Not a Very Pretty Name, Is It?

Cora Mills from Once Upon a Time. Mun and muse 25+. Please read rules before interacting.

[sxmethingbreaking]

//because of the blog-flagging bs that tumblr does these days I still log into my old blogs every now and then to see what’s up

and lo and behold, one of the side blogs to this blog got flagged, so that’s annoying. 

anyways, thought I’d say hi, let you guys know you can still find me hanging around on @wxndinmyhair or on my personal blog, @likeabxrdinflight (which is a hot mess lol).

I did uh....create a star wars muse as well but I don’t want to advertise that blog much because I’m avoiding the greater star wars fandom like the goddamn plague o.O but if people are curious they can message me on either of the two blogs listed above, I’d reveal it to my old partners here. 

I wish I could say Cora will come back one day, but honestly...I don’t know that she will. I miss her sometimes, and sometimes when I log back on here and the archived blogs I just go through old threads and re-read them for fun. But I don’t know that I’ll ever get that muse back, not the way it used to be. Oh well, you move on I guess. 

[sxmethingbreaking]

//jinx made me re-watch scenes from “Mother” and apparently I still have feelings about the episode hello

[sxmethingbreaking]

//I’ve been logging in to check all of my blogs to see if they’ve been flagged. so far everything looks okay, even the archived blogs, and hopefully that won’t change. 

(I did change the urls of the archive blogs to something pretty unsearchable to cover my ass, but that was unrelated to any of this adult content ban.) 

anyways, thought I’d also say a quick “hi” over here. I don’t know what the future of this blog is, but I still think about it sometimes. 

[wxndinmyhair]

//hello just logging in here to remind all my followers to PLEASE VOTE TODAY IF YOU ARE AMERICAN

I realize many of you are not

However, if you do live in the states, it’s imperative that you get out there and vote. I don’t care if you’re in Alabama or California, this is a very swing election and every single ballot counts. If you’re not happy with the people in office, VOTE THEM OUT.

Thank you. 

[sxmethingbreaking]

heads up that if this person (likeabxrdinflight.tumblr.com) follows you, it me

[sxmethingbreaking]

heads up that if this person (likeabxrdinflight.tumblr.com) follows you, it me

[sxmethingbreaking]

//would people follow me if I made a proper personal blog? I just need to admit to myself that rp is hard to maintain now, but I don’t want to abandon the tumblr community completely….against my better judgment. At the end of the day it sort of is the only place I can yell about fandom things into the ether. For now anyways. 

so yeah, I’m considering it quite strongly. I started as a personal blog in 2011, and I got rid of that one…but I might go ahead and make a new one. thoughts?

[sxmethingbreaking]

//would people follow me if I made a proper personal blog? I just need to admit to myself that rp is hard to maintain now, but I don’t want to abandon the tumblr community completely....against my better judgment. At the end of the day it sort of is the only place I can yell about fandom things into the ether. For now anyways. 

so yeah, I’m considering it quite strongly. I started as a personal blog in 2011, and I got rid of that one...but I might go ahead and make a new one. thoughts?

[sxmethingbreaking]

//I haven’t listened through the entire album of “The Black Parade” in AGES but I just did and it’s massively fucking with my head like I forgot about songs like cancer and disenchanted

and now I remember why I don’t listen to the whole thing much

[dinneratgrannys]

Regina & Cora Mills, Season 2

I was, I am, trying so hard to be worthy of Henry, and I deserve the same thing from you.

[dinneratgrannys]

Cora Mills, Season 2

If the choice is love or power, then even having a heart is a liability.

[sxmethingbreaking]

//I deleted everything in my drafts folder cuz lbr if I’m ever gonna be active here again it’s gonna need to be a soft reboot

I won’t move blogs again though, I don’t think that’s necessary

[wadey-wilson]

me: i wanna write

someone: then… write?

me:

[sxmethingbreaking]

//I've logged back into this blog on mobile.

I miss Cora...I definitely don't have time to do any writing right now (y'all don't wanna see my calendar it's a mess). But I still miss interacting on this blog so...here I am.

...hi

[sxmethingbreaking]

//heads up that if a rapunzel blog follows you, it’s me.

I’ve kind of accepted that Cora might be staying away for good this time and I don’t want to lose contact with friends. so. gonna follow y’all back from the blog I’m actually on lol. 

[sxmethingbreaking]

//heads up that if a rapunzel blog follows you, it’s me.

I’ve kind of accepted that Cora might be staying away for good this time and I don’t want to lose contact with friends. so. gonna follow y’all back from the blog I’m actually on lol. 

[justavpdthings]

I once said to my therapist after a particularly hard week, “I wish I could just fix all of my problems and move on to live a normal life” And he looked at me and said, “There is no finish line”.

Those words felt like a stab in my heart, but they were words that I desperately needed to hear. There is no finish line to my problems. It’s not possible to get through a certain point in life and have my problems simply disappear. And it’s unhealthy to think that way. Up to that point in my life, that’s what I though recovery was. I thought it was like working your way forward until it seems like your problems never existed in the first place.

The finish line does not exist. Instead, everyone has a capacity for recovery. You may never completely rid yourself of whatever causes you pain, but you will move miles from where you started. Don’t set your expectations too high and create that theoretical finish line in your life, or you will only end up chasing it. Instead, focus on your own capacity for recovery, and be proud of yourself for every step you take.

[justavpdthings]

Just saw Eighth Grade and reblogging the heck out of this bc wow it gets so much better if you just take it one step at a time

[mintedwitcher]

Okay but I cant help but hear “there is no finish line” and immediately respond with “then why am i running the race?” What is the point*? Where is the benefit of putting in the effort if its not going to ever end? If i am always going to battle I would rather just give up the fight.

*(Im not saying recovery is bad or whatever ppl wanna reach for, this is my personal view)

[dalniente]

That’s the thing, though: it’s not a race. It’s a garden.

No matter what your garden looks like in the beginning, you have to weed it before it can grow into what you want it to be. And when your flowers are planted and growing, you still have to keep up with the weeding. You have to keep up with the weeding even after your flowers are tall. A garden can’t survive on its own. There will always be weeds.

But there will be flowers, too, if you give them space to grow. Give them room, give them time, and keep checking in to make sure the weeds don’t get too tall. You will always have weeds, but you will also have flowers.

And maybe your garden doesn’t look exactly like you imagined it would. Maybe you aren’t sure how to get rid of that one big thistle in the corner. Maybe you’ve got bindweed and nutgrass (which will always, always come back). Either way, you’ve got flowers now, and it’s a nice place to sit and look around, and it looks nicer than it did before, and it’s yours. Keep going with it. If you miss a few days, or months, or years, that’s okay. Pull up the weeds when you’re ready, uncover your old flowers and plant some new ones, and keep going.

Gardening is a process, not a project or a problem that can be solved. The same is true for your mental health. Weeds will grow, but you’ll get better and better at pulling them, and you’ll grow flowers, too.