Down The Rabbit Hole

26F ✨scorpio ✨ orgasm whore:✨not owned ✨curvy✨ 100kg ✨ lesbian

[switchysyphus]

Introduction post

Hi! I am Syphus and welcome to my blog. I use this mainly to escape reality and dive deeper into fun and pleasure. I am always open to dms and asks so don’t be shy!

Turn ons

* girls I am mostly lesbian but do have the tendency to try and change myself due to religious upbringing or wanting to please men

* bladder control

* edging/denial but I have found that if I go over two weeks denied my mental health goes 👎🏽

* Someone controlling my orgasms/needing permission to cum

* praise I have a major praise kink 😍

* Mantras/hypnosis

* Tickling

* Words like: baby girl, princess, cunt, pleasure button, good girl

Turn offs

* degrading

* rape/CNC

* getting dirty

* scat

* pain

Exploring

* Dumification

* Pet play

* Being tied and teased

* Exposing myself with sluttier clothes

[switchysyphus]

Another hunger fantasy

Iv been thinking about this new reality where consuming food is only allowed during specific times. Maybe it’s illegal to eat outside of the designated times or maybe there is a spell that doesn’t let food go in your mouth outside of the food times.

You can only eat breakfast between 7am and 9am. Perhaps this works great for working folks, everyone can have a filling breakfast before they head to work but what if they have a long commute and have to be out of the house by 7am to reach work on time? Or if they accidentally snooze their alarm and sleep in a little longer, oops no breakfast for you! Maybe on the weekends it would be the hardest, why would anyone wake up early just to eat? Weekends are for being lazy and sleeping in like I just did, it’s past 10am now so in this world no breakfast for my tummy.

Lunch can only be eaten between 1pm and 2pm. Maybe you have a boss who likes to schedule meetings during this hour because they have a hunger kink or maybe you get so busy you forget to eat during the hour. If you are studying maybe the only available class you need to graduate is being offered at that time! There would be lots of hunger y tummies by now if it was forced to skip breakfast and lunch!

A snack is only allowed between 5pm and 5:15pm but what if you are commuting home during this very short window? Or maybe you reach home by 5:10 but desperately need to use the bathroom! What would you choose food or the bathroom for those 5 minutes you have to spare?

Dinner is only from 9pm to 10pm. If you chose bathroom and were forced to skip all meals today it would be torture to have to wait till 9pm! Maybe you are exhausted from the day and decide to take a nap but end up sleeping till a little past 10 or just decided to sleep early tonight. Just imagine how hungry you would be if all those situations kept your poor tummy empty for more than 24 hours!

[switchysyphus]

My Saturday

I set my alarm for 8:30am so I could have some breakfast and pick a cute outfit before I head to the conference. Unfortunately I snoozed my alarm so I woke up at 9am. I got instructed to spend 5 mins lightly tapping my clit since I was on no touch and somehow still managed to have a ruin yesterday. I got caught up scroll tumblr for another 20 mins before I got up to dress for the day. The registration for the event was 9:30-10 and the place was a 25-30 min drive. I was already late at this point so decided to skip breakfast and just have a Milo (can of chocolate milk) on the way since I was taking a taxi.

I got to the venue still a little horny but mostly present at around 10:15. I networked and mingled before the talks started. When the talks started it was pretty complex for my brain to understand. I felt quite dumb which made me even more hornier so mostly I daydreamed about the guy sitting next to me or sometimes even my eyes wondered to the male speakers bulge. Fast forward a bit and I felt like I had to use the bathroom and my eyes were watering so I slipped into the bathroom but both stalls were busy so I just made sure my mascara wasn’t running and washed my hands trying to trick myself that I went to the bathroom. I got offered a chocolate cake pop and really enjoyed it! Especially since that was the first food I had that day.

Lunch was delayed an hour because a few speakers talked too much! By 1:30pm my tummy is rumbling since I skipped breakfast. They released us to eat so I went to grab the pre-made lunch box. I open it and there are 4 different items: a small portion of garlic pasta, soya sauce grilled chicken, roasted vegetables and a pastry. With my numerous allergies I only had the small portion of pasta with a glass of water.

I again mingled and talked to people during the lunch break. I went to one of the workshops but since I didn’t have my laptop and the app wasn’t working on my phone I decided to leave by around 3:15pm instead of staying till 5:30/5:45. I felt a twinge in my bladder asking me to go before I left but I ignored it.

I found a taxi relatively quick but he got lost and kept going round and round in circles. I decided to grab a croissant at the cafe next door and thought about a hot chocolate too but decided not to test my bladder. After waiting another 10 mins I cancelled and rebooked to find another taxi, within a few minutes the new taxi had arrived but he told me there was traffic! It took almost 35 minutes to get home. Plus the driver kept starting and stopping the car so it was very jerky, the movement was rubbing against my cunt nicely and putting a lil effort erasure on my bladder too.

