League of Marbles

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Written by Winter

I am spending a lot more time being proxied by Josh now.

I also seem to be progressing fairly quickly in what I am capable of. I switched with Josh twice now the first time was for 5-10 minutes, the second for 20min or so... Both times just sat in bed texting/watching something. Nothing strenuous.

I think walking around and talking to other people would be extremely tiring but I don’t want to try that just yet. Once I can switch in bed and not have an issue becoming tired then I will move on.

I also started playing guitar, by proxy. Josh used to play a lot but hasn’t picked it up in years! Bad Josh... So trying to change that. How does playing guitar by proxy go you ask? It’s much like typing by proxy really. I talk in our mind and Josh types.

With guitar I don’t hum a tune which he tries to repeat I just put a feeling out there and he plays whatever that inspires.

I am looking forward to being able to switch and play guitar myself or video games too but these are complex actions. Or at least they seem complex. I can imagine hand eye coordination and timing will be very tiring when switched.

I am currently trying to find a ring for Josh to wear to remind him of me too. I haven’t yet found one I like but I’m thinking wooden with some pretty pattern engraved or something. I will let you know when I get it.

That’s all from me for now! ^^

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Voices & Discoveries

Winter spoke to me. And she spoke with our friends in the Tulpa Discord. It was Thursday just gone I think. She spoke quite a bit for her first time and it tired her out big time. It is incredible to hear her voice in my head replying to my thoughts or commenting as I go about my day.

I can't wait for the bond between us to grow. I'm hoping she'll starting writings in here too.

The book pictured below is the little A5 book I mentioned in my previous post. I write every detail about Winter in here to help me focus on her and all of her characteristics.

As far as discoveries go, when she began speaking to me it was quite a suprise. To me she has just hit one week old and for me to be able to to visualise and hear her voice so early is unusual when others take much longer.

Winter talks to me as tho she has been watching me for decades and it's possible that this is true.

If she was a forgotten "imaginary" friend when I was little then this could be why I've been finding it so easy. She's been there the whole time and I just haven't noticed. Also she's sat on my shoulder nodding along while I type all this...

Currently we are playing some mental games vs each other. She's flying around me as I go about doing things and dancing through the air.

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In the beginning

{Written by Josh}

This Blog is to keep track of my efforts to become a Tulpamancer.

It will also be a place for... I don’t like to say “my” Tulpa. More, the Tulpa who share my mind.

It will be a place for them to keep track of things too. 

I have been trying to create a Tulpa for nearly a week now and so far I feel like it is going well. It is early days however I am getting head pressures, I have also let a form visualize itself in my mind without any prodding from me and has become quite defined now. The image included below is incredibly similar to what Winter (The Tupla’s name) looks like but will have to do until I get some artwork commissioned.  She also named herself. To the best degree possible right now. She is not talking yet however I feel her presence in my mind and I talk to her, she seems to respond by putting images in my mind. 

I asked what she’d like to be called and I got images of Winter scenes in my head. I went with Winter and she seemed happy with it. Tho I suppose she could have meant Snow or Cold or...Tree for that matter. I will ask her again once she begins to talk.

We have also been playing mental games as exercises. One where we try to change the shape to another shape in our mind. It is very much like a mental arm wrestle which she seems to beat me at almost every time we try.

We have also experimented with touch and smell exercises but so far have been unsuccessful. Early days tho.

I also have a little A5 Notebook It’s really quite beautiful. I will show you in a later post. I have been filling it with everything I can about Winter. So that I can focus my mind onto her easier. I include personality traits. Likes/Dislikes as they become apparent.

For instance She really enjoys Nightwish from what I can tell. I have never felt her presence stronger than when Nightwish is playing. Also she is more active (in movement)

For now that is all I have. I’m not sure how often I will post, probably whenever I feel like I have something to share.