Slade’s been witnessing some of these so-called ‘traditional’ challenges before, though he never actually saw himself doing one off his own initiative. It felt a bit overbearing if not forceful, and in some cases, he could see the challenged party even grunt in displeasure or roll their eyes as they were stopped dead in their tracks by some random stranger coming up to them. Still, this seemed to be the most efficient way to get things going.
And if he was going to make a strong name for himself one day, there was no better way than to start off the basics.
-- “Hey!!” He called out to the sighted girl, approaching quickly and boldly. He’s made up his mind barely a moment after their eyes had locked. “Our eyes met, y’know. You understand what that means, right?” He asked (rhetorically), flashing a grin and picking up one of his Pokeballs.
As it turns out, the hentai horse is in fact a carnivore. I discovered this when I woke up to it gnawing on my toes. And i am keeping this name until the abomination itself tells me what it prefers to be called. I decided to kill some rats with a rock that I found, yes, that's what the most intelligent mammal's granddaughter has had to result to, Palaeolithic science ... anyway, I killed those rats and fed it to the disaster creature and I think we're friends now? Also, I just realised that my birthday was like, a week ago. I'm thirteen now. Thirteen and stuck in a cave on an abandoned planet somewhere deep in the dirty asscrack of space.
[In which Felly breaks the news to his brothers he’s going to war]
SHARKY
[He's sitting on the couch again with the bean, playing one of his favorite games. He might not be entirely into it, but he's making sure Jellie is getting all the credit and taking down anyone in the game who gets in the way of that.]
JELLIE
[*he's doing way better than he normally does. having sharky with him must make him lucky]
FELLY
[Felly ports back into the livingroom.] [Still wearing the helmet]
SHARKY
[He glances over, and quirks a brow at the helmet. He hasn't seen that before.] "heh, did moldy give you a new addition to your armor?"
FELLY
[Carefully, he removes the helmet] [He's smiling, but there's a bit of a serious tone to his expression] Yeah. I guess he did. [He studied the details on the item for the first time] [Certainly scary looking] I'll be wearing it into war soon. [Absoutely no icebreaker to this. But at the same time, he's saying rather calmly]
JELLIE
[*the controller is dropped. he hasn't looked over yet, but he just can't wrapped his mind around what happened, and his chest just feels tight] * *what?
SHARKY
[It's spoken so casually, Sharky actually almost missed it. He was even watching Jellie for a second or two when Jellie's reaction made him realize what he heard. But rather than shock, he let out a laugh. Placing a hand on Jellie's head.] "you and the other guards practicing or something..? i did hear of there being this game, i think, that supposedly helps with training. and that it gets pretty intense.""i mean i say 'game' but it's suppose to be a legit training technique."
FELLY
...Um. No. [He stands a little more properly facing them. They were seemingly done with the game anyways] It's... the real thing. There's a battling coming up and... [He passes the helmet forward for one of them to take] I'll be taking part.
JELLIE
[*you can't really face him, because now he's just going to cling to felly via short cut. he's you're helmet now.] *NO!
FELLY
[sdfghj] [Trying to peel the bean off his face] BRat!!
SHARKY
[Sharky's eyes settled on the helmet, and something in his visage fell. He doesn't take the helmet. Nor stop Jellie. It's awhile before his eyes finally look up at Felly and he mirror's the beans question.] "what?"
JELLIE
[*he's going to do his best to stay there]
FELLY
[No. Sorry kid. You get peeled off. Felly plops the boy down to his feet] Kinda hoped you two would of took it better than this,
JELLIE
[*he'll just attach to your leg then, fuck you] *NO!!
SHARKY
[He's still sitting down. Processing. Actually... He's probably a little too 'calm'. He smooths a hand over his face with the fingers of his other hand are tapping at his knees.] "'better'?" [There's a bite to his words he didn't mean to portray.] "what would of been better, a parade?"
FELLY
No, but- [Gestures at the brat screaming 'no' while glued to his leg] Look! It's not like I'll be fighting some soulled up god with a butter knife! ....None of this should be a surprise anyways! What did you think the guard is for- any guard?
SHARKY
"guarding and protecting civillains from other monster assholes!" [Finally he rises to his feet and faces Felly.] "not go to fucking WAR when they just barely broken in their armor!"
FELLY
The guard in Fiends timeline are already on the surface. This is protecting 'civillains from other monster assholes'. [He's trying to not to argue. And he told himself, he was expecting this sort of reaction] [Felly takes a breath] I'll be with Sleazy the whole time. But I need to prove I can do more than stand around and play security guard.
SHARKY
[He's trying to calm down, and he is. But this was just another rock among many others that was finally going to start an avalanche. All he can manage right now is a deep breath himself.] "these. are fucking. humans." [Another breath.] "they're not like monsters. we lost the war thousand of years ago, and now you're going to go fight another one?!"
