Imagine Avery’s family coming into the room to get him to watch fireworks with em (it was NEW YEARS 😭) and seeing their son absolutely destroyed. Imagine Avery knowing he can’t tell them anything about it because of how crazy it would sound, how he knows Derek won’t ever get to see the fireworks and he couldn’t make it to the new year, the fact it’s technically his fault because he’s such a head empty person it made him the perfect vessel
YES i think the most horrible terrible part of it for avery is that he feels so so stupid. he can’t even solve basic puzzles and obvious temptations that the only thing that helped him was d3rlord guiding him. and not only does he probably feel bad about depending on this stranger, more so a stranger that maybe possibly has his mind destroyed beyond repair already, he feels bad after it all that, because he was so dumb, that he couldn’t save d3rlord.
he feels horrible because if maybe avery was a little smarter, maybe if his mind was less clean, maybe d3rlord wouldnt have needed to sarcfice himself for avery after all? maybe if avery knew how to solve the puzzles, maybe if he was like d3rlord, or maybe he could’ve figured out a way to save them both? maybe, just maybe, if he was a little bit more like d3rlord— he wouldn’t have fell for the most obvious trick in the world. maybe it was because of d3rlord that avery lived, but did he really want that? maybe it could’ve been because of avery, d3rlord got to live instead
Still avery ur fucking insane
