CHANNEL 21

Guts, wires, sparks everywhere.

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You won't find anything you want here, this channel wasn't meant for you.

This is a vent blog for our system, otherwise known as the Channel 21 System.

I don't care about asthetics, about censoring or limiting myself. What I post here won't be pretty, if you don't want to see our mess of wires spilled on the ground then leave and block us. We deal with severe and intense paraphilias and mental disorders that we have no way of healing from yet.

We suffer from very, very intense obsessiveness over our partner thanks to BPD and trauma. We don't wish to heal from that, honestly, but we know we have to. We have severe jealousy issues, possesiveness and will be very quick to split or have an episode, deal with it.

we aren't here to make friends, we're here to complain, vent and scream. I will block whoever I want, don't come bitching to me if you were blocked, you probably did something to wrong us or were annoying us.

don't flirt with us, don't be weird or sexual or any fucking thing. we're taken by two people and we aren't looking for more as far as we know.

respect your own dni.

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just a rant

a lot of people forget that -deres are deres, in the end, even if a tsundere is harsh, mean or anything, they just can't help themselves, it's how they are,. Same for yanderes, they're not crazy, not all insane, they've clearly had issues with love or romance before and that's how they love, that's how they show it, and in the end, again,, a dere is a dere, they're just someone deeply in love, someone who wants to love and be loved, not a inherently bad or harmful person, just someone who wants to love and be loved.

[dumgumgum]

don't cry, you can borrow mine

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* Won't you play again, Kris?

[torutore]

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this can go here but its not exactly a vent, but not exactly suited for main

found some posts about demisexuality with people's experiences being similar to mine,, it's nice, not feeling so alone for something i don't control or can't exactly change that i've always felt like i was wrong for,, i'm glad i'm not the only one who finds sex with someone you're not close to and don't have a deep, strong emotional bond to off-putting, not saying it's wrong, by the way. I will always advocate for sex workers rights. Just, felt nice being seen, not being the only one, not being a freak for it,, especially in today's age where polysexuality is, so so so very common,,, i've also seen people describing demisexuality as being on the acespec umbrella? I dunno, i'd need to do more research,,

just wanted to rant, quickly, sorry hehe

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Did?? i trick my brain?? into feeling better,,???

I guess I somehow did,, that or I'm deluded,,

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i likely just ssupressed it,,

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Did?? i trick my brain?? into feeling better,,???

I guess I somehow did,, that or I'm deluded,,

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stress is making me feel sick again. fuck.

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Feeling sick to my stomach with stress

[royal-dere]

oh to be someones favorite

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oh to be someones favorite

[royal-dere]

oh to be someones favorite

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oh to be someones favorite

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oh to be someones favorite

[royal-dere]

oh to be someones favorite

[royal-dere]

oh to be someones favorite