blinking my beautiful brown eyes at you so sneetly do you want to share your ilya giving shane a pelvic massage thoughts
Nick I am SO sorry this took so long but it was so hard to put all my ideas into words (I am rusty!) so I hope you enjoy my manifesto :) (also please excuse any typos I typing on a bad keyboard).
Okay to preface I want to say that I love projecting my own issues onto fictional characters and therefore I think that my good close personal friend Shane Hollander has a lot of pelvic floor tension. I actually looked it up and apparently pelvic floor dysfunction is very common in athletes - so this makes sense! I think for Shane being a professional athlete plays a big role but also I think a lot of it is mental. Stress, anxiety, repression, shame. Yeah.
I can imagine Shane maybe during the hookup era starting to get some signs of pelvic floor tension - maybe tailbone pain, things like that - then starting to maybe experience some pain during masturbation, maybe painful orgasms. If he offhandedly mentioned the symptoms (other than the sex part) to a team PT they might suggest he see a pelvic floor PT.
I think for sure Shane would tell himself that he's just seeing the PF PT for the back pain and stuff and that the sex stuff doesn't matter. He just can't have it interfering with hockey.
So he goes and they tell him that he's got a hypertonic pelvic floor and give him some stretches (maybe this is how he started doing yoga...) and external release but I can imagine him being like. Um. Internal release is not necessary. Thank you. But they convince him to buy a pelvic floor wand and teach him how to use it. For hockey, Shane.
So I imagine Shane trying to do this whole relaxation thing and doing some yoga etc and maybe using a foam roller on his thighs, his glutes, etc. then trying to use the pelvic floor wand. And it does work a bit! But I think he would be very in his head about it and that would cause him to just. Keep getting more tense.
Flash forward to next time Ilya's in Montreal and Shane forgets about the pelvic floor wand in his drawer and when Ilya goes to get a condom he is like. Hollander. Is this your dildo. I hope you weren't hoping my dick looked like this. And Shane is embarrassed but eventually Ilya coaxes it out of him. And Ilya is a bit concerned that Shane felt pain when they slept together but Shane is like no no it's not you it's a medical thing blah blah. And Ilya's like is it helping? and Shane's like oh a bit I don't know if I'm doing it right and Ilya's like okey. I will help. I know pussies Shane. Is no big deal.
And the first time I imagine it’s good. Ilya doesn’t really know what he’s doing but he fingers Shane for ages and massages and it does help a lot. Then they fuck and they both go on their merry way. However! The next time Shane is in Boston, Ilya’s like “How is your pussy?” and Shane’s like “That’s not - um - it’s still sort of the same” and Ilya’s like “I want to try something” and Shane is like ??? but he trusts Ilya so he’s like… sure.
Ilya has done RESEARCH. He has Shane lay face down on the bed and he gives him what starts off as a pretty normal massage with oil. He starts at the neck and shoulders and works his way down. But he gives a LOT of extra attention to Shane’s lower back, his glutes, his thighs. Has Shane flip over and starts again. Massages his chest, his stomach, spends a lot of time on his lower belly and abs, then back down to his legs again.
Shane meanwhile has no idea what’s happening. It feels amazing but this is so different from anything they’ve done before. He keeps his eyes closed because he’s almost scared of seeing the look on Ilya’s face.
Once Ilya is done massaging (he still hasn’t touched Shane’s pussy) he helps him stretch. They’re both professional athlete’s, they’ve had trainers do stuff like this with this all the time. But Shane is completely naked, and Ilya gently helps him bring one knee to his chest and holds it there, watches Shane’s face for signs of discomfort, quietly asks if he’s okay when Ilya uses his body weight to press him into the stretch more. Then the other knee. Then Ilya has Shane bring both of his knees to his chest, knees apart, and Shane’s pussy is completely exposed and he feels sort of embarrassed but also he feels amazing.
Once Ilya is done stretching Shane, he makes him lie with his knees bent and legs open. Okay. Shane has done this many times for Ilya. He closes his eyes again as Ilya’s big, strong hands start massaging his inner thighs, moving inward, applying firm pressure to the area where his groin meets his inner thighs. Nobody has ever given this type of attention to Shane’s body and it feels so different. Ilya hasn’t touched his tdick or his hole but as he moves inwards the sensation from the deep pressure radiates deep into Shane, through his pelvic floor and walls and he can almost feel it in his stomach. It’s strange and almost uncomfortable but it’s also driving Shane crazy.
After what feels like hours, Ilya’s big warm hand cups Shane’s pussy fully, presses gentle pressure on the entire thing, and Shane instinctively bucks into it, wanting more stimulation on his tdick, and Ilya just tuts at him and is like “not yet, Hollander, so impatient” and uses his other hand to press Shane’s hip down.
