* / CARRY ME AWAY.

BURN ME DOWN , TIL I'M NOTHING BUT 𝙈𝙀𝙈𝙊𝙍𝙄𝙀𝙎. independent horror oc. dash only. sacrificed by 𝘣𝘦𝘯𝘻.

[swtchbldes]

          the  motivation  to  write  ...  what’s  THAT  like  ??

[magnoliamemes-deactivated201906]

Send “You could’ve been killed”

for your muse to scold mine for doing something dangerous!

[swtchbldes]

dcllparted‌.

@swtchbldes /

“ive got an emo streak– s’part of what makes me so rad.”

          ❝  i  mean  ...  if  that’s  what  ya  really  wanna  call  it.  RAD  ,  i  mean.  ❞

[swtchbldes]

sacrillege‌.

@swtchbldes liked for a starter

Her head  pounds with the  beat of the music,  each hit perfectly  in tempo. Maybe  she’s getting  too old for this, the dizzying lights,  so brightly  colored paired  with  the  deafening house music  &  overfilled crowd.  Maybe it was the hangover  from the  night before  still looming over;  a  sign  that  perhaps this over partying was getting to be too much.

❝–-Can we go?❞

          OKAY  ,  SO  ---  FORGIVE  HIM  FOR  TRYING  TO  INCLUDE  HER.          he  wasn’t  expecting  the  party  to  be  so  ...  much  ?  music  practically  shakes  the  windows  with  each  beat  ,  and  sydney’s  stumbling  over  party  guests  and  GOD  KNOWS  what  else.  whiskey  makes  his  head  swim  but  leaves  a  familiar  warmth  in  his  chest.  as  a  tattooed  hand  pushes  the  hair  from  his  eyes  ,  he  casts  her  a  glance.

                    ❝  UH  ---  YEAH  ,  YEAH.  IF  YA  REALLY  WANT  TO.  ❞

[swtchbldes]

❝ I go crazy ‘cause here isn’t where I wanna be. ❞

                    ❝  HM  —  ❞

          for  a  moment  ,  an  excruciatingly  long  moment  ,  that’s  all  he  says.  it’s  not  much  ,  but  he’s  never  been  the  best  at  ...  well  ,  anything  ,  but  that’s  a  different  story  for  a  different  day.  sydney  shifts  where  he  sits  ,  legs  folded  beneath  him  now.  as  his  chin  rests  in  his  hand  ,  elbow  upon  the  arm  of  the  couch  ,  he  looks  towards  texas.  not  exactly  at  him  ,  more  or  less  over  his  shoulder  ---  but  it’s  something.

          ❝  SO  FIX  IT.  no  one  is  keeping  you  here  ,  or  whatever.  you’re  an  ADULT.  change  it  up.  ❞

                    (   arctic  monkeys  meme.   )   —   accepting.

[somniiare]

arctic monkeys meme !

[sxmniarchive]

❝ You call the shots, babe. ❞

❝ I just wanna be yours. ❞ 

❝ Secrets I have held in my heart are harder to hide than I thought. ❞

❝ Maybe I just wanna be yours. ❞

❝ Are there some aces up your sleeve ? ❞

❝ Have you no idea that you’re in deep ? ❞

❝ I dreamt about you nearly every night this week. ❞

❝ How many secrets can you keep ? ❞

❝ There’s this tune I found that makes me think of you somehow and I play it on repeat. ❞

❝ The nights were mainly made for saying things that you can’t say tomorrow day. ❞

❝ Maybe I’m too busy being yours to fall for somebody new. ❞

❝ It’s just I’m constantly on the cusp of trying to kiss you. ❞

❝ Was sort of hoping that you’d stay. ❞ 

❝ We could be together if you wanted to.❞

❝ I’m not finished, ‘cause you’re not by my side. ❞

❝ Once again I was just dreaming of bumping into you. ❞

❝ It’s harder and harder to get you to listen. ❞

❝ It’s three in the morning and I’m trying to change your mind. ❞

❝ Why’d you only call me when you’re high ? ❞

❝ You’re starting to bore me, baby. ❞

❝ You know who’s calling even though the number is blocked. ❞

❝ You walked around your house wearing my sky blue Lacoste and your knee socks. ❞

