all the people that i would’ve graduated with are done with school today. i would be done with nursing school too, if this professor didn’t kick me out of their program last fall, and it’s heartbreaking to see that despite that all my work, sweat, tears, stress, the friends i’ve lost due to my own mistakes and all the people i’ve hurt by devoting every second of my life to this program and putting everyone and everything else second, it all meant nothing and i have to start from scratch. the mistakes that i made that caused that professor to hate me so much? i’m trying to fix them. tomorrow, this new nursing school away from home is supposed to finally call me about my transcripts and i find out if i can afford going there. tomorrow, my dad also finds out if he keeps his job that’s been supporting our family for nearly ten years now or not, after the hospital got rid of many ER doctors and is going to be replacing them with new ones. essentially, i find out if he lost his job. and then on friday, i’m supposed to take the exam that will define whether or not this school will accept me. i’m terrified and worried about what is to come. please send good thoughts, prayer, whatever you can. please. i miss you all, so, SO much. You all mean so much to me, and thank you to the people that have stuck by. you are all the best.
