and then it suddenly hits you,
but some men will always look at you,
in that blood-thirsty, dangerous filthy way.
it doesn’t matter how young you may be,
they really don’t care do they?
it really messes your mind up,
in ways they will never ever realise.
it’ll feel impossible to feel love,
at the end of the day, you just want to be someones little dove.
he looks at you as if you are a meal.
he only sees you as a deal,
but you wont be able to realise that.
you will be so far and deep into the concept of love,
you wont be able to recognise the : manipulation, as you are deep into love,
you don’t want to be abandoned by him.
love-bombing, the nicknames he uses to make you feel special,
for the first time, you feel loved.
maybe even gaslighting tactics he may use,
day by day, he wonder what new lie he shall choose.
its like your body is a must,
he probably doesn’t know your name,
but he will probably know your exact bra and lingerie size,
he doesn’t want you to cut ties,
so he will carry on with his petty little lies.
its not your fault though, is it?
none didn’t notice the sleepless nights as you was talking to guys twice your age,
you feel like your trapped in a cage.
you went against your religious beliefs,
your thoughts and loneliness consumed you,
you wonder if God will punish you,
you are terrified of the thought,
whilst you are crying out on your bedroom floor,
the new girl he is having sex with is asking for more.
you’ll have this agonising pit in your stomach,
this heavy feeling lingering in your chest,
you realised you are a complete mess,
and you start to cry even more,
harder than any guy can ever be,
did you really forget, oh dear reader?
he is the only person who makes you feel loved despite the sexual harassment, the grooming etc.
but does he really love you?
or does he just crave and love your little, bruised, scarred body?
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