hai! :33 You can call me baba or caide, i really dont mind anything. I looove petnames call me any youd think fit me! I like sweetie and sweetheart the most :3 .. anything with sweet in it.
-15 and 19+ dni !!!! .. also dni if you know me outside of here...... ok?
im shit at talking to people and hate being social.. im trying my best.. This is my first tumblr account so ill probably be dumb when it comes to etiquette and shit!! teach me!!
this is gonna be just me talking about transitioning stuff forcemasc and some pervy type blog :P
I looove roleplaying-specifically oc rps, rdr2, forests, cats, drug stuff(we luv u metta), forcemasc, doe network stuff and other random stuff if anyone wants to rp with ocs chat me i might be bad at responding but its up for grabs :P
im not medically transitioned buttttt im gonna look into it SOON and maybe hopefully be able to start it before im 18 wooeee
pronouns page :3
more interests below :P
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more interests!
movies/shows: the passenger, midsommar, brokeback mountain(obviously), ponies(2026 SPY show..), fellow travelers, Jackal, BACKROOMS, iron lung, arcane, 1917, secretary, shameless, ANYTHING from wes Anderson(though I havent gotten to watch much) Bobs burgers, bones and all, annddd ill think of more later..
Music: And One, Glass Animals, Depeche mode, Tyler the Creator, 60s/70s, 80s-90s rock, Jack stauber micropop, aanndd im getting into icp :P
video games: Rdr2, the mortuary assistant, fuck man idk.. I never have motivation to play anhthing.. whatever markiplier plays yo.. ftf, phasmophobia
other: I like religion. Specifically Christian sects. Im not a believer, im agnostic, but damn it really intrigues me!! Forensic stuff, already stated doe network and drugs heheee... Not in a im a fucking psycho druggie nono. Yeah alright
DISCLAIMER im gonna post pervy shit relating to this soo leave me alone if youre not real close in age to me - degration, forcemasc, praise, t4t, a little bit of cnc, slaps & bites, age differences(older hehee), hurting me(preferably with a blade)
might post photos, but only faceless. mostly textposting!!
oh my god I just need a bridge piercing pls thays all im asking for bro pls plslslsls snakebites too maybe UAYGGH and a septum GHHH.. ..then two nostrils? another bridge piercing..? and another on my other eyebrow?
forcemasc but its a tboy forcing you to work out and go to the gym since you were too lazy before,, Bulks you up and makes you food to keep you energized for your next hard workout. Maybe you didn't even know how to make a workout routine before this, so he builds one for you. You notice its making you have a more masculine look, he says its better this way. When you want to stop halfway through a hard workout, he motivates you to keep going and promises to reward you with a beer after. Or something manly.
aw what’s wrong? you can’t handle my boot there? c’mon, it’s not like it hurts. oh, you’re just sensitive? baby, toughen up. you’re a big man, you can take it.
I CAN'T WAIT TO MEDICALLY TRANSITION IM GOING INSANE
i want to medically transition so that i can have someone that is obsessed with every little change. someone who watches my dick grow and hair sprout up all over, someone who jerks off to the sound of my voice dropping.
the day my top surgery gets scheduled is the best day of their life. they just can't wait to grope my newly masculine chest and run their thumbs over my scars to make me shudder and grab their hips
maybe they even convince me to get a phalloplasty... i'm not super interested in it right now but god the way they talk about it, the way they hype it up and they keep showing me reviews on surgeons and they even picked one out for me and said they'd pay for it all themself, all i have to do is be their good boy
This is mostly a self-indulgent post, but recently I've been called a boy and masculine terms a lot.
It's weird. Wonderful, but weird. Strangers, who barely know me, calling me "he" and "young man" without a second thought while my own friends call me a girl and a twink.
I don't blame my friends. I'm in hiding. 90% of them think I'm cis, just underdeveloped since I was born prematurely. It still hurts when the ones who know comment on it too, though.
But it makes me wonder, if strangers can accept who I am easily, then why do I fear the people I love? I should be able to tell them, shouldn't I?
I even had a guy I had to work with in some group project I'd never even spoken to before tell me quietly that he knew I was trans when someone said something nasty, but it didn't matter to him because as long as I was confident that I was a guy, that was good enough to him.
So, if some random cis teenage boy can accept me without even knowing me, why do I fear telling the friends I've grown to love so dearly? Why do I worry they'll see me differently?