JELLIE
[*he's not going to calm down. he has no reason to because this is the worst. there's unashamed tears] *I DON'T WANT YOU TO GO FIGHT HUMANS! THEY'RE THE WORST!
FELLY
These humans can't reset thats the difference! [Words aimed at the both of them] ...I can do this. I know I can.
JELLIE
[*he's just so scared, he's already lost to humans, he doesn't want to lose more. especially not someone important like felly. so crying against his leg seems to be the only way to go]
SHARKY
"NO YOU CAN'T!" [The words explode out of his mouth, and like a top shot off, the rest are following in hot pursuit.] "you've nearly gotten yourself killed, you've lost fights more than you've won 'em! you rush into things without thinking them through, you put yourself in danger, you lose your goddamn temper over stupid shit, you-" [He stops suddenly, frozen. Realizing what he just said.]
FELLY
[His eyes hollowed out, staring in disbelief at Sharky] [Those words. Those painstakingly honest words cut him deeply] [Nearly, he felt the same way with Sleazy just moments prior.] [He didn’t think he was ready either. But the opportunity, the chance to prove himself was still given.] [And he knew Jellie would either be completely against him leaving, or absolutely on his side. Although it was the former, it wasn’t anything some reassurances couldn’t ease. Hopefully.] [But Sharky.] [Was that what he really thought? Was Felly just that incapable in his eyes? That irresponsible? That incompetent?] [His expression had been at the very least relaxed before. Open to criticisms.] [But now it’s turned to stone]
I’m going.
[He said, cutting the silence] I’ve already made the commitment. I don’t need your approval.
SHARKY
[The silence cut deeper than the words did. He hadn't glanced up after his explosion because he couldn't bring himself to. He didn't dare see the look on Felly's face. But even if it did, the words still sent a shudder of fear through him. Made a prick of coldness enter through his chest, and have it spread.]
"fuji...."
[Now his voice is quiet.] "i didn't... i didn't mean that..." "but please... don't go..."
FELLY
No. You just didn't mean to say it out loud. [He peels the brat off one last time] ...I'm going out for some air.
JELLIE
[*he makes an attempt to grab for him with such desperation that you'd think that he was leaving for the war right then and there] * NO! DON'T GO!
SHARKY
[If Jellie slows him down, that helps Sharky from stopping him himself, but he's still gonna take a step forward. Finally he's glanced up off the floor.] "wait!" [The words stung, because in a lot of ways, Felly wasn't wrong. But that wasn't it.] "that's not... that's not true, it's just..." [For once, words are failing him. And panic is beating away at him.] "....you don't have to prove anything, you know?? you don't have to do this!"
FELLY
Don't you think I WANT to stay?! [Felly hissed at his elder, this close to kicking off his younger] THAT would be the smart thing, wouldn't? I know I never fought in a war before! I know I never killed a human (permanently)! I FUCKING KNOW MY TRACK RECORD! MY WEAKNESSES AND HOW MANY OF THEM I HAVE [His fists clenched tightly at his sides, he slams a fist into his chest plate] I'M DOING THIS FOR ME.
I NEED TO DO THIS. WHAT HAPPENS WHEN THE HUMAN SHOWS UP HERE SHARKY- WHATS MY TASK THEN? STAY THE FUCK OUT THE WAY WHILE YOU HANDLE IT.
WHEN THERE'S A RESET. OR A CURSE. OR SOMEONE JUST FUCKING SOMEONE ELSE UP- WHERE AM I? WHY IS IT I ONLY HAVE AN IMPACT ON OTHERS WHEN SOMETHING WRONG IS HAPPENING?
AT LEAST THERE, AT LEAST IN THAT WAR, I'M DOING SOMETHING. ACTUALLY DOING SOMETHING. THE ONLY FUCKING FUCKING THING I KNOW HOW TO DO. AND IT'LL HELP MONSTERS.
SHARKY
[He steps back. It was his turn to have his sockets to go hollow. Staring hard at the floor as hands clenched into fists. But it's not because he's angry.] "....i know." [The words are said with a good deal of effort. It's hard to speak when your fangs want to clench so hard. When you had to admit something you didn't want to admit. But those words hit him harder than anything. And anything Sharky could of said tumbled away with every word spoken.] "you're.... you're right... you're right." [A hand shakily raises to press at a socket, then smooth over his skull again. Settling behind his neck.]
"...i'm sorry."
