sanctuary, and me, oh silly me, I remain silent. I wouldn't dare challenge your methods.

Do you care enough to believe that what I, and only I, feel is real? Or do you turn around and think I'm deranged, that what courses through me is nothing but paranoia?

No.

I've heard it countless times—I haven't lost my sanity, nor have I fabricated paranoia. I'm simply experiencing what's rightfully mine: my emotions. And the next time you return from those places where you've found someone to love, and you wait for your bed to be prepared, do it yourself.

This house was once our home, yet it suddenly transforms into mine when you step inside. But as you take just two steps beyond the welcome mat, it's yours—your sanctuary—not the place you visit to see me, to check if I'm okay.

This house is merely a brief stopover.

I possess nothing; nothing here truly belongs to me or catches your eye.These are just spaces that gleam just enough for you to consider, to contemplate whether you should hang your troubles on these walls.

Have you painted them the shade you desire? Can you perceive me as someone who shares a life with you? Or am I simply a tenant, hearing you vent about sink problems, While I contemplated revealing the massive leak in my bathroom?

[cametotheshowinsd]

And some things you just can’t speak about | ​epiphany · taylor swift

[shyghosties]

giving your dash a little clean

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[sushistories]

[sushistories]

This is just a draft, an outburst if you dare say it, if you want to read it, of course. I had a writer's block recently. So... there you go! (PSA.: sorry for not formatting the text I just didn't want to leave you guys without something to read ♡ )

In the realm of words, there's an emptiness, a hollowness that speaks volumes. All I wish for is one thing – an apology. For those years when I wove beliefs into threads, tending to emotions in a friendship that never truly existed. You faded right before my eyes, making me believe it was my undoing. The punishment feels like a heavy load, the weight of past actions bearing down. It's funny how Taylor nailed it – turning 21 is meant to be electrifying. But here I am, harboring a growing distaste for the letter G, my self-assuredness shrinking with every stride towards forging connections. It's like everything is destined to end up like us.

I resent you for the scars that linger. Yet, words elude me, courage faltering, the knot in my stomach tightening at the thought of confronting you. I'm scarred, and your retribution? It's an eternity spent with your own reflection.

I'd never enact what you did, never don that icy indifference. My fabric is different, woven with compassion and care. I navigate friendships with eyes wide open now, the aftermath of your words lingering like a storm that nearly rewired my thoughts.

But let's get something straight – I'm not recreating your script. I won't be that person, not after witnessing the pain you dished out. Lessons learned, I approach interactions draped in empathy and understanding, not the dismissive chill you carried. Your maze of words altered me, but not to mimic your indifference.

[lone-nyctophile]

My soul in crushing under the weight of the unrequited love I feel for hope.

[flowerytale]

Helen Oyeyemi, from White is for Witching

[cellphonehippie]

[sushistories]

My 4ever ♡

She's my sister, and there's nothing you can say about her. Argue with your mom.

[happyheidi]

[sushistories]

I would do everything in my power to see you happy, but I can't give you everything. So seeing you happy with what you conquer is a gift for me.

a lovely conversation between me and belle

[arrchhive]

like or reblog. enjoy babies.