❝ You cured my January blues. ❞

❝ You made it all alright. ❞

❝ Never stopped you letting me get hold of the sweet spot by the scruff of your knee socks. ❞

❝ You and me could have been a team. ❞

❝ You could be my baby. ❞

❝ I go crazy ‘cause here isn’t where I wanna be. ❞

❝ All I wanna hear her say is ‘are you mine ?‘ ❞

❝ Are you mine ? ❞

❝ I want it all. ❞

❝ Ain’t it just like you to kiss me and then hit the road. ❞

[straightboyfriend]

me to a cat: can u heal my broken heart

cat: mrow

me: thank u

[swtchbldes]

          okay  ,  i’m  here  ,  i’m  gonna  attempt  to  reply  to  things.

[devotedecay]

❥      NON - SEXUAL   ACTS   OF   DOMINANCE . 

feel free to edit or elaborate as you please .   ( add  ‘ reverse ‘  to your message if you’d like to see how my muse would perform the action ) . otherwise , send in one of these for my muse’s reaction to   …

[ lit ]  your muse lighting a cigarette , spliff , etc. for mine . 

[ order ]  your muse ordering for mine at a restaurant or bar .

[ guide ]  your muse putting a hand on mine’s back to lead them .

[ pay ]  your muse paying for mine at a store , bar , restaurant , etc . ( you can specify where or for what . )

[ open ]  your muse opening a door for mine .

[ dry ]  your muse drying mine off with a towel after a shower , bath , swimming , etc . 

[ instruct ]  your muse giving mine instructions / telling them what to do . 

[ groom ]  your muse adjusting mine’s appearance , such as straightening a tie , fixing their hair , or buttoning their shirt for them , etc . 

[ direct ]  your muse taking mine by the chin and telling them to look yours in the eye .

[ disagree ]  your muse sternly telling mine  ‘ no ‘ .

[ rest ]  your muse resting their arm over mine’s shoulder / s .

[ clean ]  your muse cleaning a smudge of something off mine’s cheek , forehead , etc .   feel free to specify what and how . 

[ answer ]  your muse answering a question meant for mine . 

[ coat ]   your muse holds mine’s coat out for them while they put it on .

[ pilot ]  your muse taking mine by the arm , hand , shoulder , etc . to lead them . 

[ stare ]  your muse staring mine down . 

[ placement ]  your muse telling mine to sit down .

[ teach ]  your muse taking control of mine’s hand , arm , hips , etc . to make sure they do something correctly .  

[ patience ]  your muse telling mine to be patient .

[ tears ]  your muse wiping away mine’s tears .

[ swat ]  your muse swatting mine’s hand away from something they’re not supposed to touch .  

[ jewelry  ]  your muse clasping a piece of jewelry for mine , such as a necklace , or earrings . 

[ enough ]  your muse commanding mine to stop talking . 

[ retrieve ]  your muse requesting or ordering mine to retrieve them something .

[ invite ]  your muse inviting mine to sit on their lap .

[ lean ]  your muse inviting mine to lean into their side while they’re sitting or laying together . 

[ calm ]   your muse telling mine to  ‘ just breathe ‘ .

[ scold ]  your muse scolding mine for something .

[ comfort ]  your muse pulling mine into a reassuring hug .

[ approval ]  your muse complimenting mine on a choice they’ve made .

[ beckon ]  your muse beckoning mine to them without speaking . 

[ laces ]  your muse lacing , tying , or zipping something for mine , such as shoes , a dress , or a jacket , etc .

[ stay ]  your muse telling mine to stay in the car . 

[ defend ]  your muse defending mine’s reputation , dignity , or safety for them . 

