ok actually some of the asks are getting intense and annoying. i'm gonna start fresh, pls like this if you want the new url. just annoyed with the amount of shit i receive like i don't really care what they say, i just hate the amount of it. GROW UPPP.
keep trying to hide, it's not going to be hard to find you. who the fuck else is going to be running some shitty "punk inspired" blog with hockey players who can see ghosts. bffr bestie
ok actually some of the asks are getting intense and annoying. i'm gonna start fresh, pls like this if you want the new url. just annoyed with the amount of shit i receive like i don't really care what they say, i just hate the amount of it. GROW UPPP.
how tf do you boop people. i come back on this dash after DIYing rehab for like a week and now we are booping people. did we bring back facebook poking.
hi hii i love you all. just wanted to drop an activity/life update on the dash since ive been almost radio silent. by no means do you have to read all of it, but just know i might not be online for a bit until i get my shit together! if inactivity bothers u at all, feel free to hardblock me if you so desire. tw for drug abuse, substance abuse, self harm.
ive struggled with substance abuse problems for a big part of my life, almost ALWAYS exacerbated by anxiety and my chronic stomach problems. i was clean from painkillers for almost 8 months (give or take) and i relapsed this week. i talked with my partner about it and weve already discussed plans of action, but so far, ive been good for the past 4 days so thats a winnnn.
i can already feel a MASSIVE difference in my body since. i've been trying my best to keep myself healthy these past couple of days, and at the least feel like a living person, and its really fucking difficult. i dont have a lot going on for me rn, so theres not much i can do to distract myself. i did hang out with one of my long time besties last night and had a blast, so that was really really awesome.
i have a support system, i'm safe, and i know from here its back to the uphill battle. it can feel really really bleak, and its honestly been incredibly embarrassing to even acknowledge a relapse or that i had a problem in the first place. but im really grateful that i'm truly in a place and surrounded by people who care for me and want to see me get better.
if ive been super silent lately, this is why. i try to tend to me relationships the best i can, because i do care for them truly, and i love chatting with my tumblr besties. ive just been exhausted and havent had the capacity to even say "heyyy im going thru it im going dark for a bit." but please know im not ghosting you or anything, i just havent had the brain power to say whats going on.
i will be here though! soon! when i feel better and capable of doing so! i wont lie, i LOVE writing here even though it kicks my ass sometimes. its become such an important creative outlet for me, and despite the Problems, i feel safe and happy in my community. i love writing with yall, i love the people with make up and making them kiss, i love reading and writing lore. its really important to be as a hobby, so you definitely will see me back.
i might pop on the dash every now and then to say hi and yell about stuff, i might draft sum shit up soon, but im going to be prioritizing getting my shit together for the time being.
hi guys, i am once again coming on the dash to say i'm in a bit of a financial bind and i'm taking pay-what-you-can/sliding scale commissions! full blogs packs (header, pinned, pfp, divider, and psd) are $10-20, carrds are $5-25 depending on coding/difficulty but highly negotiable, and psd's are just $5 a pop! here's my graphics examples, and my carrd examples are at @zer0carrds <3
ā iām sorry, iām sorry. ā Ā and this apology is a hair genuine, not just some appeasement behavior. miles, no matter how many braincells he lacks, know this isnāt cool. itās fucking uncouth. and, though the bar is incredibly low, miles is embarrassed. but Ā : Ā ā i probably look like a complete jackass right now. and youāre probably right. ā this is going to be an attempt on marcusā heartstrings. a sigh. posture deflates as he rips his vape, blowing smoke away from marcus. a sign of respect in frat boy language.
ā i just  ⦠ i donāt got a lot of money right now Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā ā nevermind the brand new cart on his pen. anyways. ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā but i legit think you could be the only person who could help me. you donāt seem easily freaked out. iām sure you could handle a demon or something. me ??? i canāt. and i got a legion of ghosts who wonāt let me sleep or anything until i fix this. do you know what itās like to be cockblocked by your own grandmotherās ghost ??? itās not fun man. itās not cool. can we just consider this an IOU, maybe set up a payment plan or something ??? ā
over a year ago,Ā i made this meme &Ā since then,Ā itās blown up.Ā so,Ā over a year laterĀ ā i thought i would make a new one.Ā so here it is,Ā after several requests &Ā a pile of brains,Ā THE PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP MEME 0.2
send me aĀ āæĀ and iāll fill out the template below.Ā boldĀ for things i couldĀ definitely see or want,Ā italicsĀ for things i could see or am unsure of and striked out for things i donāt want or cannot see.
