𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒆

my digital diary

[sydelleee]

life's too short

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it's been a long time since i wrote something here on tumblr. i don't know what happened to me. i just lost my motivation to write something even just a single sentence. that part of me is lost and i'm missing it. life seems strange lately, or maybe my mind is playing tricks on me again. i feel mentally tired and i just wanna sleep until i feel alive again.

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why is it so hard for me to document my life or write something about my day 🥲 how do you guys do that?

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finally woke up in my own bed 🌤 what a good morning!

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after 3 and a half day days, i am finally home. being away from home is draining and tiring, but i have no choice. i went to another city for our f2f classes. one thing i love about it is that i am much more independent without having my parents around. i have to budget my allowance and purchase things wisely. it's nice that i get to live with 2 of my friends. we were staying in a boarding house that we had rented. however, as much as i like it, i want to live alone in college next year. it's not that i don't want someone around. it's just my social battery runs out so quickly. i just want to be alone because i can do anything i want + i don't need to match my decision to theirs. anyway, it's just 2 months till the end of the school year, so wish me luck!

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bed weather for almost a week and it feels so cold. why is it always raining?

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one year with you ♡ ily always

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old classic songs really have the best lyrics 🥺

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when you are young they assume you know nothing

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if only i was born pretty and photogenic

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one of my comfort songs

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2.22.22 with my lover 💘

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raymond and i rarely have nice photos together 😭 i mean, how? aaahhh i really want to have cute pics with him

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i've been thinking about capturing every moment in my life because i want to have something to look back at the end of the year. i was never really the type of person who takes photo and videos in a day-to-day basis. on the other hand, i love photos and videos (strange, right?) i hope i won't fail on this one.

[sydelleee]

craving for a place where i really belong ☹ i feel so suffocated in here