[ feed ]  your muse feeding mine something , feel free to specify what .

[ volume ]  your muse demanding mine speak louder .

[ read ]  your muse reading something to mine .

[ refill ]  your muse refilling mine’s glass for them . 

[ possessive ]  your muse resting their hand on mine’s leg or the small of their back while they’re sitting beside each other . 

[rosources]

—  sentence starters  :  the umbrella academy,  episode 01.04,  the man on the moon.   content warnings : parental death, physical abuse, torture.

as my number one, i need you to deal with the threat.

because i’m the only one left.

there’s something you have to see.

poor ___. i mean, this is gonna be so hard on him.

are you okay? you know you can talk to me.

hey, no. don’t do that. don’t shut me out.

when i left, you were still… i mean, what… what happened?

i almost died. he saved my life.

i was fine. alright? i am fine. i don’t need any help.

oh, i’m so sorry. i must have fallen asleep last night.

for one day, i think you’ll be fine.

hey, let’s make a deal. around me, you don’t have to apologize just for existing.

when i was a kid, i felt like i had to apologize for even breathing.

i don’t think my dad ever forgave me for being born.

hey, maybe you can thank me over a dinner.

ah, there’s nothing like a little strangling to get the blood flowing, am i right?

what’s so funny, you asshole?

you spent the last ten hours beating me senseless and you’ve learned absolutely nothing.

the truth is, i’m the one person in that house nobody will even notice is gone.

please make him stop talking.

hello? hazard pay?

what the hell? who’d you piss off this time?

okay, what’s going on? you could have called me for an update. so why are you really here?

i just, uh… my mom. she died last night.

oh, you always loved telling me what i can and can’t do.

no wonder we didn’t last.

i’m sorry if i scared you.

well, you start the car, then. ‘cause we’re going on a field trip.

well, it looks like you got what you wanted one way or another, right?

let me guess, you’re gonna save the day.

it’s what i do, asshole.

keep on being a loyal soldier after everything our father did to you.

grow up, ___. we’re not thirteen anymore.

at least he was there. where were you? you and everyone else in this family?

thank christ that i walked out, or i would have ended up just like you.

take your nonsense elsewhere.

who’s the dead babushka?

i barely remember what we had for breakfast at this point.

torturing works best when you know who you’re torturing.

what are you doing? that’s mine. that’s my personal stuff.

this could all be yours for the low, low price of telling us everything.

it had something to do with the end of times, or something.

i hate sprinkles. maybe i just hate donuts.

the world is ending. all this, all these people, they’ll be gone, and they have just… no idea.

you know what the worst part of being dead is? you’re stuck. nowhere to go. nowhere to change.

that’s the real torture, if you gotta know. watching your brother take for granted everything you lost and pissing it all away.

that’s the understatement of the year.

you wanna know why i left? because that’s what you do when you’re seventeen. you move out, become your own person, grow up.

at least i make my own decisions. you’ve never had to hold down a job. pay bills. you ever even been with a girl?

maybe it’s not about why we left. maybe it’s about why you stayed.

you couldn’t let go of the way things used to be.

dad’s dead. mom too, now. we’re orphans again, dude.

things are never gonna go back to the way they used to be.

look, i’m sorry to be the one to tell you this, but sometimes, men are unredeemable shits.

___ felt real. like he saw something in me no one else did.

god, i haven’t felt like that since i was a kid.

yay, sisters?

that’s no way to say hello to your old friends, is it?

welcome back to the land of the living, ____.

you must become the master of your own life, or it will become the master of you.

think i ain’t read the constitution? come back with a warrant.

i drank the whole bottle, didn’t i?

that’s what you do when the world you love goes bye-bye. poof, it’s gone.

i don’t need your protection. do you have any idea how many people i’ve killed?

i’m the four frickin’ horsemen, and the apocalypse is coming.

i like you, and i’m not sorry.

i - i got the flowers. thank you so much.

you know, there may be hope for him yet, don’t you think?

don’t be ridiculous. you think i’d do something like that?

i thought we were in this together. for the long haul.

if i didn’t know he was such a prick, i’d say he looks almost adorable in his sleep.

don’t worry, he’ll sober up eventually and be back to his normal, unpleasant self.

you throw another one of those goddamn knives at me, i’m pressing charges.

i was on my way. i was… why didn’t you wait?

