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masterpost and update schedule !

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i take requests! please leave them in the asks portion of my profile for organization purposes. requests left in my comments or dms may get lost or forgotten! this is a full list of my fanfics, on all platforms, across all fandoms.

Sally Face

Freaks: rated m / salvis / hurt, comfort / enemies to lovers / slow burn / major character death / 56K words / complete. ao3. wattpad.

East of Eden: rated m / salvis / hurt, comfort / enemies to lovers / runaway au / sickfic / major character death / 63K words / complete. ao3. wattpad.

Firefly: rated m / salvis / hurt, comfort / enemies to lovers to enemies to lovers / 72K words / ongoing. ao3. wattpad.

Tell Me: rated m / oneshots / hurt, comfort / 19K words / ongoing. ao3. wattpad.

Freaks (Spanish): rated m / salvis / hurt, comfort / enemies to lovers / slow burn / major character death / 56K words / complete. ao3. wattpad.

Squid Game

The Peak of my Existence: rated e / hyunseok / fluff, angst / friends to lovers / found family(?) / 50K words / complete. ao3 exclusive!

I Know What This Costs Us: rated e / oneshots / fluff / angst / smut / 77K words / ongoing. ao3 exclusive!

(Just A) Piece of Meat: rated e / thangyu / smut / rough sex / canon compliant / trans character / 7K words / completed. ao3 exclusive!

Infra-Red: rated m / oneshots / fluff / angst / 77K words / ongoing. wattpad exclusive! (works will be cross-posted to my ao3 oneshots series).

Rhetoric: rated m / kang dae-ho/oc / angst / hurt/comfort / happy ending / violence / major character death / 95K words / ongoing. ao3. wattpad.

Leave Me Waiting: rated e / nam-gyu/fem! reader / angst / hurt no comfort / smut / bad ending / violence / major character death / 35K words / ongoing. ao3. wattpad.

Wednesday

Complex: rated m / wavier / angst / major character death / oneshot / 2K words / completed. ao3 exclusive! You've Got This Strange Effect (On Me): rated m / wavier / fluff / oneshot / 3K words / completed. ao3 exclusive!

The Outsiders

Oneshot Series: rated m / angst / major character death / fluff / oneshots / 3K words / completed. ao3 exclusive!

Dead Poets Society

Glimpse of Us: rated m / anderperry / angst / major character death / fluff / oneshot / 1K words. ao3 exclusive!

The Black Phone

Fade Into You: rated m / rinney / angst / fluff / 1K words. ao3 exclusive!

Tumblr

Hyunseok: - The Weight of You Close to Me: rated e / smut / fluff / 9.3K words.

X Reader: - My Morning Sun: rated t / fluff / domesticity / getting together / 1.9K words. - Casual: rated e / smut / rough sex / no aftercare / fem & masc/ 10.8K words. - Ulterior Motives: rated e / smut / rough sex / no aftercare / threesome / dubcon / fem & masc / 8.2K words. - Concupiscence: rated e / smut / rough sex / no aftercare / dubcon / little, no plot / fem & masc / 11K words.

Thangyu: - We'll Find Each Other in the End: rated e / smut / hurt, no comfort / angst / major character death / 5+1 things / 15.6K words.

Misc: - A Different Age: rated m / namhee / fluff / domesticity / fix-it of sorts / canon rewrite of sorts / 7.8K words.

updating schedule:

i will not make a patreon for early access. it is illegal to make money off of fanfiction. i also work part time and go to college full time. writing fanfic is a hobby for me, and it’s a struggle getting things out on a schedule, let alone trying to get them out early.

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i will be working on a chapter of leave me waiting soon! i’ve had a busy week, so expect the update sometime next week ^_^

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chapter 28 of rhetoric is out now on wattpad and ao3!

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Haii, I’d really love to hear your perspective on the many reasons/life experiences that might explain why namgyu can’t settle down because It's rly hard to pinpoint just one thing. Also, is there any part of his life that, if it were different, would make him want to settle down? I’m trying to make sense of it lol (and honestly I might be in denial 😪 )

oh lord okay, buckle up. you wanted the many things, i'll give them to you LMAO

namgyu was born to addict parents. he was born doomed to fail from the beginning. his parents never really showed him love, so from the moment he was born he pretty much never knew any form of it. he chased it in girls as he got older, but no matter how much love they gave him, he wasn't sure how to give it back. the only love he could ever really feel for a long time was his love for drugs. now, granted, he didn't start getting involved in drugs with intentions of doing them or getting addicted. he wanted to make money, and he knew the drug scene was easy money.

but he also got addicted. drugs were the only form of love he knew for a very long time. girls got bored and tired of him not giving them the love back that they showed to him. he just couldn't bring himself to show it. as a teenager, he didn't know love, nor how to show it. as he got older and got in with the reader, he learned love. he learned what it felt like and what it looked like, but he still struggled with how to show it himself.

by that point it was just because he felt too bad. he didn't know he'd dragged her in to his life. he thinks that, to her, he's replaceable. a fuckbuddy. because that's all he's ever known love and relationships to be. he loves reader, but he doesn't show it, because he thinks her love is temporary. but when she has the baby, he realizes it's not. at the same time, he realizes they want entirely different things.

