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I’m in a really weird place where I keep fucking everything up and it’s like I’m watching myself do it from a distance and can’t do anything to stop myself when I’m fucking fully aware of what I’m doing

I’m so fucking close to offing myself, it’s getting really bad. Not wanting to hurt the people I care about is only going to keep me alive until it doesn’t

I really don’t know what to do anymore

Step whatever

I’m gonna have to make amends with my ex at some point though I have no intention of ever being friends with her again.

My drinking definitely kept me jaded and dishonest. I stayed in a relationship that I knew was doomed because it was easier than ending it. Unfortunately I stayed that path until our lives were completely unmanageable.

I’m sorry I was loaded on a daily basis. I wasn’t available emotionally and you got the raw end of that deal so to speak. I should have been more honest with you about what I wanted from a relationship and the kind of person I wanted to date.

Honestly I wish you the best and I hope you understand why I want nothing to do with you.

Merry Christmas

My girlfriend got upset with me last night cause first thing I do when I walk in to the apartment after fingering her in the car is wash my hands. Tries telling me I made her feel like she has a dirty coochie, but my hand still smells like vagina so...