[gothboychick]

[decatris]

[swtchbldes]

                         EVEN  IF  I  TRY  HARD  ,  I  AIN’T  GONNA  MAKE  IT.

         adored  by  benz.

[elimemes]

SOFT ANGST STARTERS.

‘stay for me.’

‘what’s this between us?’

‘i don’t want your apology.’

‘you know i have feelings for you.’

‘yeah, i remember the drill.’

‘you’ve never hurt me. ever.’

‘then leave her/him/them. at home.’

‘i don’t believe it.’

‘this is breaking my heart.’

‘you met me at a very strange time in my life.’

‘what keeps you up at night?’

‘i wish you were here.’

‘i let you down.’

‘something strange happened here.’

‘you’re not safe here.’

‘i wasn’t ready to say goodbye.’

‘we are not the same, and never will be.’

‘don’t touch me.’

‘is it my fault?’

‘i’m not like them.’

‘i forgot my name again.’

‘i don’t know who i am.’

‘your fear of looking stupid is holding you back.’

‘are you still alive?’

‘i don’t like being told what to do.’

‘am i making you uncomfortable?’

‘nobody cares if you don’t go to the party.’

‘it was supposed to be fun, and you ruined it.’

‘where the hell are my friends?’

‘stop pretending life doesn’t terrify you.’

[swtchbldes]

          consider  this  …  what  if  we  plotted  things  together.

[swtchbldes]

repost. do not reblog.

𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐬 !

FULL NAME.     sydney  james  barker. NICKNAME.     sydney  ,  sydney  james  ,  whatever  you  wanna  call  him. GENDER.     nonbinary  ,  uses  he  /  him  or  they  /  them. HEIGHT.     5′10″. AGE.     22. ZODIAC.     virgo.  (  sep.  4th  ) SPOKEN LANGUAGES.     english  and  french.

𝐩𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐬 !

HAIR COLOR.      black  and  purple  ,  naturally  blond. EYE COLOR.     brown. SKIN.      sydney  is  pretty  fair  ,  though  he  tans  pretty  easily.  not  that  he  spends  much  time  in  the  sun  ,  he’s  always  been  a  “  night  owl  ”  ,  so  to  speak.  that’s  why  he  chose  to  work  night  shift. BODY TYPE.     he’s  pretty  thin  ,  maybe  even  a  tad  underweight. DOMINANT HAND.      right. POSTURE/BODY LANGUAGE.     he  stands  fairly  tall  ,  depending  on  where  he  is  or  who  he’s  around.  body  language  says  a  lot  about  sydney  ,  he’s  very  expressive  in  the  way  he  holds  himself  and  how  he  moves.  he  talks  with  his  hands  often  ,  constantly  shifts  his  weight  between  his  feet  ,  etc. SCARS.     one  on  his  lower  lip  ,  one  above  his  eyebrow  covered  by  a  tattoo  ,  and  various  other  scars  all  over  his  body  over  the  years. TATTOOS.     all  of  peep’s  tattoos. MOST NOTICEABLE FEATURE(S).     his  tattoos  and  style  have  to  be  the  most  noticeable  things  about  him.  sydney  is  essentially  a  walking  statement.  or  children’s  coloring  book  ,  you  decided.

𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐝 !

PLACE OF BIRTH.     clifton  ,  new  jersey. HOMETOWN.     clifton  ,  new  jersey. SIBLINGS.     none. PARENTS.    leanne  barker  and  sonny  coleman.

𝐚𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 !