he wants love, but he wants the live fast, die hard type of love. reader wants soft, intimate love. they're on completely different wavelengths, at the end of the day. the only reason reader doesn't accept soft, intimate love from ye-jun is because she wants it from nam-gyu. no one else. i hope that can clarify everything for you in that aspect :3 but feel free to ask questions if anything doesn't seem to make sense.

honestly, for namgyu to be willing to settle, i think a lot of his life would have to be different. the biggest thing that would have had to never happen was him beginning to get involved in drugs himself. before he did that, he was still pretty redeemable, all in all. a troublemaker, but whatever. he could've turned around. but he discovered drugs and the fast life and he just realized he never wanted to look back. he didn't want to tie down to anything. being tied down means being clean, and he doesn't want that. he can't live without drugs now that he's discovered them.

the denial is so real, LOL

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hi! i'm the one who asked the previous question ^^' i'm doing well, thankfully :3 i'm really glad you answered!!

I ended up thinking of a few more questions... hehe

how did namgyu find out that the reader wasn't living with her roommate anymore? I couldn't help but imagine some nosy neighbor seeing gyu going into her new apartment... lollll.

and one last question, i think... will we get any interactions between namgyu and the reader's boyfriend? I'd be so excited to see something like that

that's all! and sorry for rambling so much 😭

hii!! don’t worry i always try to answer! although it does sometimes take me a bit to get back. thanks for your patience ^_^ i love answering questions, so feel free to ask any, anytime!

honestly, he just showed up at her old apartment one day, and myeong-suk was just like “damn dude… she didn’t tell you? well i’m not gonna tell you either. take it up with her” and shut the door in his face, LOL. he worked it out with reader, of course

i didn’t plan any specific face to face interactions. but, of course, ye-jun will learn about nam-gyu soon enough, and that will be a whole thing. if i decide on a concrete ending for nam-gyu, then depending on what i do there, they mighttt maybe interact. aside from that, i wanted to keep them separate entities, mostly just for the whole “who is the other guy” thing to haunt them both ^_^

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wondering if reader will develop a bond with any other ppl in the games other than namgyu. also now im curious if hes stiil in contact with his parents 🫠

honestly i hadn’t planned who she may interact with or ally with in the games! but she won’t be a big fan of thanos… for reasons that will be clear soon. i was just going to go with what felt right inside the games ^_^ as for nam-gyu and his parents, you can imagine whatever you’d like! i might include a little tidbit somewhere, but i wasn’t planning on focusing much on his family life aside from his relationship with his sister :3 you can imagine that his parents are dead, no longer in his life, or maybe they’re all still in contact and do drugs together LMAO

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hey guys. i just wanna say with all this ao3 author fandom drama happening on twitter uhhh fuck ai, all my homies hate ai, i will never EVER use ai to augment, correct, or write things for me 💜 i am not that big of an author but i still just wanted to say it for anyone who may ever be hesitant. i read, i write, and i do it all by myself LOL. a bunch of my fics were unfortunately scraped in the great ai ao3 scraping of 2025, so if anything ever seems similar, you know why <3

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heeey how are you? I had a question about leave me waiting... will it ever be mentioned what happened to the reader's parents? I love your work <333

hi !! tbh right now i'm just going through the motions of life LOL but i'm sure i'll be better and back at it soon :3 how are you ^_^ (send me an ask if you're too scared to answer publicly... dw

reader's parents will be mentioned in future chapters! but don't worry, nothing happened to them. she just doesn't speak to them much, her plate is full with the new baby!! but she will be back into contact with them soon... (ominous intent)

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sorry about a bit of an absence from writing and such. i've had a lot on my plate lately. things should even out soon, and i'd like to try to get updates out for both rhetoric and leave me waiting soon! thanks for your patience ^_^

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one potential death i thought abt is reader in keys & knives (who ends up in blue) self exiting after finding a used knife. since nam-gyu was high on a killing spree, it would probably bring him back to reality in the most soul crushing way, as well as it being from her own hands. either that or finding her in lights out too late would be pretty interesting. (sry for yapping keep it up <3)

no worries about yapping! i’m running over every possibility of how she could die in the games. i will definitely keep these in mind as i consider ^_^ right now i’m leaning most towards a specific thing… but not saying, can’t spoil <3

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saw this and thought of leave me waiting so here guys LOL 😭

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im really curious as to how nam-gyu actually finds out abt readers death. Like does he find out in person, or online, or through a chain of ppl, mabey Myeong-suk idk but im so invested

she dies in the games, so he either watches it or hears it announced over the speakers. i haven’t figured out all the little details but i know 100% she dies in the games

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I'd love to read poor reader enjoying time with her friends!! SHE DESERVES IT GOD DAMN IT, step aside Nam-gyu it's girl time

LOL don’t worry, this update was full of her spending time with her friends ^_^ (and thinking about namgyu a little…) i hope you enjoy!!

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chapter eight of leave me waiting is out now on wattpad and ao3!

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