So Ilya then uses his thumbs and begins to gently massage either side of Shane’s pussy lips, and Shane is making these quiet noises that he might not even know he’s making. And Ilya is a little bit mesmerised because he’s spent a lot of time down here but he’s never spent the time on any partner to feel their bones and muscles beneath his fingers like this, never felt their muscle twitch ever so slightly, never seen their pussy so wet and inviting and just stared at it like he is now. He wants to taste Shane so badly but he can’t. Not yet.
Ilya goes down and applies firm pressure to Shane’s perineum and Shane gasps out an “oh” and “don’t move” because he can feel that through what feels like his entire body. It hurts but in that sickly sweet way that muscle knots do and Ilya is obedient and doesn’t move his thumb, keeps the pressure, and they can both feel it when Shane relaxes and the pain literally melts away and Shane lets out a deep sigh. Ilya gently massages circles for a few more moments before moving up and finally getting to Shane’s pussy.
Ilya uses both hands and strokes up and down Shane’s outer lips, then holds him open with one hand and gentle massages around his very inner lips, gently small circles around his hole, gently waking up the muscles, until Shane is starting to buck up again, and he finally slides a finger inside.
Shane has been fingered by Ilya many times before, but this isn’t really finger. Ilya inserts the tip of one finger and hooks it, gently moving it around in a circle so that he is massaging the very entrance of Shane’s vagina 360 degrees. He slides it in more and does it again, going around clockwise.
He says to Shane, “Tell me when it feels weird, okay? Sore or numb or weird.” and Shane nods. (Shane is now staring at Ilya between his legs and feeling like he’s going crazy. There’s a furrow between Ilya’s brow and he’s so focused on Shane’s body, he’s being so careful. The only reason he’s able to breathe is because every time he stops Ilya tells him to again.)
So Ilya has done a lot of research and he’s using the clock method. If Shane’s tdick is at 12 and his perineum is at 6, Ilya is starting at six and moving the angle of his pressure so his hits every hour on the clock, then he goes in slightly deeper and starts again. Every time he gets to Shane’s g-spot he enjoys the little sounds Shane makes, the way his abs tense.
At one point Shane feels Ilya insert his finger then press down (six o’clock) and he gasps because it’s tender. Ilya looks up at him and Shane doesn’t have any words so he nods and Ilya frowns and eases up his pressure on that spot a little bit. Just a very gentle circulation motion. And Shane isn’t sure it’s making a huge difference but it’s just like with the perineum. He can feel himself melt into it and then he tells Ilya he can move again. The next spot Ilya finds feels a quite numb and again he just applies the gentlest, most careful pressure until Shane says that it feels better.
They both get so absorbed in the task they lose track of time. Shane has never been given this much intimate attention, this much care in his entire life. Sometimes it hurts but he never worries. He knows Ilya is taking care of him. Ilya is listening and watching for his clues (verbal and non-verbal, increasingly non-verbal) and adjusting accordingly. One spot feels almost too painful - Ilya presses on it and Shane feels the throbbing refer to his glutes, his abs, his hips - but Ilya just stays there and they both jump when they can feel the muscle actually twitch under his finger and relax. Ilya presses a kiss to Shane’s knee and continues onwards.
By the time Ilya has gotten as deep as he can with his fingers they’re both kind of wild-eyed. Shane is certainly not fixed but the combination of such focused care and it being Ilya has him carrying less tension than he ever has. It’s almost as though his pelvic floor is sitting lower than it had when they started. He doesn’t feel so… clenched. He also feels like he’s about to cry.
Eventually Ilya sits up and is suddenly very self-conscious. He had imagined seamlessly and sexily transitioning into fucking but now he feels almost emotional and is trying not to show it. Just sitting on his knees between Shane’s legs, hard as fuck and kind of vulnerable. Thankfully, Shane, despite being ever-so-slightly sore and oversensitive, is feeling quite empty, so before Ilya can even finish asking “Was that okay?” Shane drags him down into a kiss.
And then Shane finally gets the stimulation on his tdick and then gets fucked and the orgasm is unlike anything he’s had before - like Ilya has dug inside him and woken up brand new muscles in brand new places.
After this I think Shane really dedicates time to working on his pelvic floor health. I think there was pain he wasn’t even aware of until he felt it go away for a while. He begins to practise using the wand (it’s not as good as Ilya using it on him, which he starts to do sometimes) but it helps and he goes back to the PF PT and keeps working on it. But he still doesn’t let the PF PT do internal release because now he associates it with Ilya and he gets too turned on and embarrassed.
And flash forward to the cottage and afterwards, I think Ilya has a lot of fun trying to coax different types of orgasms out of Shane. Focusing on different muscle groups, seeing which ones become sensitive when they finally relax. Getting him to cum just from deep pressure around the crease of his inner thigh or around the labia majora. Giving Shane orgasms that feel like they’re filling up his entire body, giving him orgasms that last for ages and have him twitching and spasming almost violently. Making Shane cry from the release of tension when Ilya massages him both vaginally and anally at the same time.
And then… AND THEN. If Ilya ever starts to show signs of pelvic floor tension? Shane gives the same tender focus to Ilya’s ass. GOD BLESS.