OCCUPATION.     cashier  /  clerk  at  a  gas  station. CURRENT RESIDENCE.     dover  ,  delaware.   CLOSE FRIENDS.     none  ,  really. RELATIONSHIP STATUS.    single. FINANCIAL STATUS.     lower  middle  class. DRIVER’S LICENSE.     yes. CRIMINAL RECORD.     well  ,  he’s  rather  not  say. VICES.     the  obvious  things  such  as  sex  and  alcohol  ,  of  course.  but  there’s  not  a  lot  of  time  spent  partying  on  sydney’s  part  ,  more  or  less  a  homebody  at  this  point.  he  finds  it  safer  that  way.

𝐬𝐞𝐱 & 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 !

SEXUAL ORIENTATION.     pansexual. PREFERRED SEXUAL ROLE.     submissive  |  dominant  |  switch  | top |  bottom | vers. LIBIDO.     you  would  not  believe  ... TURN ON’S.      confidence  ,  biting  ,  teasing.  all  that  good  shit. TURN OFF’S.    he  admires  and  is  attracted  to  confidence  ,  but  he  hates  a  motherfucker  that’s  too  cocky  and  way  too  full  of  themselves.  a  lack  of  chemistry  ,  of  course. LOVE LANGUAGE.     god  ,  who  even  knows. RELATIONSHIP TENDENCIES.     in  the  past  ,  sydney  hasn’t  been  the  biggest  fan  of  relationships.  not  that  he’s  ever  really  had  anything  against  them  ,  but  ...  for  him  ,  they  never  seemed  to  work  out.  but  he’s  sweet  and  loyal  when  he  finds  someone  he  loves  ,  and  that’s  not  just  for  romantic  relationships.

𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐞𝐨𝐮𝐬  !

CHARACTER’S THEME SONG.     a  lesson  never  learned  ---  asking  alexandria. HOBBIES TO PASS TIME.     reading.  sydney  reads  more  than  he  does  anything  else.  going  for  walks  ,  spending  time  with  his  cat  ,  those  are  his  only  real  hobbies. MENTAL ILLNESSES.     oh  we  don’t  even  know  how  to  get  into  that  one. PHYSICAL ILLNESSES.     none. LEFT OR RIGHT BRAINED.     right  brained. PHOBIAS.      there’s  nothing  he  hates  more  than  spiders  ,  and  deep water.  wouldn’t  consider  them  phobias  ,  but  more  or  less  ...  a  strong  dislike. SELF CONFIDENCE LEVEL.     uhhh  ,  it  depends  on  the  day  ,  mostly.  either  he  feels  fantastic  or  he  feels  like  absolute  shit.   VULNERABILITIES.     sydney  likes  attention.  one  may  even  say  he’s  ,  like  ,  desperate  for  it  ,  and  that’s  his  major  “  vulnerability.  ”  there’s  quite  a  few  more  ,  for  sure  ,  but  ...  we  don’t  have  time  to  get  into  all  of  that.

TAGGED BY:  my  love  my  angel  @lyinteeth.

TAGGING:  all  of  you.

[swtchbldes]

"Whatever you do, don't go wandering around after dark."

                    ❝  OOH  ,  SPOOKY  —  ❞

          he  doesn’t  mean  any  offense  by  his  words  ,  or  the  way  his  fingers  wave  when  they  leave  his  mouth.  see  ,  he  doesn’t  take  kindly  to  people  who  want  to  speak  so  VAGUELY  —  if  you’re  going  to  allude  to  something  heinous  ,  have  the  balls  to  actually  say  what  it  is.  

                    ❝  LISTEN  ,  TALL  ,  DARK  ‘N  MYSTERIOUS  ——                                           i  don’t  follow  rules  very  well  ,  so  if  something  is                                           gonna  kill  me  ,  let’s  hope  it  knows  what  the  fuck  its  doing.  ❞

                    (   southern  gothic  sentence  meme.   )   —   accepting.