「ʜᴇᴀᴠᴇɴ? ʜᴇʟʟ? 」

「ɪ ᴀᴍ ʟɪᴍʙᴏ 」 「ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ?」 「ᴀʀᴇ Yᴏᴜ ᴩʀᴏᴜᴅ?」 indie roleplaying blog for Silhouette, the far forgotten daughter of Etihw and Kcalb. origin of things

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happy ‘murica day

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literally every single dream i have is a nightmare and man they get wild, my heart’s still pounding today’s nightmare was i was in my grandparents house as a child with some other kids, and one with a flesh-eating disease sat in the corner next to me, obscured mostly by a huge desk. i could see them if i leaned over, though. about an hour in, i looked over, and holy shit. the entire left side of their face had sloughed off. it was in a pile on the ground, but it didn’t look like skin or brain, it looked like gray sludge with bolts in it. one of the teachers came over and shoved it back into their head. i look over another hour later, their head has literally melted and i can still kinda make out a face in the goop. i woke up soon after. not even my wildest dream, but it was today’s dream. a summary of a few others:

men stalked me and tried to get into my house because i was smart and they wanted me

my friends kept disappearing in the woods, there was something in those woods, and i only realized it after i was the last one left

i had a dream one of my muses would wait in various rooms for me, hold up a sign, and then a mutilated girl would jump on and start eating me along with him

i heard a loud bang next to my window, and the next day turns out people were trying to get in

in another dream some men actually succeeded in getting in, and i think they cut my tongue out and gouged me in one eye

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caveofwanderers replied to your post:i finished watching zero no tsukaima again, that...

the umineko anime was…a bit eh? for my tastes despite my love for the series..still need to finish it myself actually XD

oh boy, i know it pissed off a lot of people. like, they had some of the worst animation errors─ no spoilers, but later on, a character dies. twice. and the other one that should’ve died just disappeared. it was fabulous. i’d kill to see yasu put into the anime, she was adorable enough for me to make a blog for her.

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i finished watching zero no tsukaima again, that obligatory yuri kiss in season 2 was pretty good. also malicorn. he was a treasure, he and his man tiddies. i also finished watching rozen maiden zuruckspulen. i cried, man. the protag’s a loser with no friends like me and the end hit me super hard. also the obligatory yuri kiss here was also pretty good if not terrifying after. i could only watch the first 2 episodes of umineko because i watched the abridged series and read uminekolol so much i kept dubbing everything over in my head and i couldn’t take anything seriously. for example, natsuhi crying in a corner and my head going ‘ wHERE’S MY DOOR IT WAS RIGHT HERE ‘ ‘ I BET THEY GAVE IT TO EVAAAAA ‘

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I’ve decided to try and rejoin the rp scene an ancient friend recommended to me, namely the Rozen Maiden fandom. It looks... pretty dead, but I can try to make it work. I won’t be rejoining the mogeko rp scene just yet, maybe in a week or a few. The blog is rosenkristall, so if you’re up to rping with Barasuishou or one of her ‘sisters’, she’s there. I’m inheriting the blog from the old mun from 2-3 years back, btw.

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i just made cheesecake! first time i’ve bothered to make anything in... ages, maybe years. i usually don’t bake because of my back and my legs have degenerated a lot, hell i was only standing for maybe 15 minutes, and they’re already causing me a lot of pain. but! i had fun, and i think i’m gonna take more cooking lessons from grandma, too.

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excuse my mediocre art, but hey, it’s the only way to really show what the character looks like. she has no name, and cannot remember it due to a plot point i can’t give away.

so, this is the character that i’m gonna base my weird story thing on. well, she’s the other main character, really. she gave me the idea, so she may as well be. i’m making the story in an app called twine, which lets you do interactive storytelling shit. the storyline below is pretty flat, but it’s actually a lot deeper, but i don’t wanna reveal too much about our leading lady or why she looks the way she does, because that gives away everything else.

general summary of plot without giving away plot points: you are some random ass person. you wake up in an abandoned amusement park looking place, and this faded train attendant is the first person you encounter. it turns out this is a purgatory for forgotten or discontinued mascots, and the nightmare fuel girl is the oldest mascot here─ but you’re not a mascot, are you? so why did you wake up here, and who would use such a nightmarish girl as a mascot...?

the temporary name for the story will be train tracks, and will be referred to as such until i finalize the name, or maybe i’ll keep it.

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i drew up a character i had no concept for at 2 am and now it’s 8 am and i’m writing a goddamn interactive story thing for her and i forgot how much i love writing shit, it’s been years since i’ve actually written anything based on an oc, maybe i’ll post my shit here once i’m done

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when you wake up the day after a breakdown

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trying to find art of literally anyone in znt is a struggle because literally every character has a name that’s 17 miles long and you don’t know whether to search the full thing or the shortened version except maybe the main guy

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man this harem anime with big tiddies gets deep sometimes

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if your parents can cook you better damn well appreciate it because my mom took 3 slices of thin cheese put mayo on it and then put it in the middle of some shitty bread and called it a cheese sandwich

she’s done this twice

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I learned a lot yesterday. Making a lot of friends won’t help with shit. After reaching out to reddit and an old friend, I got a lot of good advice. To make others happy, I have to make myself happy first. I have to actually do things, do what I enjoy and stop relying on others exclusively for my joy. I went for a walk of my own free will in the first time in... I can’t remember. I think the skype fiasco has actually done some good for me. I learned a lot on that day, and I honestly think it was good for me. It’s time to make a change in my life, get out more, see my psychiatrist more─ I’ll see you all on Yarg on July 8th with an update on how I’m doing, until then, updates will be here.

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lays on floor now that i’m on a mogeko hiatus idk which of my fandoms to join and i ain’t even in that many but in the few days i haven’t been in the fandom my mood has IMPROVED and i feel alive

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if you came here because of my child my actual rp blog is at @reversalofgray and not here that is all

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i made a nemofi blog at nemofiisms, go bug the blueberry!

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gonna be making a nemofi blog for reasons