When I finally got home at a little past 4pm I decided to spin a wheel to decide if I can use the bathroom or have to wait, luckily it said yes I can use the bathroom but I’m still pretending my stomach is full and will not feed it any food till 7pm at the earliest.

[switchysyphus]

What challenge should I give myself this coming week?

No lunch for me

No breakfast for me

5 mins edges daily

No work bathroom anymore

Listen to cals curse daily (cursed to no orgasms without permission)

Clicky- I want to see the results

Voting ended onNov 18, 2024

[switchysyphus]

Do you need a morning routine?

Hmm, yes please… I’m on denial right now, today is two weeks. I just edged for 15 mins but I think I need to be more consistent with a routine. Please give 2-3 tasks I need to do every morning?

[switchysyphus]

I know I’m not in here much and I don’t think this will be a very kinky post so feel free to skip.

Long story short a couple things have happened

1. I’m finishing my degree in 7 weeks and writing my thesis. Over the past 7 weeks I have written 13k words. This has kept me busy and away from edging my mind away. I do have to week off so I am open for some horny tasks. I havnt cum since May 28th too.

2. Iv been going to dance class and stupidly developed a crush on the teacher. 2 weeks ago I asked a mutual if she was gay mutual ended up telling my crush and she rejected me infront of her “boyfriend” (who doesn’t act like her bf) and her friends. I skipped dance class that week but went yesterday. I only stayed for like 20 mins then just picked up my bag and left without a word. I think the reason this hurts so much is because I havnt had sex/been on a real date/been dating for the past 3 years. This was the first time in a long time I had a crush on someone. It still reaaaally hurts like I cried after I left the class yesterday.

3. My chronic pain/disability has been bad the last week or so too which means I can’t do the things I want to.

4. On the plus side my kidnapper has left last week for a month so I’m (mostly) home alone. Which may not be helping my sadness but hey I don’t have to be abused daily

[switchysyphus]

Denial makes me feel empty

My mind melts.. harder to hold smart thoughts

My stomach craves to be empty

My bladder feels soo empty

My cunt feels empty too

I crave to be full

Make me fill my bladder with water

Make me fill my stomach with food or water

Make me fill my cunt with a dildo or marbles

Make me fill my mind with mantras and hypno

[switchysyphus]

i’m curious to know if you were ever given permission to eat something

Well technically no, like an hour after I posted that I got a dm saying to wait longer (like 7 more hours) and I caved and ate food. I have been eating buuuutttt it’s been 13 hours and 42 minutes since my last meal. My stomach is achey begging for food again

[switchysyphus]

Iv been fantasising about someone giving me rules that feed my kinks. I start uni again this week. This doesn’t mean I will follow the rule.. I might try for a bit.

If you had to pick a rule I had to follow which would it be?

Only cumming on Sundays

No public bathrooms

Only fast food once a week

Drink 1 liter of water daily

Scroll tumblr for 10 minutes daily atleast

Voting ended onApr 22, 2024

[switchysyphus]

I had a light dinner of a slice of toast with a slice of cheese and a mug of hot chocolate 15.5 hours ago. Iv been edging to the thought of someone telling me when I can eat next. My stomach is at the mercy of my followers. Maybe even tell me what I can eat when I am allowed 🙈

DMS and asks are open, I’m gonna try to not eat until someone says I’m allowed

[switchysyphus]

I had a dream that someone hypnotised me to make my life just a little inconvenient… in the dream I was in a trance and when they snapped their fingers I woke up. So Iv been thinking of what this imaginary person could have done. I work with kids so it can’t be too obvious.

Maybe they made it so I HAD to edge for 5 minutes every morning when I woke up or I would not be able to focus on anything for longer than 5 minutes or just had a deep ache in my cunt all day

Maybe they made it so I could never wear panties ever again. They might be uncomfortable from now on or I couldn’t physically lift my legs to put it on anymore.

Or perhaps I could only orgasm on a Wednesday which are my busiest days so it would be challenging to find time to cum

Maybe I only felt confident and sexy when I was wearing pink. All other colors felt fine so I didn’t have to wear pink.

Maybe showers have turned me so horny I can’t think straight. I always shower at night before bed so it wouldn’t bother me.

Or maybe it would be healthy for me.. maybe sugar taste gross and working out makes me horny. I would loose weight pretty fast I would imagine!

Which thoughts turns you on the most?

[switchysyphus]

If anyone is online please help me decide how to spend my Sunday. Dm me or comment

It's been a looong week. I have finals due on Thursday... I already did some morning edges and I havnt cum in weeks.