FRIENDSHIP. Ā Ā childhood friendsĀ /Ā work buddies or coworkersĀ Ā /Ā family friendsĀ /Ā friends with benefitsĀ /Ā smoking buddiesĀ /Ā adventure buddiesĀ /Ā fake friendsĀ /Ā recently friendsĀ /Ā party buddiesĀ /Ā friendship of needĀ /Ā dying friendshipĀ /Ā circumstantial friendshipĀ /Ā partners in crimeĀ /Ā old friendshipĀ /Ā [Ā your museĀ ]Ā is the good influenceĀ /Ā [Ā your museĀ ]Ā is the bad influenceĀ /Ā [Ā my museĀ ]Ā is the good influenceĀ /Ā [Ā my museĀ ]Ā is the bad influenceĀ /Ā opposites attractĀ /Ā ride or dieĀ /Ā frenemiesĀ Ā /Ā roommates or flatmatesĀ /Ā penpalsĀ /Ā exes to friendsĀ /Ā enemies to friendsĀ Ā /Ā other
ROMANCE. Ā Ā childhood sweetheartsĀ /Ā [Ā your muse is minesĀ ]Ā childhood crushĀ /Ā [Ā my muse is yoursĀ ]Ā childhood crushĀ /Ā exesĀ /Ā exes to loversĀ /Ā forbidden loversĀ /Ā highschool sweetheartsĀ /Ā secret relationshipĀ /Ā opposites attractĀ /Ā long distanceĀ /Ā unrequited [Ā from your muses sideĀ ]Ā /Ā unrequited [Ā from my muses sideĀ ]Ā /Ā unrequited [Ā from both sidesĀ ]Ā /Ā skinny loveĀ /Ā friends to loversĀ /Ā enemies to loversĀ /Ā spurious relationshipĀ /Ā power coupleĀ Ā /Ā newly enteredĀ /Ā soulmates [Ā metaphorical ]Ā /Ā soulmatesĀ [Ā literal ]Ā /Ā awkwardĀ /Ā turning toxicĀ /Ā toxic loveĀ /Ā cheating [Ā on your museĀ ]Ā /Ā cheating [Ā with your museĀ ]Ā /Ā otherĀ
FAMILIAL. Ā Ā siblings [Ā half ]Ā /Ā siblings [Ā step ]Ā /Ā [Ā my museĀ ]Ā is an older sibling figure to yourĀ younger sibling figureĀ Ā /Ā [Ā my museĀ ]Ā is a younger sibling figure to yourĀ older sibling figure museĀ /Ā [Ā my museĀ ]Ā is a parental figure to yoursĀ /Ā [Ā my museĀ ]Ā is a child figure to your museĀ /Ā guardian figureĀ /Ā legal guardianĀ /Ā adoptive childĀ /Ā foster childĀ /Ā [Ā your museĀ ]Ā is taken under mines wingĀ /Ā [Ā my museĀ ]Ā is taken under yours wingĀ /Ā other
ANTAGONISTIC. Ā Ā dangerous to each otherĀ /Ā dangerous to othersĀ /Ā unpredictableĀ /Ā rivalsĀ /Ā pettyĀ /Ā developing into sexual or romantic tensionĀ /Ā based off family mattersĀ /Ā based of off circumstanceĀ /Ā based of professional mattersĀ /Ā based off misunderstanding or liesĀ /Ā conflict of ideologyĀ /Ā betrayalĀ /Ā hero - villain dynamicĀ /Ā enemiesĀ /Ā fight clubĀ /Ā friends turned enemiesĀ /Ā lovers turned enemiesĀ /Ā exes turned enemiesĀ /Ā otherĀ
JOSEY HAS NEVER BEEN ONE TO BACK DOWN FROM DANGER Ā : Ā oh, in fact, the little freak has always embraced it. a grin spreads across his face, he bounces at the knees and teeters on his heels. the door, it scorches his hands, and itās evident in the way the smell of burnt flesh starts to permeate the air. his flesh sizzles and pops like burning grease on a frying pan. ā alright. whatever we bring out, we have to put back. iām already on his bad side after that last stunt. i donāt want no pitchforks in my ass or anythinā like that. ā ok, itās starting to hurt. he winces, but he maintains his excited demeanor. the door rattles, and something claws at it. flames lick from under the sides. this basement is getting fucking hot. ā got it ? promise ??? ā
ā are you really going to make me ask? ā
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oh, poor logan. nervous, uncomfortable as always  ⦠ and he wonāt ever show it, but the way his big wet eyes get a fraction bigger and his eyebrows knit could be a tell. hair unkempt, hands clutching a glass of the cheapest whiskey money could barely by, he sighs Ā : Ā ā youāre not special, eva. ā the smell of blood and decomposition sits in his nostrils, and his nose crinkles when he takes his sip. like tasting the mess in the back of his throat. though peppermint stains under his nose, the scent of an unchecked corpse will always be strong. tired, nauseous, and wanting to get back to bed. ugh. logan cocks and eyebrow Ā : Ā ā so yes. iām going to make you ask  ⦠ and i donāt do favors. ā