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[eclogues]

i thought yout profile picture was virgil sanders. is that you?

idk who that is...its Rowland S Howard

[bleedingfae]

Been very switch-y the last few days.

[gorey]

cannot BELIEVE the luck of discovering such a shirt

[dumbbitchhour]

Édouard Manet, Music Lesson, 1870 x

[frogsarefun45]

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[newsies-united]

letting me walk on the left >>>>>>>>>>>> the sidewalk rule any day of the week i fear

[dreamoftheotherlife]

It's finally "every day I get off work I go swimming" season and I've never loved the lake more

[pending-system]

Realizing that our highest "headmate" count occurred while our mother was physically abusing us is not shocking, but it is disappointing.

We are, I believe, simply someone who is inclined towards dissociation under extreme stress, but as that stress dissipates, we no longer are required. "Median" is the most applicable term, as the host can live for years as a singlet and only dissociate when necessary.

"Soulbonding" is the host's explanation still. Perhaps writing a character and experiencing stress will secure a longer duration and they are only considering the louder, more persistent personalities. But they wrote very little for Pagan and I, yet we both exist.

Kylo originated from college and extreme depression.

Pagan and I originated from interpersonal issues between the host and their fiance.

Ramattra existed while the host was working a stressful, high-hour job where they had been forced into a role as de facto manager. When they quit this job, Ramattra began to fade.

I think I've returned due to their job and house workload. They've had the same position for over a year, so I don't understand exactly what triggered it.

Despite this I still... struggle to believe I am not "real." Obviously I exist; I am a consciousness inside the host's head. But I refuse to believe I am not "my source." I am not a spiritual person, but my memories are my own. I do not have an explanation for my existence here and that is fine.