lost soul

[swxxtxars]

i thought you were my forever.

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Do you ever think about me? Do you miss the way we talked? Do you wonder what I’m doing? Because I do.

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I let myself indulge in this fantasy of you and I.

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I know it probably doesn’t affect you at all. But it affects me everyday.

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I’m selfish but only because I want to be the one to love you.

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I felt my heartstrings cut off and my heart fall out of my chest.

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I’d rather break in silence and watch you move on with life.

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You only liked me,

but I fell for you,

sinking into something I couldn’t control,

while you stood on the edge,

untouched, unaware.

I gave everything,

and you gave just enough to keep me there,

waiting, wanting,

until I was lost in the depths of it all.

[swxxtxars]

my heart only breaks for you, and my eyes only cry for you.

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I hope and pray you won’t lose me and you’ll realize soon that what we had it’s always been there.

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the days we don't talk are the longest.

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 If you had just said don’t go, I’d have never left. 

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i lived a lifetime with you in my head.

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i regret my silence, letting you slip away while i stayed still.

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it would be easier to end it all than to keep going, but if I do, I know I will come out strong.

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But I would be a fool to hold onto that hope.  

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One day I want to look back and have no regrets