Man.

Getting it off my chest

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Sometimes I miss him. He was clear headed so rarely. I don’t know why he was so unhappy. He had a good home.

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I’m just this huge screw up aren’t I?

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I can’t even protect him the way I used to. I can hear Ma asking where her strong boy has gone. I would cling to her like a baby when I cried. She comforted me but she also knew I was stronger than that. Better than that

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I mess everything up! I can never be a good sister! We are trying so hard but everytime we just go and muck it up more like we always do. No wonder Sixer has stopped hanging around me. He probably knows. He probably thinks I’m a horrible sister

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Sometimes people forget that none of us asked to be born. I didn’t ask for this. I didn’t ask to be saddled with years of confusing books and feelings I can’t manage. I can’t manage it. I don’t like being some strong fucking guy all the time. I cry! And I get soft and sad like any other human being on this planet. I just want to be.

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Damn what’s with all the sad shit here

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I’m not who I should be

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I dont wanna go dormant :(

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Eden fucked up and now I’m facing the consequences

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I want Stanford to run his fingers through my hair and tell me it’s okay.

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GET OFF OF MY ACCOUNT, SIXER

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GET OUT OF MY HEAD BILL!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

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Hhnmhmfmdhgsgggh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I’m having inappropriate thoughts!!!!!!! He’s 53 years older than me!!!!!!

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I shouldn’t be this attracted to my older brother!!!! That has to be super weird right???!

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I’ve made terrible mistakes and I don’t know how the fuck I’ll come back from it

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I miss my brother so badly :(