steven

!| kin blog, not rp 🩵 | AuDHD adult |

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i am aang / other kin names, a past-life & psychological fictotype! i’m also an audhd, disabled adult whose age range is 20-25. minors dni / iwc through anon asks. tone tags are fine, i use them myself unless asked otherwise 🩵 no dbls please. do not separate me from my kin(s).

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#📿 art / #aangart | art made by me

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#📿 vent

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will i ever find the people who cared most about me? and if i do, will they still love and want to form a new bond with me where we can share that love?

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this shift gives me dread but in the way that i want to feel the dread because it feels familiar (i wanted to use the word “safe” at first, but not really safe, maybe secure? predictable?) and almost gives me “euphoria”.

feeling bad about it makes me feel “good”, in not a way that’s the healthy and positive good but in the way where it feels fulfilling (not satisfying or gratifying but something that temporarily feels whole).

like, i’ve forgotten how to feel happy and maybe this is the only way /nav/ (i know how it probably seems like all i do when i post about this is venting but it’s not that i feel guilty about this, just observing)

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i got a new outfit … 🥹 it was kinda disappointing at first then i styled it in a way where i think it looks great now!

i wanted to show but i’m not confident in my body type as it makes me feel insanely fem. just picture it guys… /hj/ i may draw it later

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i haven’t got a chance to wear that outfit out yet but

nah, i am still disappointed. i don’t have the heart to leave a bad review or at the least a review which mentions why i’m disappointed. it was meant to be like a thrifted & curated “box” befitting a certain style.

there is a part of the outfit where i am pleased and it actually seems unique and not plain. but my disappointment majorly comes from the fact one of the tops i received was manufactured by shein… for all i know it’s possible the pants themselves are also fast fashion. i know that i in no stretch of the imagination supported shein by purchasing this bundle and hopefully, neither did the person i bought this from.

i guess the most sustainable way to use fast fashion is by thrifting it? but i’ve never once in my entire life so much installed shein, aliexpress, temu etc. so just owning it feels sick.

also i spent like $35 USD (before shipping) for this? whether or not the person who assembled the outfit paid more than what the top originally costed, considering shein’s prices, it’s disproportionate and unfair i had to pay that much for a fast fashion top.

back to those pants — first thing i did was check the tags of the clothing — maybe i’ll check again to see if there’s any tags.

also it did smell like the seller washed the clothes before shipping them but i can still see the plastic thing where the thrift store probably attached the paper price tags? oversight? idk.

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okay listen. i’ve had enough of making numerous side blogs for each kin i have lol i’m just gonna end up not using them. i want to be able to post about my thoughts regardless of which shift i’m in (i’m in a su shift right now).

so i’ll for now, until i’m able to make them look cool or whatever, i’ll just use one blog for all my kin bullshit needs. this is now going to be a general kin blog instead. as for tagging system and formatting, i will cross that bridge better when i get there.

here’s my thought i’ve had banging around in my head:

i’m not gonna lie i kinda hate being called (my name which isn’t kin related). especially when i’m so heavily shifting someone else. i used to not really realise what being a psychological kin actually meant, as i have always been spiritual or a past life kin (as in that i have memories and what have you).

then i realised that while not all of my kins are past lives they’re all definitely psychological.

like oh my god it feels like i am a different person right now, like i am stuck in the brain of someone else and i only have minute opportunities and thoughts to express myself.

/nav/

i’m just … i feel like a completely different individual.

that isn’t even going into detail about how steven is one of my “deadly 3 kins” whom i swore to have dropped and not shift at all costs.

i haven’t shifted steven really in like 7 years. i decisively chose to drop him/unkin him, or whatever, and have been resisting any urges but it’s hit me like a freight train suddenly.

like what is going on?

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i got a new outfit … 🥹 it was kinda disappointing at first then i styled it in a way where i think it looks great now!

i wanted to show but i’m not confident in my body type as it makes me feel insanely fem. just picture it guys… /hj/ i may draw it later

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katara from last night…messily sketched as i just wanted it on the paper

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monk gyatso are you out there ?

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artistic nudity… ahhh i drew my scar a little too low urgh

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also, happy pride month🩵

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i love getting euphoria from looking at art. there is no better feeling in the world truly

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my gaang miis + mai :)

also a closeup of zuko’s scar face paint, which i am proud of!!

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my beautiful wife katara. why does your mii not look the way i want it to. please stop being difficult i beg

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if i were a gem in steven universe i think that my gem placement would be between the eyebrows and on top of the bridge of my nose

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I had so much fun with these, you have no idea — so I’m still open for more atla requests

@appashumor @soupastar @queens-peril hope you like them!

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hitting my funny marbles trick

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pronouns.cc down ?

i was finally going to edit my profile