Option A: just edge my mind away today I deserve a day off

Option B: only be allowed to edge after I write a certain amount of words today every 500 words I can edge for 5 mins)

Option C: cum as many times as I can then study

Option D: study but on the hour edge for 5 mins and no cumming until my finals are submitted

[switchysyphus]

Iv gotten too fat … most of my clothes are tight on me 😳 I’m like always hungry and want desserts. I need to buy a scale and see how fat I really have gotten. Once I buy a scale I will edit how much I weigh

Help me choose how I loose weight

If I don’t work out 3 times a week I don’t get to cum that week

Skip breakfast, no food until 1pm

Skip dinner, no food after 4pm

Cut all portions by half (if I normally eat 8 wings I can now have 4)

Each dessert I have adds one edge before I can cum

Voting ended onFeb 22, 2024

[switchysyphus]

Iv been edging again and thinking depraved thoughts. For 2024 I want to only be allowed to cum on a specific day, followers is up to you to decide what days I’m allowed to cum

When should I be allowed to cum for 2024?

Mondays

Tuesdays

Wednesdays

Thursdays

Fridays

Saturdays

Sundays

Voting ended onJan 1, 2024

[nokiabae]

I got the Top 4.47% on this English Vocabulary test

[sleepy-milkbread]

I’m in the last 47.33% 

I shouldn’t have taken that test

[upallweek]

oh damn 😳

[upallweek]

this just makes the fact that i love being bullied for being a dumb cunt so much worse 🤭💕🫣

cuz like… I’m so smart but I really need my friends to see me as the dumb drooly pretty puppy i truly am in my core

[loungeofthelibertine]

Don’t worry, sweetheart. We know 😘

[callalilly849]

This is a surprising result! Maybe I should retake it when I’m edged out. 😂

[porterkinkythingsv3]

@callalilly849 yes … we definitely need to see the comparison

[hogtiedwhore]

i took this quiz twice. the first time i got top 48% and said i had a vocab of a 10 year old. i thought BS no way. so i took it again and got top 38%, vocab of a 14 year old.

how is everyone scoring so high?! the back half of this quiz is as stupid as it says my vocab is 😄

[cncbb]

I got top 7% (altho I’m stoned asf rn) so idk how much lower it would be when I’m edged out or how much higher it would be sober haha

[dumb-pussycunt-deactivated20240]

i messed up one or two not realizing it changed between synonym/antonym. i’d love to retake this in a year and watch it go down✨✨✨✨✨

[dumb-doll-lips]

Damn lol. I did a lottt of guessing towards the second half too. I saw a bunch of words that if someone were to ask me if it was a real word or not I’ve been like nope, not real.

[primalprofessoragain]

When you are proud of your slut for being an adorable dummy.

[dumb-doll-lips]

💖✨

[switchysyphus]

Gosh I’m dumb!

[switchysyphus]

Fantasy lesbian bimbos

In my opinion there are two types of women. Dominant and submissive.

The first is career focused, is the provider, is strong and can easily think with her big girl brain. These types of women are usually masculine presenting type who always gets what she wants.

The second type is the submissive airhead who only can think with her cunt and tits. Her cunt tells her when to rub, her tits tell her when to take them out and squeeze.. they get mad if girl disobeys which make it harder for her to think the longer she tries to be woman 1. No matter if she tries to be number 1 by having a job or spends her days rubbing and squeezing her mind away she always looses brain cells every day!

Maybe in this world, when a child turns 18 they get marked as 1 or 2 on their face so everyone can see what type of woman you are and there is no way of hiding it. Perhaps the 2’s get send to a special school where they are trained on things like edging, eating out a woman, obeying and cooking. Whereas the number 1’s get send to a different school where they learn skills like being a CEO, problem solving, advance math like accounting and creative thinking. Maybe for fun the 2 that is refusing her training and insisting there is a mistake will be edged out of her mind then taken to 1 advance math class and shown just how dumb she is.

Woman 1 job is to simply make the world run smoothly.

Woman 2 job is to care for woman 1 which includes making sure 1 eats,cums and sleeps

Which woman would you rather be?

[switchysyphus]

New player has entered the chat - Miss J

We matched on tinder a couple days ago. She has been wanting to video call but Iv been nervous but last night I finally said ok.. we ended up talking for 1.5 hours! I can tell tho she is super sweet, she was checking in on our grandma and making sure she ate her dinner and that nephew was doing his homework and if he needed help.

Oh my god is she a flirt!! She told me to be a good girl and stay right there, she wants to put her finger in my jar and when I was panicking that I havnt had much experience with a female like in the bedroom she was like ahh it’s alright baby, just let the experienced one lead. She asked what food she should bring if she wanted to impress me on our date too which was really sweet!

For our date, it’s tomorrow and we still don’t know what to do, we keep giving each other ideas but nothing really feels right. Like technically it’s illegal to show pda in public (cuz we both are female) and like it’s low-key weird for me to bring her to mine? She said her ideal date would be for someone to cook for her and we just talk or going out for breakfast. I’m not so much a morning person but I think we might do breakfast? I’ll update you guys on my date tomorrow!

P.S Sir M is still around, he started a new job in a new state but we try to find time to chat. He is very supportive of this and we are fwb which will become just friends if something progress with Miss J or anyone else in the city I am in.