#;speculation

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// I’ve watched this scene a couple more times since Last Jedi and again tonight. With everything else from Rey’s force vision occurring already and since we learned what happened the night the temple was destroyed in TLJ, I fully expect this to come back around come IX 

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amethyst, charoite, fossil, lapis lazuli & malachite!!

amethyst: what my muse would most like to be able to shape-shift into

The first thing that comes to mind is a cheetah or like a smaller ‘big’ cat like a puma or a cougar bc Tulip’s smol but if u mess with her she’s give a fuckin’ wildcat scream and rip u to shreds : ) ) )) 

charoite: who my muse looks up to

Nobody in Annville, that’s for sure. There are people she respects, like Mosie or Walter, but I’d say she looks up to fictional strong ladies like Thelma and Louise, Sarah Connor, Ellen Ripley, Alabama Worley, Eartha Kitt’s Catwoman (and Eartha Kitt herself), Mildred Pierce, Margo Channing, Hannie Caulder, Vienna (from Johnny Guitar) as well as female musicians like Joplin, Joan Jett, Billie Holiday, etc, and historical figures like Annie Oakley, etc. 

fossil: what my muse's dream job is

On one side I think she’d love to be the boss chef (bc she totally thinks she’s an expert chef) in a little resturaunt, but on the other side I think she’d love to be something extreme like a jet pilot, or a professional bounty hunter. She’d never admit that sometimes she wishes she could design her own clothes (running from Ruth’s comment about her love of her own, unique fashion) because she loves cultivating her own style sm. 

lapis lazuli: where 'home' is to my muse

Home’s wherever her chevelle is. I def. think when she’s not toting Carlos in the trunk, she pretty much has a mini storage warehouse in that trunk. Clothes, toiletries, toilet paper galore, booze, cans of food, some old mementos. I think Tulip’s never had a true home, so she’s learned to carry what she needs with her, but I think the chevelle’s a home base. Home is where Jesse is (when he’s with her, not doing priest shit and pretending he doesn’t wanna tap that ass), like all she needs is his scent on her clothes and his voice in her general vincinity and his crumpled chili cheese fritos bags around and she’s happy as can be. 

malachite: what my muse as a child thought they would be when they grew up

Tulip def. wanted to be a cowboy for a long time when she was little, but she also wanted to be a firefighter or a policeman (sometimes she prob. wanted to be president let’s be honest). The last thing she was thinking on was being a mom or something girly like this precious lil girl wanted to break all expectations and do something rough and tough and she probably always thought Jesse would be her partner in whatever she chose to do r.i.p 

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🙋friendships (cuz I'm a meme ho)

Tulip is obviously the mom friend, whether she’ll own up to it or not I mean like look how she literally became Cassidy’s mother when she passed him off to Emily while she went after Carlos like she might not show it but even a passing friend she sees once every few days is a big deal for her. She’s loyal as fuck and she’d kill anyone who hurt her friends, just as she’d expect them to do for her. 

I really hope we see Amy in the AMC adaptation because those two had a prime fucking friendship. Like Amy legit had a gun out ready to kill the fucker who hurt her bestie and took care of her whenever she needed it even if she flirted with Jesse lmfao 

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❣ ✖

❣:Describe a way that will earn affection (whether platonic or romantic) from them.

Burn in front of her boyfriend for her? Honestly Tulip’s got a love for misfits, she likes people who know who they are, stand their own ground. Someone who shows loyalty and dedication to her is someone she’ll appreciate. Someone who opens up to her, whether she’ll admit it or not, is someone she will have some measure of care for. For love, she requires someone who will give their undying loyalty to her. She needs to know they’ve got her back as much as she’s got theirs, a proper partner. 

✖ :Describe a way to make them uneasy or apprehensive.

It’s damned hard but she hates when people know more than she does and uses it to bait her. Any threat towards Jesse will send her hackles raising and suspicions rising. Self confidence and suaveness also deter her. 

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۞:Are there any inner demons they can never seem to get rid of? What are they?

Probably the events of her childhood, the longtime resentment towards her racist classmates. If someone fucks with her, she doesn’t let it go. Her jealousy and possessiveness of Jesse is also something that will never go away. The child that never was def. haunts her, she blames herself and will never not blame herself. Killing Carlos is just an attempt to loosen the guilt on her own back. 

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☢ :Describe a thought or dream that would cause them to have a mental meltdown.

Shadows over her bed while she’s paralyzed and  the image of a running Jesse Custer fade from the back of a car when she’s a child. A screaming baby in a room that she can’t find after the Carlos incident. Her alone in a room with Jesse. No matter what she does or says, he won’t look or acknowledge her. Cassidy perched on Jesse’s chest, blood in his mouth and Jesse’s throat torn out. Flashbacks to the times she and Jesse have been caught and tortured, Jesse crying out in the other room, a final gunshot. 

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☤ :Is there anything about their health they are continuously on edge about? Something they disregard?

She doesn’t care about her health, doesn’t even care about injuries that aren’t entirely fatal. Jesse’s the one that usually mothers her about that. She does, however, think about the future a lot, wonders if she’d ever be able to have a child again. She disregards her own personal safety when it comes to Jesse or anyone she cares about. She has and will take a bullet for him and give him a grin after, tells him: “You owe me.”