#{outofanguish}

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Where to Find Me Now

Hi all,

I know I pretty much fell off the face of the earth here but a lot has happened in the past few years which led me to become even more of a social media hermit LOL. Right now if you still want to chat, vibe or RP you can find me on discord at .theoddball. Hope everyone on here is still doing well!

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Help Kaylee and Al get into a home, organized by Kaylee Turner

Hi, Im Kaylee and My partners name is Al. We are a visibly queer, disabled coup… Kaylee Turner needs your support for Help Kaylee and Al get into a home

{I know I’m not really on tumblr anymore... But if anyone can lend a hand to my friend that would be great. I would hate to see them lose their home again because of stupid housing rules and departments. }

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Fanservice and the Ani/Manga Industry

{Going to be putting this under Read more because of reasons. Mainly I have NO idea how long this rant will be. Just that it may or may not get a little heated. XD}

{So yeah. Fanservice. People either love it or hate it. I personally hate it as I have found it rather problematic over the past few years. The main issue I have noticed is it lends itself to people shipping minors with adults. Which is gross. I should not have to extrapolate on that. But it has happened and it really disappoints me that we as a society still accept things like this. None of it is okay whatsoever. 

Another gripe about fanservice is character design. If a female character is large breasted AT LEAST have it proportional to their body. 

Take Seri here from K Project. This is fanservice at it’s worst. The outfit, and the large breasts do nothing for her. Her body proportions are WAY out of wack. And for fucks sake at least let the poor woman wear shorts or leggings under that short ass dress. 

Admittedly with Chris from Symphogear here I am a bit biased, but at least the breasts here are more proportionate to her body and actually somewhat make sense. Of course Japanese school girl uniforms are inherently sexist in my opinion but that’s a rant for another day. Once again Symphogear is a favorite series of mine so I do have a bias, but I am more than willing to admit that the character design in it can be considered problematic in its own ways. At the very least here Chris looks like a fairly normal human while Seri is just... Eugh. 

Of course male characters are no different, in a sense that it can lead to people having ridiculously high standards for how a teenage boy should look. Let’s be real. Unless they are an athlete or some sort of super solider or what have you no 16 year old boy has a 6 or fucking 8 pack. It’s unrealistic and people need to realize that body shaming does not just happen to woman, it can and will happen to men too. Fanservice also leads to double standards that are impossible to reach. Like if you really want to draw women with big boobs, don’t be a fucking coward and make it proportionate. We need more thick girls and not just muscular ones. As someone who’s struggled all her life with weight issues their needs to be more chubby characters for positivity. That it’s okay not to be a size 0 or whatever and that no one will call you fat because you can’t really fit into normal size skinny jeans.

At the end of the day, all I really want is for fanservice to stop sexualizing minors because it’s fucking gross. And for the ani/manga industry to start embracing body positivity more. That whatever your body shape is no one should judge you for it. As long as you’re happy in your own body then nothing else should matter. Of course, more LGBT+ representation would be great, but that’s a whole other issue in itself. With large industries such as ani/manga sometimes you really do have to take baby steps.}

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I come bearing distractions. How about 7 and 24??

7. What shirt are you wearing?

{My favorite hoodie atm. It’s so comfortable oml}

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

{BRUH omg XD I love sandwiches so much... Anyways if I could only have one it would be turkey with a shit ton of veggies and some mayo. I would have gone for pastrami but god knows my stomach can’t handle that much red meat XD}

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1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you? 2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you? 3. The person you would never want to meet? 4. What is your favorite word? 5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be? 6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought? 7. What shirt are you wearing? 8. What do you label yourself as? 9. Bright room or dark room? 10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

1. {I don’t really doubt the exitence of others??? I mean anything is possible.}

2. {On a scale of 1 to 5, I’d say 1 because I need practically pitch-black darkness to sleep.}

3. {Hmm that’s an odd one... Let’s just say I wouldn’t ever want to meet my doppelganger XD}

4. {Favorite Word? probably onomatopoeia. Ridiculously convoluted word with a pretty simple definition.}

5. {If I were a type of tree I would want to be a willow tree. Let fairies build houses out of my trunk and all that good stuff.}

6. {The first thing I thought when I looked in the mirror this morning was ‘fuck... I don’t really want to work today and deal with people.}

7. {I’m wearing a very comfy hoodie I got at Walmart.}

8. {I label myself as kinda out there and maybe a bit eccentric? And ofc an absolute memelord.}

9. {I definitely prefer a dark room.}

10. {At midnight last night I was asleep XD being responsible.}

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34, 47, 63

34. What was your last dream about?

{Ah fuck I honestly couldn’t tell you. All I can say is it was probably very weird and had no rhyme or reason.}

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

{ooof toughie. Maybe... Why am I so hard on myself? I don’t need to be, I just am. And it does cause the occasional mood drop.}

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?  

{DRAGONS!!!!!! Need I say more?}

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Phil swift <3

{djksla;Asf PFFF way to call me out XD JK. Tbh it may be fun to have him as a muse for April Fool’s day. Might actually do that next year. :3 }

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Top 5 favourite movies?

{This one is a bit easier for me lmao XD

1. Donnie Darko

2. Scream

3. The Candyman

4. Blazing Saddles

5. Lord of the Rings series

Thanks for the ask friendo!}