Slowly ending the denial and self hatred.

they/them. My gender journal. On T since Sept 1 2020 icon made using @sangled's picrew

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So I haven't posted on this blog in a while but I wanted to say that as of September 1, 2021, I am officially 1 year on T I'm feeling great about myself and even have some facial hair. 1 year. Wow.

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So I got some trans tape to try binding with and I've got the test patch on and everything is good so far

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It was a little difficult to apply but I managed to get it eventually. (I may have almost burst into tears at one point because I couldn't get it to work)

But I got it and I put on a low cut shirt to test it and it felt great.

There does seem to be a learning curve though

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So I got some trans tape to try binding with and I've got the test patch on and everything is good so far

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The mirror is slowly becoming my friend

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I no longer look super feminine and I look more and more like a guy with long hair.

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The mirror is slowly becoming my friend

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Found this on a subreddit and I nearly fucking choked.

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Reblog to yeet away your followers’ dysphoria.

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Nonbinary people with long hair are so valid and so amazing

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Shoutout to NBs who struggle with their attraction to girls

Who feel predatory and invasive, who worry that they are objectifying girls with an othering gaze

Who are struggling with fear that their love will be perceived as “gay” and unwelcome

Or who are struggling with fear that their love will be perceived as “straight” and unwelcome

Shoutout to the NBs that positivity for wlw can’t reach because they are not women and/or their love is not “same gender”, but who do not have the privilege to be validated by heteronormativity either, because their love for girls is not straight.

Shoutout to NBs who love girls!! I love you so much, and it’s okay that you’re afraid. Your love of girls is pure and wholesome and wonderful and deserving of celebration.

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Weird thing taking hormones has done to me; my hair is straight now. I don't have curly hair anymore. What am I supposed to do with my hair care products?

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Random Person: “What are you?”

Me, trying to figure out if this is because:

a. I’m biracial and have an ambiguous racial appearance

b. I’m an androgynous-presenting nonbinary person

c. I’m just such a mess

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So uh.. my grandma just told me that she knew I was trans because my dad (who I never came out to) told her on his deathbed. And after a very confusing and contradictory conversation she told me she still loves me and would no matter what and I'm kinda emotional right now

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T has given me hair on my legs which is never something I've had before. I'm not upset but I'm not ecstatic. It's more like "huh. That's interesting"

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Would like top surgery please

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You know what? I'm going to have my perfect body, my own body, my nonbinary body if it's the last thing I do.

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Oh god I accidentally locked my sharps container and it's empty what do I do

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I got it thank god

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Oh god I accidentally locked my sharps container and it's empty what do I do

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I've been on T gel for a few months now and I just started injections. I feel all the excitement I did when I first started but none of the fear