#(negative tw)

[dizz0]

[creatursfeturs]

”love thy neighbor” until it’s people of color, transgender people, gay people, LGBTQIA+ people, disabled people, ill people, people with different beliefs/religions, alternative people, masculine women, feminine men, women in general, etc.

[polaroidxcamera]

Medical Talk tw!

|| Sorry that I had suddenly gone poof from tumblr! I honestly haven't been online much at all, including on discord. Admittedly, some personal family health things had come up, to myself and a few other family members and that's kept me pretty occupied and also tbh, kinda feeling a bit bummed out!

I'm okay tho for the most part, I am also on some new medication to help with my weight ( which dkjcsd lowkey makes me nauseous at times but is manageable ), but I have to do more scans, blood tests and surgeon consultations, cause one surgeon wants me to remove the majority of my parathyroids, and I have to see another one concerning my pancreas, which might have something going on- idk yet tbh but I'll get info on that during my consult this week.

I wouldn't be surprised if there is something up with my pancreas tho, since I've recently learned I have the Men1 gene, so I'm predisposed to issues with my endocrine glands and stuff like that. Being diagnosed with that did at least make a lot of sense of why I've had these hormone related issues and other ailments that have affected my health, so at least knowing is some semblance of relief, since it means I can have a better grasp on how to manage it or keep on top of it.

While that's all going on, couple of my close cousins ended up in hospital as well. One is now fine and well, but he gave us a bit of a scare initially. My other cousin unfortunately is not doing too good, and it has my family and I pretty shook. I'm going to make efforts to fly over to see her and her sister more throughout the year, since my cousin will be going through a really arduous journey for treatment and I want to be there for her, and her twin as a means of support. I may consider re-opening my commissions again to go towards flight tickets :> xckxj tho I haven't been drawing at all lately so I feel a bit out of practice pftt

But anyway, that's kinda sdfgddjk a bit of a damper I know, but I am safe and okay and just kinda going through the motions. Focusing on work and family, but I do need to pick myself back up again and talk to ya'll again rather than isolate. I'll try do better about that but appreciate people's patience a whole bunch 💕

Anyway wow, if anyone read through this whole thing I am so sorry for the kinda bummer of a post and rambling but osefnksz thank you and I love ya'll sm 🥺💕I'll try to be more active again online, hopefully soon! No promises tho wheeze ||

[memovia]

Now that I have gathered my thoughts:

yes it is lnd related

People are going to blame the fans, but this hate and anger stemmed from an accumulation of frustrations about the incompetence of the company in areas regarding main story, optimisation, content, resource gathering and etc.

I think the fans are also fucked up, first of all.

Sending funeral flowers and all that. Harassing people online, harassing the company. Boycotting etc. etc. They had valid complaints at the start but the way they went about is so wrong and messed up. Parasocial to a degree, in fact. Acting like it's the end of the world if Valko gets released and things like that.

As someone who has been pushing for changes even... I just feel like the message was clear but not at all how it should be translated to the devs.

...

However...

I also feel like personally, Infold should not have announced the decision to remove Valko but rather, postpone his debut. The other points in their official announcement have already been highlighted in the latest 6.0 stream. Regardless or not, the stories for Syl.us and C.aleb and the features of the housing system are STILL going to be released either way. And you guys still have to wait for months still.

This company is NOT promising you guys anything extra and are not giving any transparency about it either. They're removing Valko because it seemed like the 'easiest' way, or the most 'right' way. The choice that will get celebrated by the noisy fans while everyone else cries.

The message that they're giving us is this:

My game is controlled by finance and profit, by majority of CN fans basically. I will bend the knee and get bossed around. Fuck artistic integrity and fuck everyone who worked so hard on this character / loved this character.

And that is so messed up.

TLDR: I think they're both going about this the wrong way, and god damn... I wish there was an alternative to this problem. I really wished there was.

[matchesburnt]

not 2 sound like the friend that’s too woke but sydney sweeney who most def is a republican doing a weird ass eugenics ad that had nothing to do w jeans for ae was a crazy way to tank her career

[stopmeteor]

( whispers quietly: am i approachable ? ) i know my activity is spotty due to a busy life with littles, but sometimes i get anxious and i worry that i'm not easy to get a hold of / plot with 😵‍💫

[stardustmcde]

{ OOC } ..... i wanna apologize for my sudden hiatus warning. I posted that in the middle of a mental breakdown and wanna retract it. I'm feeling better after several micro naps. but really, there is no excuse for worrying you guys or making rash decisions.

I'll still be quiet OOC but I think I'll reply to a few threads and get my blog back to normal / delete any OOC posts.

Once again, I'm sorry for the erratic / manic behavior. And for the whiplash of changing my mind. It's only been like not even an hour ? But still... I'm sorry. Today's just been rough but I really shouldn't be taking it out on an outlet thats been nothing but positive to me and worrying so many people.

I promise this isnt baiting of any kind, I genuinely thought going on hiatus would've been better because I had the impulsive urge to delete the account all together so I compromised with myself.

I'm just really sorry and I'm gonna pretend that this didnt happen and just focus on having fun, like I should've done earlier instead of spiraling.

[here-in-my-garden-of-shadows]

so..

my aunt saw my art. And she called it gruesome

I feel like this is part of why I'm so insecure about it

Like I know no one IRL is gonna actually appreciate my art lol

I know it weirds people out and shocks them...

Fuck them