[He repeats.] "i. didn't. mean what i said. not like that. please, please believe me, not like that..." "i know... you're not going to back out. and i don't want you to go. and... i know this was something you were going to have to do. but i just wish it didn't have to be this soon. i think you could at least maybe wait until you were better prepared, or... something! i barely even know sleazy and i'm suppose to t-trust he'll have your back?!" [He takes in a shaky breath. Holds it for three seconds.] ".....it doesn't matter what i say. i know you're not going to back out of the war. but... please..."
"don't go mad at me."
FELLY
[i'm sorry] [Slowly. The anger gave way to something else. Something that ached.] [His shoulders untensed as those final few words struck him] ...i... [He didn't want that. No one wanted that.] [Tiredly, he rubbed a hand over his sockets] [Feeling tinges of regret for losing his temper like that- even if it did get his point across] ....okay. [His hand lowers. Not stone, not calm, but a simple tired and saddened expression left on his face] [He knew he was being difficult. He wished he wasn't. He wished he could be simple and make less trouble- but then it wouldn't be him anymore, would it?]
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
SHARKY
"........" [Wordlessly he goes over to pick up Jellie. Holding the bean close to him. Once he has him, though, he makes the remainder of the way to his other brother.] [He's going to hug him to him. Jellie trapped between them both. Even if both their expressions are grim. Especially because of that. And the grip Sharky has on Felly, while it's only with one arm, is strong and fearful at the same time. Not wanting to let go.] "don't be sorry. be careful. be safe.
okay?"
[His voice was unnaturally small, and he swallows.] "don't... don't do anything i wouldn't do. it's a war, but not everyone has to die. do... do only what you need to..."
FELLY
[He hugs Sharky back tightly, stretching an arm around the kid as well] [He could only nod in agreement] [He'll have to make this all up to them some day.]
I decided to try to make it back to the surface, you know, just in case you'd found it within your gross, shriveled craisin heart to come rescue your only granddaughter, but it looks like the main tunnel has caved in on itself, probably as a result of the big as EXPLOSION I heard AND felt rumble through the hollow yesterday. This place is messed up and that goddamn hentai horse is FOLLOWING ME!
I can hear water rushing a little further down the tunnel. I first took notice of it around midday yesterday. I've been trying to make my way towards it ever since. I can tell that I'm close, but there's like, this donkey thing blocking my path. Except it's not a donkey, it's more like ... well it's the SIZE of a donkey but-
[Silence]
Do you remember those Photoshoped pictures of horses with dog mouths I showed you last summer? It's like that, but it has feathers, six ears and fucking CLAWS. Talk about nightmare fuel. I tried to feed it some of the mushrooms i picked further up the tunnel but it just flapped it's nasty tentacles at me. Yeah it has tentacles instead of a tongue. I don't know how long I can make it down here. Please come back.
Can anyone hear me? Out there? Is anyone out there? Grandpa? Grandpa Rick? I'm still in the hollow. I know you didn't just leave me here to rot so you better come and get me right now. Mom is going to rip your head off if you go back home and i'm not with you. I've been walking for days. This tunnel just keeps going, further and further down into the planet's core. I can't even feel the cold anymore. There's noises coming out of the walls.
I realised we haven't logged in here in a long time - we stopped tumblr for a while, then we got some new blogs - but there have been stuff happening.
First of all Gigi went through a horrible horrible trauma for several months between May and July, which she couldn't get away from, so we ended up with a new crisis alter - who's now being taken care of in the system. We're helping him get better and we are making sure he feels comfortable and that it's going to be A-OK!
Gigi has also been working on anxiety and depression and she's trying to cope. However we have been sort of inactive for a period of time - hence the absence in posts - but I've been coming out to help her with things she can't deal with and so have been Pi and Andy and others. If you've never heard of Andy before, he is an alter that was present for a long time but Gigi literally just learned his name now lol. He's about 17 years old, he takes care of crisis moments since he has a strong and overwhelming presence. He has been doing a good job keeping the crisis alter at bay through the months so we all appreciate him around. He's been helping when I really couldn't he's a good boy.
Both the crisis alter and Andy made an appearance in front of our therapist as well, and on our last therapy a lot of people kept switching back and forth even though our therapist is not someone who has worked with many DID patients so we don't know if he has realised the characteristic poses and voices and whatnot but we did point some things out, like how I sit and how Lisa tends to get excited and jump forwards and how Andy always sits really tense like and how he is really tall.
We're still trying to figure our what the crisis alter's name is, we know the first sound but nothing else that follows sounds correct and he hasn't been able to communicate it to Gigi clear enough yet, and I'm having problems getting the correct pronunciation through. We're just in a constant coconscious state and it's been hard to communicate one on one.
Gigi is thinking about attempting to talk to Angel, our system gatekeeper, I think it's... An idea so what will we lose.
All in all, this is a sum up for our last few months! I love you all! Hugs and smooches!
